Disclaimer: I do not own Hana Yori Dango nor do I own the song Bizarre Love Triangle

AN: This is my first HYD fanfic. I have only read up to volume three in the manga. I really love it. This story starts after Doumyouji assaults her towards the end of book three, but the party never happened. I tried to keep everyone in character. Hope you like it!

Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind

Tsukushi Makino was daydreaming again. Was it a dream or a nightmare? She couldn't decide. It was what Doumyouji had done to her. What he had almost done to her. It brought heat to her cheeks every time she thought about it. He had been so strong when he held her down. Yet there was no bruising on her arms. He could have easily crushed her. And that kiss! It was so soft. She hated to admit that some twisted part of her had liked it. He had been so scary and frightening, but when she started crying and begged him to stop he was so gentle and the guilt over what he had done shown clearly in his eyes. Though he never apologized, he had held her close and tried to comfort her. Then when that didn't work he had left her alone, practically ran away from her like she was the plague.

He also avoided her now. She wasn't even bullied that much anymore. She frowned wondering why it bothered her so much. It shouldn't be a problem. It should have been a blessing, but it just didn't feel right to her. No one leaves a weed in the garden. They try to eradicate it. She was not a flower. Maybe she thought she was that one night, but didn't it just prove to her that she would never fit in?

Shouldn't she be thinking of Rui? No he belongs with Shizuka, not her. It was just a crush because he was so nice, when everyone else was out to get her. But why was she thinking of someone who assaults her and holds her so very close. It was all his fault! Why did he confuse her so? She would give anything to be picked on right now. Perhaps, she shouldn't have thought that. She was soon cornered by Asai and her groupies. She sighed this was going to be a long day.

But there's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of the fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
Well every day my confusion grows

Doumyouji was angry. Which was nothing out of the ordinary. He was always angry at something or someone. This time was different though, it was the first time he was angry with himself. How could he let her do that to him? He was not the type to ever be made a fool of, yet she had done it so easily. He didn't know why it bothered him. She was just someone to pick on for his amusement. Right? Then why was he so jealous when Rui played the hero in the cafeteria that day? It was because deep down he wanted that part. He wanted to save her. He wanted to be her hero. Why? Why did it bother him so much that she was in love with Rui? And what did she mean in that videotape when she had asked Rui not to hate her? Was Asai telling the truth? He growled in frustration.

It didn't matter now. Not with what he had nearly done to her. She had looked so scared; he had never seen her fear him like the others did. That was what he had wanted. Wasn't it? But instead of making him feel happy it made him feel sick and disgusted with himself. She would surely hate him now. What was it about her that brought out such primal needs, to possess and to protect? He bullied her just so she would notice him. He prayed for others to bully her so that he might be the hero. He cursed Rui and Tsukushi both. He was so confused. Did he want her for a toy? To fuck and ridicule? Or was it something else? Just then he came upon Asai and her groupies cornering Tsukushi. He fought the urge to chase them off as he hid and listened.

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

"You might as well leave. Doumyouji will never want you now. We made sure of that. With that tape of you begging to Rui not to hate you cause you overheard him and Shizuka, a little editing, and a few untruths. We made him hate you." Asai was laughing, while Doumyouji seethed in anger. She framed Tsukushi! Asai had manipulated him into doing such awful things to her. That bitch! I'm gonna kill her. "I-I'll tell him the truth." Doumyouji was knocked out of his rage by her words. "And who would believe a piece of filth like you over us? You forget we gave him "proof"" He fumed as he watched Tsukushi near tears and shaking with anger. "And Rui will never be yours either so just leave or it will only get worse for you." Doumyouji watched how Tsukushi relaxed. Was she giving up so easily? No. He recognized this from his own sister. This was the calm before the storm.

"You call me filth? I was not the one who had to stoop so low as to lying. As for Rui, yes, I thought maybe we might have had something." Doumyouji's heart sank. "But it was just a crush because while everyone picked on me, he was the only one that would talk to me and stick up for me. I know now we could never be more than friends. If we were even that. As for Doumyouji, I will make him believe me. As I said before I am immune to herbicide! So you might as well leave me the hell alone. Oh, by the way, how did charming that Maekawa guy after I left the party go?" Doumyouji had heard a slap and saw the girls begin to close in on her.

"You bitch! You're gonna pay for what you did to me! Nobu! Help us teach Tsukushi a lesson." Just then one of Asai's love fools showed up like a dog ready to obey. He advanced on Tsukushi. Doumyouji stood there frozen with shock as Nobu slapped Tsukushi so hard she fell to the ground and spit out blood. He kicked her hard in the stomach, then hauled her back up by her hair and drew his fist back. Doumyouji had seen enough. Anger was pouring from him, as he grabbed Nobu by the arm that was about to strike Tsukushi. He kicked out his knee and the Nobu fell to the ground. Doumyouji drew his elbow down over the Nobu's head. Nobu fell unconscious. Doumyouji wasn't even close to finished, but a whimper in front of him made him forget all about that.

He saw Tsukushi rolled into the fetal position. Tears poured down her face as she tried to catch her breath. He scooped her up amazed at how light she felt in his arms. Her eyes were clenched shut as her small fists pounded against his chest. He held her close. "Shhh…It's okay now. He won't hurt you ever again. I promise." She looked up at him recognition dawning in her eyes. She clutched his shirt crying into his chest. "A..Asai lied to you…I didn't…" She coughed trying to catch her breath. Doumyouji looked at her worried she could have broken ribs…a punctured lung! "Shhh I know…Shhh don't talk I've got to get you to the hospital." She shook her head terrified. "No…can't…" She turned pale and passed out. He ran to the car directing the driver to go to the hospital and fast. He looked down at her. He had never been so scared for anyone else in his entire life. She looked so pale. Her breathing was ragged. "I won't let you die on me!" He had finally gotten to play the hero, but now he wish he hadn't had to.

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

Tsukushi felt like she was floating. She blinked her eyes open. She was in a hospital bed a doctor was looking at her concerned. "Do you feel all right? Any pain?" She tried to answer but she could not bring herself to talk. It should have frightened her, but she felt too good to argue with it. She ended up shaking her head no, only to become a little dizzy. Ah! Painkillers really are a wondrous thing. She felt herself slipping and was soon back in la-la land. She woke up not knowing how much time had passed. She groaned as the light stung her eyes. She tried to sit up. It hurt to breathe, but she was almost upright when someone gently but firmly pushed her back down again. She tried to get back up.

"Lay down you don't want to hurt yourself even more." She looked at a very worried Doumyouji and did as he said; it hurt too much to argue. "I feel like I was hit by a truck." He managed a small smile. "Nope just a fellow student. Who just happened to fracture a few of your ribs." She remembered it all now, and groaned again. Doumyouji went back to looking concerned. She gave him a small smile. "Stop looking so worried. What would your friends think?" He looked a little hurt. "I dunno. You can ask them. They are out in the hall." She saw how hurt he looked. It wasn't the right response. He was supposed to make fun of her or something. "I..I didn't mean…I just wanted…You just looked so worried. I.." He smiled catching on.

"There you go blabbering again." She sighed trying to find a come back, but somehow this situation seemed so awkward. "We're having a little trouble getting in touch with your parents." She smiled and looked relieved. "Yeah, they went to go visit grandma. They will be gone for the rest of the week." He frowned. "Oh. Well there's a problem. The doctor's said you could be released tomorrow, but you will need someone to take care of you. You won't exactly be able to move around a lot." This time she frowned as well.

Then as if just realizing she was in the hospital she tried to sit up again in shock. The bill! She couldn't afford a doctor bill, not with her allowance. "Calm down. It's okay." Tsukushi shook her head. "No…No it's not…I can't afford all this!" She watched as he tried to keep her still. "I have already taken care of it. It's okay." Tsukushi looked at him. "I-I'll pay you back." He shook his head. "No you won't. I won't let you. It was my fault for believing Asai in the first place." Did he just take the blame for something? She laid still shocked. "You will still need someone to take care of you once you are released. Is there any relative nearby?" She shook her head. "Ok then I will do it. Now get some rest." She started to close her eyes. Wait a minute! Had she heard him correctly?

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Apparently she had heard him correctly. He drove her to his house where there was a room set up for her. When she asked what his parents thought he just shrugged saying that they were out of town on business for the next month. The bed was so comfortable. She actually sank into it. Doumyouji never seemed to leave her side that morning. He had started picking on her again. She didn't mind. She knew he didn't mean any of it. She reminded him to go to school. He promised to pick up her assignments. He warned her to stay in bed and if she needed anything to call for a servant. After the few idle threats and her promising to stay in bed he left. She slept a little bit, before she heard a knocking on the door.

Three maids and two butlers walked in. "Um hello?" What was she supposed to say to them? The older butler spoke up first. "Do you need anything miss? Is everything to your liking?" She found this odd that all of them had come to see to her needs. "Um…everything is great. Thank you all so very much for your concern, I promise to try not to be too much of a bother." They all smiled. A plump little maid spoke up. "You won't be a bother. After all, we are here to serve." They all nodded. The younger butler spoke up. "Especially to the one who has gotten the young master into such good spirits. He's been very agreeable lately." Ah! So that was it. She smiled. "Has he? Was he really that terrible before?" They all looked nervous. "It's ok. You don't have to answer that. I saw how he was at school I could only imagine how he was here." They all sighed.

Tsukushi felt thirsty, but found it awkward to order anyone around. How should she ask for it? "Um…If it's not too much trouble…I am feeling a little thirsty." At once they sprung into action. One of the maids fluffing her pillow, another tucking her in more securely, the other making sure she had a remote to the TV and the ceiling fan and lights, a butler asked her what she had wanted to drink and if she was hungry as well. She said an iced tea was fine, and the other butler went to fetch it. This was all too much. She just kept thanking them until they all finally left. "Gee he must have been a real ass." She giggled a bit. She caught a little more sleep, and soon Doumyouji was home telling her all her class assignments.

She groaned. Too much. She went to sit up, and hissed a little from pain. Doumyouji pushed her back down. "Tomorrow you are not up for this today." She began to protest, but he looked at her and she knew she was too weak to win this one. "Fine!" He smiled again. She frowned and shifted a little bit to get more comfortable only to wince in pain and have to find her breath. "I should have killed the bastard." She heard him say. Then she remembered that boy he had beaten the day he also assaulted her. "Did you beat him worse than that other guy?" Doumyouji frowned. "No. I was too worried about you. I shouldn't have done it to that other guy. I was just so angry, and he was there. I have already compensated him for his pain and suffering."

Tsukushi was surprised. She actually saw regret in his eyes. She yawned. "You need to get some rest." He said and she frowned. "All I have been doing is sleep." He smiled. "Well it's all apart of the healing mechanism." She giggled. "Don't you mean process." He turned red. "Y-yeah that's what I meant, just seeing if you were still pointy." She started to laugh only to wince a little from the pain it caused. She found her breath. "I think you mean sharp. We really need to work on your vocabulary." She could see he was counting to ten. "Which means I will probably have to come over and tutor you every once in a while." He brightened at that. "Yeah I guess so." She yawned again her eyelids becoming heavy. "Good night. Sweet dreams." She heard him whisper as he kissed her forehead.

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

That was it! She had spent three days in bed. She could stand it no longer. She knew Doumyouji would be home any minute, so she tried to hurry and make it to the chair by the window. It hurt to sit up, but not so much anymore. She could still breathe when she did it. So making it to the chair shouldn't be too difficult. Or so she thought. The first couple of steps were bearable, now she was exhausted and hurting. She didn't think she would make it. She was determined though and tried another step as Doumyouji opened the door to greet her. "Hel…What are you doing?!" Her concentration gone she felt her legs give out. He rushed over to her catching her just before she hit the ground. He was on his knees holding her close. "What the hell do you think you were doing?! You scared me half to death girl!" She looked at him.

He looked like he was out of breath and his heart was beating rapidly. She couldn't help but notice how handsome he looked or how strong he was. She wanted very badly for him to kiss her right now. What?! I want him to kiss me?! "I-I'm sorry. I was trying to make it to that chair." He sighed. "You should have called someone then." She blushed ashamed. "I-I know I just thought I could do it myself. I'm sorry." She didn't know why, but she had felt tears stinging her eyes. She blinked them back as he lifted her taking her to the chair. He sat her down gently and took her hands in his kneeling so that she could see his face without straining. "Just don't do that again. I don't want you to get hurt again. Ever." His words were touching. She knew when she got better and she went back to school things might return to the way they were. He would ridicule her, and she would not belong.

For now though, he was hers. She felt herself lean towards him, as if sensing her intent he met her halfway. Their lips met in a sweet kiss before they both pulled back. She could see how confused he was and she felt the need to explain. "When I get better and go back to school. Things might go back to the way they were. I know I do not belong, and I know you will probably not want to be seen in public with me. I remember your past offer, but I am not one for pretend nor would I wish to be your secret. So I just wanted something to remember you by, just in case. So if you go back to your old self…I just wanted you to know that it will probably be harder to hate you. Cause I don't want too. I…I…" Tears were stinging her eyes yet again, but this time she could not hold them all back. A single tear had escaped only to have a gentle hand wipe it away. She managed to look at him. He was smiling a triumphant smile. "I knew I would make you fall in love with me!" He declared. It made her smile just a little and she couldn't find it in her to deny his accusations as he kissed her again.

AN: Thank you for reading! Please review and tell me what you think. (Smaller paragraphs yay! I finally found the time!)