A Letter To You
If I close my eyes and dream.. Will you magically appear?
If I close my eyes to reality.. Will you take me away to your world?
I never knew things would end up that way..
I never knew how much loneliness I'd have to go through...
You never warned me for all of this..
You never told me how my life would continue..
You never told me how I could continue living on without you...
Just pure advices..
On living my life to the fullest...
On never stop playing the piano...
But this is not enough..
How could it be?
When you knew.. and never told me...
Have you ever wondered.. How does it feel to be so lonely?
Alone on this planet.. A soul that has no meaning.
It's painful...
It's dreadful.. It's fearful...
Yet, I have no complaints...
I found someone that gave a meaning to all these...
I found someone that gave a purpose to my lifeless soul.
..But I still feel empty...
I can feel a gap in my heart..
The place you once owned.
What am I without you..?
Who am I really..?
The nicknames never helped me to orient myself.
The nicknames never helped me to see ahead..
What's life mom?
What is it without you..?
What is it without the part of me which you stole..?
Do you want to remember me that much?
..Or do you want to forget me?
Do you want /me/ to forget you?
..I am just so confused...
No matter how many years pass by..
I can't help but count all the days I was with you..
But for some reason.. they shorten...
These days.. they turned into hours...
These hours... they turned into minutes...
These minutes...
..I'm afraid mom...
I'm afraid of forgetting..
I'm afraid of the gap in my heart being replaced...
..I'm afraid of my wounds being healed.
I love you...
No matter what happens.. No matter with whom I am with.. No matter how many challenges I'll have to face..
I'll still love you...
And I promise you mom...
I really promise you...
..to never forget.
Never forget you...
Never forget the seconds, minutes, hours, days we lived together.
Never forget the pain you caused me...
Never forget the loneliness...
Because if I do...
...What will life be then mom?
What will it be.. without the smallest memories of you?
What will I be...
..without you?