Disclaimer: I don't own NCIS LA unfortunately By the way italics are thoughts.
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Kensi smiled as she got every last detail right. The table in her living room was surrounded by pillows, which she planned to use as make shift seats, and the table was full of home made food, surprisingly, which Kensi made herself. Round the edges of the table, it was littered with soothing sensual candles, which made her apartment have a dim light. She stood up smoothing the creases out of her dark blue satin dress, and made sure her hair looked perfect. She tried to wipe the worry out of her brain, which was working on overdrive after she had decided she was going to tell Deeks about her feelings toward him. She took a deep breath and let it out to calm her nerves then glances at the clock on her phone 8:07pm. He was meant to arrive at 8.
"Don't worry Kensi." She scolded herself.
"He's only 7 minutes late, probably had to drop Monty off at a friends or something, yeah that's probably why." Kensi reassured herself.
She wasn't sure how long she had been sitting on her couch, definitely long enough for the food to go cold and the candles to go out. She sighed and finally got up, carrying the plates full of cold pasta and cheese bread into the kitchen, then scraping them into the silver bin located in the corner. Kensi looked up at the clock once again 10:49pm it read. She had been sat waiting, hoping that Deeks would turn up for 3 hours. She felt her heart contract, realizing he had obviously forgotten about her, which hurt her more than anything. All she wanted was for him to realize. Realize she was there, had always been there. Kensi took another deep breath and refrained from throwing the plate at the wall out of frustration, instead she placed it on the counter, went back into the living room to clean up all the pillows and candles cluttered around the sofa and table. She then headed to her bedroom, and attempt to get at least 4 hours of sleep.
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Kensi woke with a start. Her breathing was labored and her forehead covered in sweat and stray pieces of her dark, curly hair. Once realizing where she was, her breathing calmed down and she lay back to rest her head on her pillows. That damn dream again. It was the same dream she had been getting at least once a week, if not more, since that whole thing with Petrov. The scenes from her dream kept on replaying in her mind, the scenes of Deeks in that metal head brace, that monster making him screaming in agony. Yet Kensi hadn't been there when it actually happened, but she had been told what had happened and she couldn't stop herself from imagining the pain he must have been in. She squeezed her eyes shut, hoping to wipe her mind of any trace of those sickening images that were playing like a movie on repeat through her brain. Even though she still was pissed and hurt at Deeks for not turning up, it still pained her a lot to see him in agony. She let out one last deep breath, turned on her side, relishing the coldness the un used pillow gave and attempted to get back to sleep.
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As Kensi made her way into the bull pen the next morning, she bit back the urge to yawn yet again. She had gotten around 2 hours sleep at best, and you could tell. Her hair was a complete mess, and she wasn't even sure if she had buttoned her shirt up correctly. She trudged in and threw her stuff next to her oak desk, then slumped down in her chair. Ten minutes later, one by one the rest of the team entered the bullpen, except from Deeks. At last, 30 minutes late Deeks cockily strolled into the bullpen, wearing his signature blue jeans, white t-shirt and leather jacket. He went over to his desk, still keeping the same confident grin on his face.
"So why are you all happy, its Monday, no one should be happy on a Monday." Sam inquired, not looking up from his computer.
"Just had a good night, that's all." Deeks replied, the grin still not leaving his face. Kensi felt her heart contract, another hot blonde, and another bar.
'Does he even care about me?' She thought to herself, cause he sure wasn't acting like he gave even a little damn.
The bullpen returned to silence after a while, the odd employee strolling past to use the copier or get coffee from the break room. Everyone was looking at their own computer, doing their own work. Deeks still hadn't noticed Kensi was her, which made the hurt in her heart a little more stronger.
'I can't believe I was going to tell him I loved him.' Kensi sighed. She blinked a couple of times, willing her eyes to focus on the blurred words on the computer screen, damn she should of taken those sleeping pills last night. Kensi's eyes still wouldn't focus on her screen, at least it's just cold cases today, she reminded herself. But then there was Deeks. Battling him whilst on the verge of collapsing wasn't the best thing to do. She sighed then stood up.
"I'm going out for a bit, I'll be back in a couple of hours." She spoke to no one in particular. Deeks finally looked up and realized Kensi was actually there. His eyes widened at the sight, deep purple bags under her eyes, her chocolate eyes themselves, about to close at any minute, she looked like hell. She picked up her stuff and walked out of the bullpen, when Deeks snapped back into reality and ran after her.
"KENSI, WAIT!" Deeks shouted after her hoping to get her to stop. She continued walking at the same pace until he reached her, grabbed her arm and spun her around. Forcing her to look him in the eyes for a split second, she then tore her eyes away and stared at the pale cream wall.
"What do you want Officer Deeks?" Kensi growled, clearly not in the mood to be talked to, especially by him.
"Jeez, what's gotten into you today" He replied back. She flung her arm from his grip and started striding back toward the exit. Deeks once again took off after her down the stone floored corridor. He reached just before she could open the glass door to the parking lot.
"Kens, seriously what's wrong?" Deeks tried again, more concerned this time, his brown creased in worry. Kensi avoided his eyes, clearly not in the mood.
"LEAVE IT! Ok. Just drop it, it's obvious you don't care anyway, I can finally see that now." She spat, tears forming in her eyes. She then once again strode out of his reach and out of NCIS HQ. Deeks just stood there puzzled. What had he done? It hurt him deeply to think that Kensi thought he didn't care about her, which was a complete lie, she was the one person he cared about most in the whole world. He stared, upset at the doors she had just exited. Then Deeks pulled him self-together and went to locate her, to find out what the hell was making her act this way.
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