Hey lovelies:) Here is my new story I hope you like it. Let me know what you think. Sorry that it took me so long to post it. But English is not my mother language. So it took me a while to translate it. I am also apologizing for all my grammar mistakes. But I hope you like it so far...
all characters belong to Shonda
Chapter I
Something changes (Some things change)
It was a long day in Seattle Greys Mercy West. Jackson had just lost a patient for the first time in a while. He never did well with this, as his professional ethics was to save lives and he suffered every time, like an iron hammer banging in his chest, if he were not able to.
He left the operating room, took off his scrubs and cleaned off the sweat from his forehead. Absorbed in thought he wandered through the corridors to his office. Suddenly he heard a 'Hey' coming from afar. When he looked up he saw April at the other end of the corridor. She walked toward him: 'Jackson, are you all right?'
She softly touched his arm and looked at him questioning and worried.
'Yes, I just lost a patient again, an Aneurysm wandering to the brain during operation. I know this can happen anytime and that I couldn't have avoided it, but I suffer every time as if it was the first death.'
He looked into April's eyes, a safe haven since forever. April's and his friendship had grown tremendously since the dreadful killing spree. She was always there for him, the brightest and sweet-naturist person he knew, firm as a rock. Her presence alone lifted him up. April was the sole real friend he ever has had, someone he could always count on.
She looked in his eyes and her heart saddened. She hated seeing Jackson suffer, she knew this pain all too well. "It is always hard... you ask yourself such terrible things like that happen...he is in a better place now... and I am sure you have done your best to save him... it was not your false." A ´light smile spread over his face. Somehow April always found the right words to calm him "How you can still have such power in you, while we have all these awful things that happen here and at the same time you can also give me so much strength?" He asked and put his arm around her shoulder. " I don't know. I just trust.. that all have a sense in life, even the bad things." She answered. Jackson put her closer to him and kissed the crown of her head. I am so grateful to have you in my life." He whispered.
"Me too Jacks.?"
" I wanted to go to joe's to grab some drinks. Do you wanna keep me company for a drink?" Jackson asked her.
" Sure I just gonna change my clothes. Would you wait here?" April answered.
"Of course. Take your time." He said and smiled.
"I'll hurry. I will be back in a minute."April said and hushed away. A couple of minute she came back. She was wearing a dark blue pair of jeans and a red V Neck Long sleeve.
"So lets go." She said and they were making their way to Joe's. As soon as they arrived they already seen Christina and Meredith sitting in the bar.
"Hey you both!" Christina greeted them.
"Hey." Jackson and April greeted back.
"Pretty boy and virgin Mary, come join us for a drink. " Christina suggested in excitement and held up a glass filled with tequila.
Jackson threw Christina an angry look and said:" I said don't call her that."
" It's OK Jacks. I am kind of used to it."April said. Out for all that they joint them.
" Hey Joe two glasses with tequila please for our virgin Mary and pretty boy over here," Christina ordered. By these words, Jackson rolled his eyes in annoyance. Christina took the fur glaces and handed it to them all of them. "lets see if we can get you drunk Kepner." Christina says. "It's not like I never been drunk before... "April protested. "Maybe, but I've never seen it before, so... " Christina toasted to April. "But I am only drinking one or two shots:" April said and took her glass
"Stop teasing her. " Meredith defended April. "I am not teasing her. I am trying to be a good friend, by showing April the pleasures of the world. You have to taste the pleasures of life though. One of them is definitely tequila. She toasted again " So take my help and drink, you too Avery. Cheers." They did as they were told and trowing back the shots. Jackson saw on the corner of his own how April was shaken by the bitter flavor of tequila "Urgh this stuff is awful. I don't understand how you guys could drink much more than one of it." April complained. She looked up to Jackson, who seems lost in thought. "We can sit somewhere else, if you want" She suggested softly. " No, no it's all right." He murmured.
"Oh you want sone lonely time together. It is OK: We already wanted to go to mer though. We leave you lovebirds alone" Christina offered and stood up of chair. She put 30 dollars on the counter "Keep the Change." She said to Joe and grabbes her purse. "All right lets go." Meredith said and put her Jacket on. " See you at work tomorrow Pretty boy, you look awful! Keppner take care of it!" Christina said and left the bar with Meredith.
"Whiskey Cola please... or... make two of it. Jacckson ordered. "You're staying, right.? Jackson hopfully asked. "Of Course I'll stay!" She squeezed his Hand. He took their two glasses Whiskey Cola, gestured to another table and take a seat with April. He took a big sip of his Whiskey. "This all sucks. I just wanted to help that woman... I wanted to give her a beautiful face again... I wanted to do something good... and what I have done? I fail and now she is dead! Jackson took another sip to drown his frustration.
"I know Jackson" April gently stroked the back of his head. She felt tears in her Eyes but she fought against it. She hated to see her best Friend like that. She wanted to take some pain off of him. " You will be fine Jackson You will save many lives in the future. For that I am sure. People Die. That is the risk of our Job and sometimes we can't do anything about it.
"You're probably right..." He smiled at her.
" Hey babe, can I buy you a drink?" a sleazy guy and inerrupted Jacksons and Aprils conversation.
"Oh thanks for the offer, but I still have one." April replied kindly. "Come on, just one drink, after that one please." The guy ask obtrusivliy. "I think I am only drinking one, but thanks anyway." She Answered "oh come on do me the favor!" The guy doesn't stop bothering. Don't you understand? She doesn't want a drink!" Jackson defend her. " OK OK I'm going." The sleazy blond guy said. And got a seat on another table. Jackson saw that the guy was still staring at them. " Thank you Jacks." April said and gently touched his arm "No problem Apes. " He smiled at her. April took a huge Sip. " So... enough about me, how about you? How was your day?" Jackson asked. Her face begun to brighten up. " Oh it was pretty lazy, only two trauma were coming in. but both are alive, so it was a lazy, but at least a good day." She said and took another sip.
"A beautiful day to save lives." Jackson cheers.
" To Tommorow!" April cheered and smiles.
Jackson noticed that the guy still stared at April " Did it often happen that you got molest by guys and they don't back off?" " No, not really. Why should they. I am kind of annoying and have a weird voice. I am weird. " She replied.
"Stop saying that! You're beautiful!" He said honestly.
" You have to say that. You are my best friend Jackson." April laughed.
" No, I would've also say that if I weren't your best friend! Because it's the truth." Jackson answered and looked into Aprils eyes. April saw something in his eyes, that she never seen before. She knew that Jackson cared about her. Of course... he is her best friends. But by the way he looked at her now... something changed. She couldn't explain it to herself. Confused she took a big sip of her Whiskey Cola.
"April? Are you alright." Jackson asked in concern as he notice her nervousness.
" Yeah it is nothing." She rambled. She downed her glass in one gulp.
Noticing her discomfort Jackson asked: " What's wrong Apes?" and touched her Arm
April stiffened by his touch. "Nothing...uh... I am fine... April assured. Suddenly she stood up from her chair. "I... I have to go... I think that was to much to drink I am feeling a little dizzy.
" OK I can take you home now." Jackson offered in concern. " No that is not nessesary. Really. You didn't even finish your glass. See you tomorrow." April winked.
"Than at least give me a call when you arrived at home."
"Sure. " She nodded got her coat on and left the Joe's.
April walked along the street. She decided to walk home, because maybe that woulld clear her mind. She took a deep breath. She totally overinterpreting. But she couldn't forget. How he looked at her. She laughed sarcastically "I really drank too much... I am phantasying that Jackson Avery had more than friendly feelings for me." She said to herself and shook her head. "Hey Baby you owe me a drink." She turned around. It was the guy from the bar. "Thanks, but not today, maybe another time..." She said. He got closer and April become uncomfortable by his presence. "It is not kind, that you knock me back." The guy complained. I am sorry if I upset you, but I really have to go home right now." She said. "Oh I have nothing against it to come home to you Sweety." He grinned.
" I have to get up early tomorrow. I have to go." She turned around and wanted to leave but he grabbed her arm
"Come on. I saw how you looked at me." He said, grabbed, and yanked her towards him. April whimpered and stuttered in panic. " I didn't want to gave you a wrong impreesion. I am Sorty, but I have to go now. Please let off of me." The guys breath smelled like wodka. He brutally kissed her. " Her eyes widened in panic. "Let of off me or I scream." She began to fight against him. "Oh I like it when women scream." He whispered and her right breast. Full of disgust and panic Apil Instinctly kicked and hit him right into his balls. The guy screamed out in pain and let go of her. April ran as fast as she could. But a few seconds later she was drag on the floor. " You fucking bitch." He laid over her and hits her in the face. April started to cry. "Please, no please" She begged and felt another hit in her face. He tore her blouse apart. April cried and prayed, god please no. don't let this happen. " Please, don't" She screamed and cried. "Shut up" He barked. And gave her another hit in the face. April felt how he wanted to open her trousers, but then he was suddenly ripped off of her. "Get off of her!"The pervert swine was dragged to the ground and punished by some brutal hits. April saw that it was Jackson. Then she blacked out.
Jackson was so full of rage. He coudn't control himself anymore. He hits and hits him. After he few second the was unconscious and full of blood. The dust of rage slowly went away. He had to call the ambulance for that guy. So he did and told them that they have to bring to mercy west. Then he realized that April still lays on the floor. He rushed to her and get on his knees. He was so glad he followed her. He had a bad feeling, when he saw the guy leaving the bar right after April, so he followed her. He had the right feeling and what made him furious. "April?" He ask. No reaction... "April please, wake up." He stroke her hair. Her eyes flickered.
"Jackson." She whimpered and started to cry.
" Sssh Apes, I am here now. You're save now." He tried to calm her and took her gently in his arms.
Aprils whole body was shaking and she started sobbing. It broke Jacksons heart to see her like that. He whispered calm in her ear and sroke her hair. I wa...as so scrared... thank god. You come. I was so scared... I scream... " She let out between some heartbreaking sobs.
"Come let me take to hospital Apes." He said softly. "NO!" She screamed "NO!"
"OK OK it is ok Apes but you are bleeding and you need a check up." He calmed her down.
"you ca do it Jackson... at home. I trust you. Please." Her eyes filled with tears again:
"Alright but at least let me carry you home." He said.
"That is not necessary, Jacks."
"No back talk Apes!"
But now she got aware of her nakedness and tried nervously to cover herself and started to cry again.
"Apes. Let me do this." Jackson whispered. She shook her head and tried to close her coat, but couldn't . He gently laid his hands above hers to stop her. "April. Trust me please. Let me help you. His voice cracked. He looked straight into her eyes. A single tear escaped of hey eye. Jacksons softly wiped the tear from her cheek. She saw in his deep trustful eyes all she saw was good, so she nodded. Taking care not to touch her inappropriately; He closed her coat carefully. She is so vulnerable. He thought. All he wanted is to protect her now... take care of her... He wished he could erase this moment, but he couldn't. He should have gone with her. He was his best friend. He genlty took her face in his hands and gave her a soft kiss n her forehead. "I'll take you home now and all is going to be fine again." He took her in his arms and walked to their home. She was still shaking, but snuggled at him. Jackson knew that Alex was at home now and hoped that he would open the door. He rang the like an obsessed. "Dude didn't you have keys? Alex askeed as he opened the door. Alex widened his eyes in shock. " What the hell... what happened. " Alex ask in disbelief and ggave them access to the living room. "She got attacked by some fucking asshole." Jackson explained. "WHAT? Son of a bitch. " Karev cursed. " Karev could you desinfective agent and some pledges? " Jackson asked.
"Sure i'll be right back. Keppner all is gonna fine"
Jackson leaned to April. " April you are home now. I am gonna take care off you. All will gonna be fine I promise. I an not gonna leave you. " He said She fearful looked at him but nodded.
"Jackson I was so scared... I thought he would... " Her eyes filled with tears again. "I am so sorry, Apes." He bearely fought the tears bah aswell and grabbed gently for her hand. "I shouldn't have let you go alone. I shouldn't... " He said his voice full of regret. " hey... don't say that... Itt wasn't your fault Jacks... you saved me." She said softly and caress his cheek. Their eyes met and Jackson. "You are my tower of strenght Apes. I wouldn't forgive myself if I wasn't there in time. " He whispered, took her hand and kissed the inner of it. It was a moment of a deep bond and something was different, both could not explain.
"Here I got all. " Alex disturbed the moment and laid all the materials on the table. "How is she?" He asked in concern.
"I am fine Alex." April answered.
"thanks Alex. Could you please leave the room now." " Of course. Call me if you need me." He left the room.
She tried to get up, so he could take better care of her wounds. But stopped when she felt pain. " AH" She moaned in pain.
"What? Are you in pain?" He asked full of concern and helped her up."
"Yeah my back."
" Maybe the ribs... I have to take a look on it." April bit nervous on her underlip. But at first let me take care of the wounds on your face." She nodded. So he took a pledge put some desinfective agent on it and took care of her. April inhaled sharp when she felt pain. "I am sorry... I know it hurts. " "it's OK." April said quietly. After a few minutes Jackson said. "okay that's it. Now I will take care of your back. April gave him a frightend look and bit her lip. He crouched down, so he could look straight in her eyes. "April... look at me... please... you need to trust me in this... I would do something you don't want or hurt you... " He explained.
" April... Trust me. PLEASE. I need to take a look." She nodded still nervous. He softly took her shirt off. He looked for the wound on her back first. "Could you get on the edge of the couch, so I can sit behind you?" She tried but falls against his chest. " WOOOAH Apriil he whispered and held her on the waist to protect her from falling. Jackson tried to not stare at her. But damn how beautiful she was. He shook his head, lost in thoughts. He craddled behind her and genltly exermine her ribs.
April stiffened by his touch.
"Do I hurt you?" He asked. She shook her head. It hurts , but she was also painfully aware of his closeness. It felt also extremely good to feel his hands on her bare skin. But he was also her best friend and he schouldn't have thoughts like that. " It seems like nothing is broken. But I will give you heparine cream to ease the pain. " He reached for the cream and massaged her back. " Who would have thought that I will ever nursing you?" He tried to comfort the situation while he puts the cream on Aprils back. Both laugh. She has such a silky skin. By the sight of her his stomach turned. It made him sick that she got hurt. He love her Freckles. God damn he was acting like a horny teenager. April is injuired and all he could think abbout is. Is how apes is looking without her bra. He shook the thoughts of. "So we are done... he kissed her shoulder without thinking and April shivered by his soft touch. Got the attraction He craddled out of the couch and handed April her shirt.
"thanks. " She smiled. She puts both arms in the shirt and tried to get in on. But couldn't stretched her back without causing massive pain. She sighed in frustration and embrassment. "Jackson could you help me, please"
"Sure Apes" He answered and carefully helped her. April blushed.
"Thank you." She whispered.
If you want I can carry you in your room, so you can get some sleep?" He asked.
"I think I am able to walk by myself, but maybe you can support me while wakling." She asked him.
" Yeah sure. But I can carry yourself... it is not a big deal. You don't a tone. You know." He grinned.
"No I am walkinng" She protested.
"alright." Jackson gave in. He helped her up and walked with her in small steps to her room. He helped her to take a seat on the edge of her bed and took gently her legs to shift into bed. He put the sheets gently on her and said. "And now I will make you a hot chocolate with cinnamon like you used to.
"You don't have to do this... " April said but a bright smile was on her face.
" I know. Be right back. " He smirked.
" You don't even know how to heat up milk..." She joked.
"For what are Microwaves for huh" He gave April a wink and disappeared in the kitchen.
April Smiled and tried not to fall asleep. Thank you god that you brought Jackson in my life. With these thought April fell asleep with a smile on her face.
Jackson went back to April and said triumphantly: SO... her it is... a hot chocolate with a prize of cinnamon... aaaaannd cream." He smiled as he noticed that felt asleep already and put the hot chocolate on the covered her with the duvet and sat down on the edge of the bed. How peaceful she looked right now. He thought.
This was a hard and confusing dam for them both. The thought of not being at the right place in time killed him He wouldnt imangine what then would maybe happened. He now realizes how much he cared about her. That wouldn't want to live without her. She was a part of him...she complement him...she gave him hope and strength In moment when felt bad...she was his person that he knew now more than ever...he just wanted to protect her... he want to prevent her innocent soul from all evil in the world.. But he also saw her in a different way now and not only because he saw in that really intimate moment... but because since today he had a lesson how fast life could end... he was a doctor... and was confronted by death every single day. But it never related somebody who was this close... ok … maybe he had the change to stop the situation before it got even worse... but could get raped or killed...the thoughts revolved around. he felt tears in his eyes...
But he had to admit that this situation changed his view of April. April was a woman... a very attractive one... her innocence and tentaiveness made her even sexier... he thought with a smile curling on his lips... she was so beautiful... but she was April... his best friend.. she was the most well tempered human he knew .. she had the greatest heart... he didn't want to risk their friendship... it meant the world to him... What kind of Idoit he would be too think think that he deserved her ..he would never risk too loose her. Because he was every but not perfect... with these last thoughts he kissed her forehead in awe and left her roon.