Okay! Just BTW, this is my first fanfiction EVER so please read and criticize!
The Bird with the Bread
I'm a liar okay? Shut up, and deal with it. I've been lying my whole life so it shouldn't be a surprise that I lied about me and Peeta. He died yesterday so it doesn't matter anymore. I thought I loved him, but I didn't and I realized that after he died and I saw him again. Just listen to my story and mabye you'll understand.
I was sitting in the hospital reading my baker a book when his heart began to speed; doctors rushed in, and tried to help. "CLEAR!" one of the doctors yelled out and shocked his heart while the nurses tried to make him breathe again. I stood there, shocked, frantically moving around the doctors trying to help. I finally made it to his side and held his hand, telling him it would be okay. With his dying breath, he said, "Make it right with him. I love you" and then, his heart stopped, he refused to breath and I knew that it was for good. I ran up to one of the nurses, crying. Her name was Blanche, I think. But she knew how I felt because her husband died just a year before his death, in this same hospital. I bawled my eyes out for hours that felt like days. I had no idea how she was able to put up with my sniveling and choking for that long, but right then, I didn't care. All I knew was that I had officially lost everyone that I loved. I needed someone to comfort me, to be there for me. And I know exactly who he is.
He's the one boy that would always be my best friend; my second half. The boy gave me a love I could never return. Gale Hawthorne. The only problem was that I had no idea where he was, what he was doing, or if he already got over me. I was torn between depression and the possibility of rejection. I don't think I could take it if he pushed me out. I was already stressed enough without being rejected by the only person on this planet that I thought still loved me, but I don't think that I would survive another day stuck here alone, in this big, empty house. I think about what I'm going to do when I see my hunting bag in the corner of my room so I go to the woods to clear my head. I bag 2 rabbits, a squirrel, and even a fawn. I go to the rock where Gale and I met up every Sunday and lie in a tree nearby when I see a mockingjay. I look at him and ask what I should do, knowing that he wouldn't answer, but he answers me, drops a small piece of bread, and flies away, but what shakes me out of the tree was what he says. He says "Gale" in Peeta's smooth voice. They are exactly alike and how I didn't see the similarity before frightens me. Instead of white and black feathers, they are blond and brown, the color of his hair with some fresh baked bread to match. It was pita bread. I immediately know what I have to do. I book the next train to District 2.
On the train, I begin to run up and down the aisles trying to keep myself awake and away from the possibility of more crying fits. I make sure that all I concentrate on is not running into people in the aisles and ignore the stares of those watching me. I know that sleep is impossible without any arms to protect me during my slumber so I immediately scratch off that idea once I sit down in my seat. I feel a tap on my shoulder and whip around to face a little girl in the arms of her parents.
"Whattaya doin' lady?" She asks me with a confused look on her face. I smile at her and tell her my little secret.
"I am running up and down the aisles trying to stay awake so the nightmares don't scare me."
"Oh. Well then you should have a teddy bear to keep those darnded nightmares away. Here" she says passing me a small, but soft, brown teddy bear with button eyes and a fuzzy tail while she stifles a yawn "take mine. I have my mommy and daddy to protect me from the night. Take good care of Brick for me" she says trying to stay awake. Almost instantly though, she passes out from exhaustion. I stare at the bear with love and compassion for this little girl and her kind gesture toward me. After getting myself settled, I fall asleep with thoughts about Gale, Peeta, Prim, and everyone else that I love, both dead and alive. I wake up while still clutching Brick, panicked. After realizing my dream of Gale in the hanging tree with a necklace of rope around his strong neck was just that; a dream. I turn around to see the little girl with a confused expression on her face when I remember what she did for me last night.
"Here's Brick back. You were right. He really did help me sleep." I say with genuine gratitude.
"You're welcome lady!" She says with happiness radiating from her smile. After another hour of waiting, the train finally stops and I run out the door after saying goodbye to the girl. 'I didn't even learn her name' I thought to myself. I brush away the thought as I run off the train suddenly realizing that I have no idea where he lives though. I ask one woman who's sitting next to me on the bench if she knows where Gale Hawthorne lives.
She responds, "Well duh, I know where Gale lives. He's my next door neighbor."
"Could you take me to his house?"
"I don't know… you might not like what you find…." she says, as if knowing who I was.
"I DON'T GIVE A CRAP! JUST TAKE ME TO HIS DAMN HOUSE!"
"Whoa! Chill out! Sure, sure I'll take you there!"
The next thing I know, she's pulling me down a street to a nice neighborhood in the middle of town.
"THERE! That's Gale's house alright." She tells me. For a minute, I stand there confused. Why are there toys in his yard? I brush off the thought and run up to knock on his door. I put on the best smile I can conjure up, which isn't very bright. Gale's neighbor watches me cautiously, as if she knows that something bad is going to happen. The bright white door creaks open, but it's not the man I've come to love, Gale. It's another woman.