Here's a surprise! Yay! Right now I have chapter five of The Perfect Guy half way done so just enjoy this little drabble that was made up in my social studies class. I should have been doing my project, but I thought that this was wayy more important. Please Review!
Disclaimer: I do not own Instant Star
Lying By Me .
You can't lie to yourself.
The way you look at her. The way you soak in her presence when she walks into a room. The way you smile at her when she laughs. Or even the way her blonde hair sways with the wind. She haunts your dreams. But you shrug it off as if it were nothing. You know it's not nothing.
You're just afraid. It's okay. Everybody gets afraid when they feel this way. But you don't have to deny in though.
Wally and Kyle tell you to get over it. You say you've been over it already. You keep saying that you don't like her. But you know in your heart that it's not true. You try to get over her, but it's no use. She's what you think about when you wake up and before you close your eyes to sleep.
"She's just a friend," you tell yourself. Sure she still may be your friend, but you know you want to be more then that again.
You have to deal with the pain. The hurt. The hurt of letting her go to someone.
"I had to," you whisper. "She loved him…"
Love.
A word you wouldn't normally say. But you knew it existed. She felt it for him. She loved him.
Tom Quincy. Or Little Tommy Q. The guy who stole her heart. The guy who you wanted to bash his head into a wall. The guy who you thought was way better than you. That is so not true.
But why are you feeling this way? Why does your heart flip when she smiles at you? Why does your stomach churn when she hugs you? Or why do you feel you need to beat the living day lights out of the nearest person when she cries?
It's a very simple answer.
It's a fate worse than death. It's love.
"Love!" you scoff shaking your head. "Me? In love with Jude? Yeah right!"
Yes.
Yes it is right. You love her but you're scared to love her. She broke your heart and you don't want to admit it.
"As long as she's happy, I'm happy," you sigh closing your eyes.
Closing your eyes to shield the heartache.
No.
You don't want her to be happy with anyone else. You want her to be happy with you. You want to be the one to make her laugh with your stupid jokes, or be the shoulder to cry on when something so bad upsets her. You want to do anything for her even if she likes it or not.
Then again, you still do.
As a friend.
"A friend is what I'll always be to her. No matter what."
You can't lie to yourself Vincent Spiederman.
You're in love with Jude Harrison and you can't do one single thing about it.
So yes, this is my awesome drabble that I just had to write. So please drop a review down.
Je ne!
Monko25