The Governance of Love
Angst
PG – 13
Ao_tenshi (ao_tenshi27@hotmail.com)
Author's notes:
This is my first fic to ever write. Guess I am simply inspired by
my own experience. I've always wanted to express my feelings
but I usually end up daydreaming about them (got to do that all
the time *snickers*).
The fic is quite personal, but I would appreciate it if you read it.
I just hope you understand it *laughs* because a friend of mine
once said that I'm the weirdest person she ever knew! Haha! ; )
Well, just you know, I don't own any of the characters I used
here.
Ta ta!
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It's a rainy day again. Bad weather to be on track, yet I'm still
here. Hai, on the track, racing again. This time, against the wind
and water drenching my car. Slippery, it is, but it doesn't matter.
I am the wind. . . and the . . no. I'm not the sea. And this stupid
weather makes me think that I'm with the ocean! Baka! Haruka
mumbled to herself, flying past the finish line that was meant to be
her destination. It's been almost three months when Michiru moved
out. All the girls knew, but couldn't identify the reason. They were all
worried, of course, but as much as they know Haruka, they couldn't
help. No, the young racer just simply want to be left alone. She
needs to help...
"Haruka-san!" the voice was loud enough to penetrate the thoughts
in the racer's mind.
Not knowing where the voice came from, she looked around a bit and
found the source. Two girls, wearing the same uniform and having the
same blonde hair, only different styles, was standing at the entrance of
the garage. "Hai." She managed to say as she strolled walked through
the forming mud. It's been raining the past few days that makes it hard
for practice.
"Haruka-san, let's go! You promised to go with us today to Crown,"
Minako said clinging her arm on Haruka's. Immediately, the other arm
of the racer was caught by Usagi.
"Sokka! I forgot!" Haruka said, painting a surprised look on her face as
she saw Minako's reaction. "Don't worry, we're still going there." She said
smiling at the two. "But can I have your permission to excuse myself and
change? You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who looks caught
by the rain!"
"Okkei," Minako slightly blushed and loosened her grip on the racer's arm.
Haruka looked as Usagi with pleading eyes and said likewise. Usagi just
let go and looked back at Haruka askingly. The tall blonde racer didn't
notice her expression and went ahead to the lockers.
"I'll be back soon," Haruka said before closing the door behind her and
entered the shower. Breathing heavily, she leaned against the wall thinking.
Water trickled from the shower to her hair, flattening them against her face
as tears slowly forms in her eyes without her noticing it. Minutes passed and
she's still in that position. Savoring the water that pours down on her.
Water that played a big part of her. Water that helped her through all the
though times. Michiru. . .
The two girls looked around in the full of cars. Usagi was amazed on the
sports cars that were placed before her eyes.
"Minako-chan, let's look at the cars! Maybe we could sit in there for a
while. Or we could..."
"Usagi-chan, we came here to fetch Haruka. And not for those cars,"
Minako looked at them sadly. She knew that Haruka was very fond of cars
especially her convertible. The senshi of the wind would never allow
anybody near it, or touch it except Michiru.
"But. . . I only want to look at it. Please?" Usagi pleaded.
"Okkei, but let's wait for Haruka-san first." Minako smiled at Usagi who
soon stood up and went over the door. Suddenly, it opened. Haruka was
already stepping outside when she saw Usagi who's about to knock at that
time.
"Gomen nasai for keeping you waiting." Haruka bowed at the surprised Usagi
a few inches before the door.
"Huh?" Usagi managed to answer.
"It's all right, Haruka-san." Minako said and walked toward her friend.
Usagi fell out of the trance she was and giggled.
"Then let's go." The tall racer walked toward the cars.
"Haruka-san, could we just look at the cars over there? Minako-chan
wouldn't let me see them before. She said to wait for you. So, could I?"
"Of course, you can. Just be careful, my kitten." With that, Usagi ran her
way to the cars and awed every one of them Minako followed Usagi to
admire the racing cars that were parked. . Haruka just looked at them as
she sat behind the driver's wheel of her yellow convertible. Her gaze was
toward them, yet she couldn't see them. She just sat there with empty eyes
until the two went to her.
"Haruka-san?"
She knew the voice well but didn't turn.
"Hello, Haruka-san!" Usagi blurted out and Haruka was back again on
their world.
"Ready to go?" Haruka said with a weak smile. Usagi and Minako looked
at her worriedly but didn't dare to ask. They went on the other side of the
car and sat at the back. They were soon on the road toward the centre.
Passing every turn with an ease, Haruka drove as she was still on the track.
Traffic soon faced them, but with Haruka on the driver's seat, they went
through it swiftly. At the last stop light before the Crown Game Center,
Usagi noticed somebody standing on the sidewalk.
"Minako-chan, look. There's Michiru-san! Michiru-san!" Usagi called the aqua
haired girl standing in front of a café talking with a guy. Michiru looked at
them and smiled. Haruka looked at her for some time and stared back at the
road.
"Usagi-chan!" Minako looked sternly at Usagi then glanced over to Haruka.
"Nani?"
"Usagi-chan, you baka!" Minako wanted to slap Usagi but held herself. She
then quietly said, "Hush, be careful. Remember that Haruka-san is with us."
And she looked at Haruka who was griping the steering wheel hard.
"Gomen nasai, Haruka-san." Usagi looked down, but as the go signal was
lighted, Usagi smiled back at Michiru and waved bye. The other girl just
nodded. And the car went away. Faster than before.
*****
Haruka parked the car and went out. 'It was surely nice to see her again,
even if she's with... whoever he is... I just hope she'll be happier now...'
A slight smile could be formed but it was suppressed by her own feelings.
It just hurts. The pain even increased and she knows it though she tries to
hide it. Sighing, she strode over to the girls who were waiting for her at the
entrance. Rei, Ami and Makoto were already there when they arrived.
Minako told her that they'll be waiting for them there, so it wasn't a surprise to her.
"Hello, Haruka-san!" Rei, Ami and Makoto chorused as they saw
Haruka approaching. Minako bolted out, grabbed the blonde's arm, led
them in and toward the game she wanted to play. Usagi and Rei went
over to another one and started arguing. Ami was reaching into her bag
when Makoto spied at her and gave her a stern look.
"All right, I'm not going to read. It's too dark in here anyway," Makoto just
laughed at her friend's surrender then tagged her along to watch Usagi and
Rei. After a few moments, they heard Minako's voice over the noises that
were created around them.
"Iya! You beat me again! Haruka-san, when could I ever beat you?" Minako
was saying loudly over the seats that they were seating.
"Not until you've learned!" Haruka winked and laughed as Minako frowned.
"Don't worry, there'll be a time when you'll beat me."
Minako smiled again and took her controls. Haruka watched her for a moment
forgetting that they have a game running. Minako was on the lead, but Haruka,
regaining her consciousness of the situation she was in, regained her first
position and beat Minako to the finish lane.
"That was nice. You almost beat me." Haruka smiled at Minako as she
shook her hand.
"I'll beat you the next time around!" Minako declared pointing at Haruka then
to the game.
"I'll be waiting for that time, my dear Minako-chan." Haruka said calmly and
looked for the other girls. Minako found them and went ahead of her. When
Haruka reached the game, Usagi and Rei was arguing about the controls that they
only have little lives left. The game was suddenly over and Usagi-chan looked
up at the four girls standing around them with a dismayed look. And they all
laughed.
****
The afternoon went by so fast at the game center. It was almost 5 o'clock
when they decided to leave the game center.
"I'm hungry. Those games starved me out!" Usagi complained.
"You're always hungry, Usagi-chan. No one ever doubts it." Rei said to
Usagi. The two started fighting again about food even if it's not in front
of them. The other girls just looked at them shaking their heads, all
three except the tallest one. Haruka's mind was drifting away again.
None of the others noticed.
'I wonder who's that guy Michi-chan... Michiru was with. I don't even
remember her introducing me to him or even mentioning about him. Oh,
well... maybe. . . she just forgot it. . . but I'd surely like to kick that man's
ass!' Haruka's thoughts were running wild in her head. All those thoughts
were giving her a head ache.
"Haruka-san. We're going now. Usagi wants to get home right now. She
has no money left for food. Arigatou for the game!" Minako said and smiled
at her.
For a while, Haruka just looked at her, speechless, then managed to
speak. "Do-itashimashite, Minako-san. It's been really fun spending the
afternoon with you guys. Arigatou! Take care! Ja ne!" Haruka bowed and
watched them go.
****
"What's wrong, Minako-san?" Usagi asked her friend who was usually
chattering, but now was suddenly quiet.
"Uh, nothing. I was just thinking... Uh.. Well, did you see Haruka-san's face?
She seems sooo sad, ya know," was the reply. There was a sheet of silence
that covered them for a while, each with her thoughts. All thinking of how
Haruka was during the day. They all seemed pretty sure that the tall blonde
enjoyed their stay at Crown's Game Center, but no one noticed the empty
dark green eyes which the smiling car racer owned during that time.
Usagi muttered a short 'uh huh' and then focused on her food. Rei was
painstakingly looking at her, silently criticizing the odango's movements
before slapping her lightly on the nape.
"Ouch! What? Look what you did, Rei! Now, my food is spilled!" Usagi
went on her knees and started sobbing.
"Why are you eating when there's something important to talk about?
Don't you care about Haruka-san?" Rei questioned her, staring deep
into the 'princess's' blue eyes.
"I do care about her. You know that Rei-chan. I. . . I care about all
of you. But, right now, my stomach hurts!"
"You're always thinking about food. I wonder how did you
become 'our princess'.."
"Rei! Usagi-chan will always be our princess no matter what happens.
We're sworn to protect her, remember?" Ami interrupted the soon-
to-be on-going fight between the two.
"Gomen, Ami-chan. . . Gomen, Usagi-chan." Was the forward reply
from the priestess.
"It's okkei, Rei. Just buy me some food!" Usagi said, with a
smiling beam on her face. Rei took a deep sigh then went to
order another food for Usagi.
". . . What can we do?" Minako whispered in a low voice.
The love senshi is very unusually concerned about what's happening,
they can tell.
"Let's just see. . ." Ami once more emerged from her thoughts and
spoke cautiously with the girls once Rei returned with Usagi's food,
who in turn, ate it in an amazing speed.
"You know, you could enter the race if you want to. I'm sure you'll
beat Haruka-san. . . In eating!" Rei teased Usagi. Another fight seems
to be broadening but Makoto stopped it once and for all.
"Okay, Let's get into business!"
****
In the kitchen table of a cold apartment lie heaps of vegetables and
other foods. A person is plainly making supper enough for one person.
Slowly, but gracefully.
'Why am I doing this? I don't even want to eat. . .' the girl thought to
herself while cutting the vegetables in pieces that would fit a salad.
'I wonder how she is doing. . . Was it coincidence that we saw each
other today? For the last. . . six months. . . I think, that we haven't seen
each other. She still looks strong though. Nothing changed. Only. . .'
'Ouch! Shit!' Absentmindedly, she has cut into her index finger and
immediately cleaned it. 'I should be careful. The concert is just days
away. I don't want to depress the organizations because I can't play
because of this stupid finger! . . . . Concert. . . Haruka. . . would you be
there?'
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This is supposedly a one-shot fic. So, there won't be any chapters, really. Nevertheless, I'll just keep the chapters (continuations) coming until it is finished. I wouldn't have posted this until the fic is finished, but… well… ^-^
I wanted to know your reactions about this.