Summary: This is a short piece about the moment in TFA when Leia realizes Han's fate.

The Force Didn't Listen - Leia

By Dark Poltergeist

It was exquisite really; the pain was unlike anything Leia had ever felt before.

She had lost her home world when she was still a teenager, millions of lives lost in one single moment. It haunted her still.

The war and all of it's casualties, people across the galaxy scarred physically and mentally. And so many dead. That pain was enduring.

Then somehow there were many years of peace and happiness, a calmness that soothed her soul. Surprisingly, it was Han that brought her this sense of peace, this sense of security. And then a child, a son, born of their love. It was perfect.

But that perfect child grew up and ripped her and Han apart when he let the darkness claim him. That pain lacerated their very souls.

The agony of Han leaving when they couldn't stop arguing, couldn't stop blaming themselves and each other for their son's mighty fall from grace. It was a searing pain of acceptance knowing they needed space and time away from each other.

But this new pain, the one she felt now, was almost surgical with its precision. It seared through her, white hot with a force that lacerated every fiber of her emotional heart, a pain that pulled from her a lifetime of memories. A lifetime of love.

Han.

He had been with her through all of that pain, held her, did his best to pull her through and more often than not, he succeeded. He was her rock, her foundation, even when they fought over Ben she knew he'd be back. Someday. And he was, for a fleeting time. No matter what his crazy scheme to save them, she expected him to come back because he always did.

Not this time.

She felt his death, and his love for her and Ben. She felt the red-hot nerves that screamed in anguish as the lightsaber pierced through him, Ben skewering him like some unwanted vermin.

Then he fell, and she heard his last thoughts because they were of her, and Ben.

Love you, Leia. And Ben. I'm sorry…

And then he was gone. The force signature that was uniquely his was just…gone. And the hole in her heart exploded, leaving the shrapnel of her emotions splattered in disarray within her.

Unable to stay on her feet, she sat down, and bowed her head.

Please, please, please! Don't take him! He is everything to me!

But the silence remained.

The force didn't listen.

Han was gone.

And the pain cut deeper than anything ever had, exquisite in its agony.

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AN: Not a happy fic – I know. And I personally hate this moment. But these fictional characters loved each other so much that I can only begin to imagine what Leia felt. It's difficult to lose those we love, but to lose Han that way had to be unbearable for her.

Yeah, I hate what Disney's done too!

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