Harry Potter sat in the Astronomy Tower staring up at the stars. He didn't want to think about this or anything else. Four days ago he'd been called to Dumbledore's office and Snape had been there.

"Harry, my boy!" Dumbledore beamed. "I have decided that you will be bonding with Severus for further protection. "

"Do I get a say in this?" Harry asked. The Order of the Phoenix was there as well and everyone including Sirius and Remus looked uncomfortable. " I don't want to."

"You do not get a choice." Dumbledore told him cheerfully. "You will bond with Severus in two days times. "

"I will not." Harry replied, "The man hates me and would rather go back to the Dursley's on the train tomorrow just like everyone else. "

With that he stood and walked out of the room he was only 14. He quickly packed all of his things and shrunk his Trunk. He put his map in his pocket and donned his cloak. With that he snuck out of the school. He made it past everyone and out of the gates before he was grabbed by Sirius and Remus

"Let me go!" Harry yelled, jerking away . Remus wouldn't let go and they all heard his arm break. Harry let out a harsh breath. He looked at them as his hood feel off of his head. He gave them dead eyes. "Let go! I can't believe you're going to make me marry him! You don't even like him! You hate him! You're going to make spend my life with a man who hates me. "

"It's for the best, Harry." Sirius said, his eyes lingered on Harry's arm. "Lets go get that looked at. "

"No!" Harry yelled, "I'm only 14, Sirius! 14! "

He grunted as something hit him and he fell into blackness.

When he woke he was tied to a chair in Dumbledore's office. He tried to move but couldn't .

"Now, Harry, you will read your part in this ritual." Dumbledore removed the restraints and gave him a sheet of paper. "We will begin..."

Harry grabbed his wand and pointed it at his throat a huge slash appeared. Their was utter chaos. Harry kept cutting and was soon choking on his own blood. Someone finally, managed to get the wand out of his hand as he fell to the floor. He heard voices yelling and people around him muttering spells. He hoped he died. He had wanted to for a long time. He had found out a long time ago that he wasn't in control of his life.

If he did survive then he'd never be able to talk again and that was fine with him because then he was no better than a Muggle and wouldn't be able to defeat Voldemort and if they found away he'd keep trying to kill himself until he either succeeded or they got it into their heads they he couldn't and wouldn't do this for them. Finally , Darkness took him again.

He woke up in the Hospital Wing with bandages around his neck and irate Order members glaring at him. He flinched as he was back handed by Mrs. Weasley and then yelled and ranted at by her about how disappointed in him they all were and he had better marry Severus because it was for his own good. Harry gave them all dead eyes as Madam Pomfrey came over.

"Well, here's your wand, Harry." she said, Harry took it as soon as Dumbledore and Severus had joined them with the Ministry bonder and Madam Bones he snapped his wand in to and threw the pieces on the floor he crossed his arms across his chest.

"Mr. Potter, I was told you wanted this Union." Madam Bones said, picking up the broken wand. "If you do not consent we will not ..."

"He consents!" Dumbledore growled, "He's just going through a rough faze after the Death Eater attack."

Harry felt the man's wand dig roughly into his ribs. The wand tip heated up everytime he tried to quit the ceremony or tell the bonder and Madam Bones with his eyes that he didn't want to do this. Dumbledore was in his head forcing him into this. He felt Dumbledore withdraw just before the magic settled over him and Snape.

Just like that Harry's life ended before he even got a chance to live it.

He'd been forced to follow Snape down to the man's quarters . The password was useless to him because he couldn't talk.

"That is my room!" Severus bit out, pointing to a door. "Dont go in there! That's my lab ! Don't go in there! That's your room when we are done with this damn bonding you will stay out of my sight and in there!"

Harry took a strained breath he could tell the only Healing that had been done to his body was his neck because his arm was still broken. He thanked Merlin that he couldn't make a sound as Severus grabbed his broken arm and pulled him in to the room he'd just been told he wasn't allowed in.

"You understand what has to be done, Potter?" Severus eyed the teen. Dead green eyes met his and the teen nodded. "very well, get undressed and lie on the bed on your stomach. "

Harry did as told.

Severus sighed and summoned a cream and potion.

"Potter. " The boy sat up and looked at him. "I'm going to use this cream to numb the pain of what I'm about to do. " Harry just gave him a dead stare and lay back down. "Very well. "

Severus downed the potion and soon had an erection. He stripped and moved on to the bed behind the teen. He coated his fingers in the cream and began prepping the boy he took extra care then coated himself put on a condom, and invaded the boy. He watched as Harry grabbed at the sheets. When he was all the way in he stopped. Severus was soon going through the motions until he came during this he brought Harry into erection and and made sure they came together. During this whole ordeal Harry hadn't moved once.

Severus pulled out and moved off the bed. He touched the boy's shoulder the boy jerked away so he withdrew his hand. It had been meant to be comforting.

"Very well, you may leave, Potter. "

With that Severus went to his bathroom. He paused to watch Harry dress and leave.

Harry didn't pay attention to the room he would now be living in. He went to the shower and scrubbed himself raw. Noting that the bandages seemed water proof. He finally dried off and found his trunk at the foot of the bed, his cloak and map were on the bed. He got some clothes on grabbed the map and cloak and left like he'd been told to do.

That was how he now found himself sitting in the Tower staring up at the stars and wishing he was dead.

"Harry?" Sirius' voice jolted him from his thoughts. "Hey, why don't you come away from there." Harry looked at the man then rubbed his bandage absently. He slipped back down to safety. "What are you doing up here?" Harry again rubbed his bandages. "Right, well, shouldn't you be down with Snivillus? " Harry waved his hand dismissively and sat as gently as he could on the floor. He had to shift around a bit. "Oh, I see, you've already ..."

'Been raped ?' Harry thought to himself, 'yeah."

Sirius walked over and sat next to his Godson. He took his cloak off and wrapped it around the boy and fastened it. He then sighed and leaned his head back against the wall.

"I'm really sorry about all this, Harry." He finally said, " I know you didn't want this but Dumbledore says this is for the best. That he can add you extra protection. It wasn't that bad was it?" Harry nodded. "The first time always is I guess. But he didn't hurt you other than that did he?" Harry shook his head. It hurt to do so but it's all he had. "Moony's beating himself over your arm. Dumbledore said Poppy fixed it up in no time. "

Harry shook his head and Sirius looked at him worriedly.

"There you are!" They both jumped to see a fuming Snape marching toward them.

"Stay here I need to talk to him." Sirius walked over and stopped his old rival. "Calm down, he's in pain."

"He wouldn't be had he stuck around long enough for me to give him a potion that would take it away!" Severus growled.

"Dumbledore lied." Severus shot Sirius a warning look. "He never let Poppy fix his arm so he probably still has pain their as well. "

"I'll handle it." Severus bit out. "Go over there and talk him into coming back to the rooms! He wasn't supposed to leave!"

"Alright , just calm down." Sirius returned to Harry. "It's okay, Harry. He wants to give you a potion to take the Pain away. " Harry looked at him doubtfully. "I told him about your arm and he's going to fix it for you. You can not just up and leave the rooms you need to be protected now that you can't talk and that you snapped your wand. " He helped Harry up and hugged him. "You need to go back with him now. He'll protect you."

Harry followed Severus back in to the dungeons.

"Sit on the couch." Harry sat, "Okay, now take your shirt..." Severus growled, "Okay, I'm going to use a spell to remove your shirt so I can run some scans on your arm." Harry nodded. He noted that Severus seemed to be trying to remain calm and gentle with him. He ran some scans. "I'm going to fix it now. It's going to hurt. " Harry just nodded. Severus did a few complicated wand motions and Harry felt sharp pains. Severus then moved his arm around and nodded at the questions the man asked. His shirt was back on. "Drink this it'll take away all the pain " Harry drank. "Now, go into your room and go to sleep."

Harry went into the room and looked around. Sighing he grabbed some blankets, sheets, and pillows and made a made a bed on the floor in the corner he wasn't allowed to sleep on the beds at the Dursley's so why should be here be any different. He didn't change out of hist clothes. But he curled into the smallest ball that he could possibly get. He finally let the tears fall. The last of his innocence was now gone once again ripped away from him. He hadn't even been sure that he liked guys or girls. He cried silently not only because it was a habit he learned early on at the Dursley's but because he couldn't make noise. He was fine with making any noise because it would help him survive better. After all the Dursely's always had said that he was way too noisy and that he had to be quite.