authors note: hey guys so new story post BD so again if you havn't read it yet don't read this. um in the first chapter i don't even get to talking about bella and edward. you get a quick glimce of jacob but really its just an intro and i'll try up dated when ever i can. it will a decent lenghted piece

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Prologue

Growing up is hard when it is so fast that you don't really get to experience it. Sometimes I really begrudge what I am just because I will never get what my mother had or any of my family. My life was predetermined before I was born my future all ready set. Because of this sometimes the things I love the most are the very things I hate.

I have only been alive for 5 years, only thought about for a month before that. My childhood is non-existent because my stupid mind even betrayed my heart.

Everyday my Jacob woke me from the clouds of sleep with a bowl of cereal. Now ok cereal wasn't my favorite food – food wasn't my favorite food-, but I really appreciated the gesture and it wasn't to bad of a way to start my accelerated life. I had lived 18 years in 5 I didn't want to miss anything.

"Hey Ness, how are you this morning." His rough but warm fingers traced to shape of my face, his hands gifts from the gods. oh it was heaven to wake up

"Older" was my immediate reply this used to freak me out scare me even but I had grown to except it I was just regretful is sighed but this was life, mine.

"Then we better fill it with as much random stuff as possible" and he smiled and grabbed my hand, no time to dress and worry about how I looked just time to experience life. We were quickly in the car buckled in and driving down the road I was in the back divider- best invention ever for in car change room – and quickly made myself presentable. Every day this week was the same I was getting a taste of what my senior year would be like. When I looked fourteen I had thrown the biggest trauma of my life about how it wasn't fair that I would never be young not really. My Jacob took the brunt of it but no one new how to help my depression except jasper strangely enough. He had suggested that if I wanted a taste of teenage life I could go to school for three weeks in each grade, I wouldn't have grown to much in that time and we would just pretend I was an army brat or something. It was the best and hardest thing I ever had to do. The first time it surprised me how important it was for me to make friends to fit in. and to do this again and again was hard but by the time I got to high school I liked to think of myself as a pro.

So that's what today was, Friday of my first week. Sure I never really made any strong friendships but at least I got a taste that's all I ever could hope for. I kissed Jacob on the cheek and jumped out of the car knowing he would be here as soon as the bell rang to whisk me off to my next activity.

I walked through the junior quad and over to where the seniors lived, I think I actually liked being a junior more they were so strangely self-important but seniors were more welcoming they still had the royalty complex but they weren't so hard to convince I wasn't a freak. I sat down at one of the benches that were filled with a group of students who had graciously allowed me into their circle for the remainder of my stay. Five of them in total a Jess a Nicky, Tom, Pete and Terry. They were nice, as friendly as anyone in high school was and they weren't popular but they still got invited to the parties so the perfect sample of people for maximum levels of experience. I still had a long day ahead of me but I settled myself into this routine and tried to forget that it wasn't going to last nearly long enough.

so there you have it the first chapter of my first piece that i'm actully going to complete because its really easy for me to right for some reason up don't know when i'll post next chapter but it shouldn't take to long. yes i know its short but the next bits a bit longer and i didn't feel like editing it yet. R&R

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