Only a short oneshot to get back into the swing of things :) I was reading some of my reviews and I think I might try and finish off 'The hidden paw' and 'Electra' If I can find time. Sorry it's been so long since I've written anything... x
I was always second best. Never quite up to scratch or meeting the mark, constantly in someone else's shadow. I was Mr. Average, I excelled at nothing. So why should I be surprised? I'm not the most attractive tom in the junkyard, I can't sing or dance as well as others and I have no special talents. I was once accused of following the crowd, but there is nothing that makes me stand apart so I will always stay just a face in the crowd. So it's no surprise at all she doesn't want me. Why should she? She could choose from any tom in the junkyard so why go for anything but the best the junkyard has to offer?
The other toms see her as cheap, useful for only one thing. But not me, I love her more than she will ever know. Yeah, she flirts with me but Tugger still gets most of her attentions, I'm just someone to turn to when he's not around. Strange as it may sound, I'm happy with that. I am content just to sit and watch her, smile when she smiles and love her from a distance. I can be content with that.
I've seen a side of Bomba other toms could never hope to see, the broken, crumpled queen she becomes as once again another tom leaves her after telling her they loved her. Maybe one day I will have the guts to tell her how I feel, maybe I will somehow prove that I am worthy of her love. Of course, maybe pigs will fly. I am no competition for toms like Tugger and Munkustrap.
I go on as normal, like nothing is wrong but every day I see her smile and my heart breaks that I will never be good enough to make her smile the way other toms do. So I just sit and watch, smile and nod, love and never be loved in return.
I am Alonzo.
Second Best.