You are my friend
You are my solace
You are my joy
…………..my tears
…………my pain
…my everything…..
….but is that all we ever could be?....
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" Tsuchira-kun!!!" I saw my beloved Kahoko call as she ran towards me. She came to a sudden stop in front of me, panting heavily with her hands on her knees.
I observed how she looked this morning, as I did hair was slightly tousled, a few ends sticking out; little beads of sweat had dripped down on her beautiful face; her pink lips were parted slightly, taking in the oxygen she needed and her pale cheeks were quite flushed from her earlier activity. Of course, the same as every morning, she was absolutely, undeniably beautiful.
After a moment, she seemed to regain her posture, looking quite collected.
"Good morning, Tsuchira-kun" she greeted with a smile.
"Good morning, Hino-san" I replied automatically.
She looked at me with warm almond glazed eyes. The eyes I loved so much. They reflected her emotions like a mirror. They were so full of tenderness, kindness, compassion, benevolence, hope and love……
" Tsukimori-kun!" I heard her cry as she ran towards the school's granite monument of a fairy or rather the stone faced person standing beside it.
……but not for me. I saw her sprint towards her 'boyfriend' until she knocked both of them to the ground causing some students to stare at the two sophomores. I felt anger and regret burn inside of me. Anger for Tsukimori for getting her and regret for letting her slip away from my hands. She suddenly tiptoed to reach Tsukimori's height and gave him a peck on the lips, blushing hotly whilst doing so. I felt my heart rip into shreds as I saw her give a full blown smile and her honey eyes glow with joy as she looked at the arrogant cerulean haired violinist.
Oh, how I loathed him! How dare he steal Kahoko! My Kahoko! My detestation for him almost overshadowed the pity and angst I had for myself. It was my fault that I lost her. I mean if you think about it I practically drove her into his arms. I disgust myself.
He looked back at her with so much love and tenderness that I didn't even know he could muster. The same eyes I look at with her. I stared sorrowfully at the seemingly perfect couple as they entwined their hands in each other's and walked happily into the school.
I want Kahoko. So much, that I would give up playing the piano just to hold her. Even for a moment. But then she wouldn't be happy and that what really matters. Her happiness. No matter how much I wanted her for myself I would rather stab my arm than see her hazel nut eyes loose their glow.
I may be suffering, dying even ,but it doesn't mean anything as long as she's happy. That's all I want her to be.
Because, as sure as the sunrise, I will love her as long as the stars still twinkle and the rain still pours.
I'll always be here….
To wipe your tears away….
To make you smile….
To listen you gush about how you love him, even though it hurting me….
…Because I'll always make you happy…..
…No matter what the cost…..