Yuna searched the night sky looking for something, anything in the distance that would restore some illusion, something to live for. The only one who filled this imense void was the man she loved. He had all the passion for life that she at one point lacked. Yuna had everything to look forward to, she was young,beautiful and finally free. But in the bellows of her soul she was the same naive girl. Perhaps her drastic change was all an act she put up so she could cope with her loss. For two years Yuna had chased a dream. A dream that in the end was not worth chasing.
It wasn't his lips pressed against hers that night in Macalania forest. It was a painfully hard notion to accept. What was more difficult was to accept the love story she had hoped for didn't belong to her. Rikku had showed Yuna a way to live. But it wasn't Yuna's way of life.
The adventures of the Gullwings was a chapter that had managed to close itself in Yuna's life. Hunting for spheres was a fling of a lifestyle. Good for a laugh or two but it made Yuna feel empty. Mongering for money day to day, trying to get by on digging up forgotten and unless spheres wasn't the way Yuna invisioned spending the rest of her days. Rikku on the other hand will never get tired of it. She lived for the freedom it offered her, thrived on it. However Yuna wasn't Rikku.
As days past Yuna slipped deeper and deeper into an abyss , one of depression and fatigue. All the battles had worn her down. She was no longer the fresh faced young girl she once was. Yuna was a twenty-one year old woman now, looking for a deeper meaning to her existance.
Paine had long abandoned the Gullwings to pursue her dream of being a great film actress. What was even more surprising was the way Paine decided to pin the news on Rikku, who took it especially hard being she considered Paine a sister. It took Yuna days to try a talk Rikku out of her silent treatment with Paine. Wounds healed and Paine's goodbye was a rather happy one. Rikku finally realized that we all had to more on sometime.Yuna and Rikku underwent many days of recuiting around Spira but had found no one as skilled to fill Paine shoes. Rikku just gave up, deciding it was for the best just to let things be.
"Just let things be" Yuna mummered into the distant sky. Yuna tried her hardest. She had learned as a summoner to supress her instincts, to controll her earthly desires. But how could she do that? How could she betray her own feelings? Tidus had taught her to value herself, she wasn't anyones instrument. " I'll be alright," she felt cool tears stream down her cheek, " How?!". Yuna shouted. She stood and wiped away her tears.
"If I truly wasn't an instrument, then why must I marry a man who I don't love!" Yuna sobbed heavily.
"I made him believe I loved him. I lied you understand, I lied." She fought against her sobs, choking them back
" You lied to me Tidus, you made me feel like I was finally free. I never was. I never will be."
Cid overheard and subtily walked over towards the tormented girl.
"Yuna, if I had my way you wouldn't have to do this." Cid embraced his niece in a tender hug. He stroked her warm head, it was a comforting motion. Yuna remembered her mother's embrace.
" We're all counting on you Yuna, you know that." Cid lets his hands slip down to Yuna's shoulders grasping them gently.
" If you don't marry Praetor Baralai, the Al-bhed, your mothers race, will lose everything again."
" Uncle Cid, I know the elders are threatening to destroy the Al-Bhed but I'm sure if you talked to Baralai...he...he wouldn't stand for it!"
" No. he wouldn't. They are willing to kill even Baralai. Yuna this goes much deeper than New Yevon."
Yuna felt her tears reappear " Then let him die! This is my life!"
" Kiddo, I hear you and I don't believe this is the same Yuna talking. You really don't care about Baralai, I mean he believes that you love him."
"It was an act you made me perform!" Yuna demonstated uncharacteristic force as she pryed away from her uncle.
" Yuna, Rikku's life hangs in the balance. Are you telling me Rikku's life is worth nothing to you?"
Yuna stood in awe. Her jaw hung on it's hinges.
"Rikku...is in...?"
Cid wiped tears away.
" Remember a day or two ago when Rikku joined Gippal in the Bikanel dessert?"
" They have warrior monks all over the home reconstruction site, they will kill any Al-Bhed if that wedding does not happen.I was just as digusted as you are now when I heard it. It's to late to do anything. The worst thing is, Rikku nor anyone knows about this.They all believe the lie."
Yuna recomposed herself, it was more evident than ever. She had to go through with the wedding. It was killing her inside. Slowly stabbing her very core. But her path was clear. Happiness wasn't made for Yuna.
It wasn't his lips pressed against hers that night in Macalania forest. It was a painfully hard notion to accept. What was more difficult was to accept the love story she had hoped for didn't belong to her. Rikku had showed Yuna a way to live. But it wasn't Yuna's way of life.
The adventures of the Gullwings was a chapter that had managed to close itself in Yuna's life. Hunting for spheres was a fling of a lifestyle. Good for a laugh or two but it made Yuna feel empty. Mongering for money day to day, trying to get by on digging up forgotten and unless spheres wasn't the way Yuna invisioned spending the rest of her days. Rikku on the other hand will never get tired of it. She lived for the freedom it offered her, thrived on it. However Yuna wasn't Rikku.
As days past Yuna slipped deeper and deeper into an abyss , one of depression and fatigue. All the battles had worn her down. She was no longer the fresh faced young girl she once was. Yuna was a twenty-one year old woman now, looking for a deeper meaning to her existance.
Paine had long abandoned the Gullwings to pursue her dream of being a great film actress. What was even more surprising was the way Paine decided to pin the news on Rikku, who took it especially hard being she considered Paine a sister. It took Yuna days to try a talk Rikku out of her silent treatment with Paine. Wounds healed and Paine's goodbye was a rather happy one. Rikku finally realized that we all had to more on sometime.Yuna and Rikku underwent many days of recuiting around Spira but had found no one as skilled to fill Paine shoes. Rikku just gave up, deciding it was for the best just to let things be.
"Just let things be" Yuna mummered into the distant sky. Yuna tried her hardest. She had learned as a summoner to supress her instincts, to controll her earthly desires. But how could she do that? How could she betray her own feelings? Tidus had taught her to value herself, she wasn't anyones instrument. " I'll be alright," she felt cool tears stream down her cheek, " How?!". Yuna shouted. She stood and wiped away her tears.
"If I truly wasn't an instrument, then why must I marry a man who I don't love!" Yuna sobbed heavily.
"I made him believe I loved him. I lied you understand, I lied." She fought against her sobs, choking them back
" You lied to me Tidus, you made me feel like I was finally free. I never was. I never will be."
Cid overheard and subtily walked over towards the tormented girl.
"Yuna, if I had my way you wouldn't have to do this." Cid embraced his niece in a tender hug. He stroked her warm head, it was a comforting motion. Yuna remembered her mother's embrace.
" We're all counting on you Yuna, you know that." Cid lets his hands slip down to Yuna's shoulders grasping them gently.
" If you don't marry Praetor Baralai, the Al-bhed, your mothers race, will lose everything again."
" Uncle Cid, I know the elders are threatening to destroy the Al-Bhed but I'm sure if you talked to Baralai...he...he wouldn't stand for it!"
" No. he wouldn't. They are willing to kill even Baralai. Yuna this goes much deeper than New Yevon."
Yuna felt her tears reappear " Then let him die! This is my life!"
" Kiddo, I hear you and I don't believe this is the same Yuna talking. You really don't care about Baralai, I mean he believes that you love him."
"It was an act you made me perform!" Yuna demonstated uncharacteristic force as she pryed away from her uncle.
" Yuna, Rikku's life hangs in the balance. Are you telling me Rikku's life is worth nothing to you?"
Yuna stood in awe. Her jaw hung on it's hinges.
"Rikku...is in...?"
Cid wiped tears away.
" Remember a day or two ago when Rikku joined Gippal in the Bikanel dessert?"
" They have warrior monks all over the home reconstruction site, they will kill any Al-Bhed if that wedding does not happen.I was just as digusted as you are now when I heard it. It's to late to do anything. The worst thing is, Rikku nor anyone knows about this.They all believe the lie."
Yuna recomposed herself, it was more evident than ever. She had to go through with the wedding. It was killing her inside. Slowly stabbing her very core. But her path was clear. Happiness wasn't made for Yuna.