Raphael and Joi walked through the woods, towards the river. After stopping the Shredder and saving the world, the Turtles and their friends went out to Casey's farm house for a little rest and relaxation. It was midsummer, but after the sun dropped, so did the temperature. Joi rubbed her arms. Raph could tell she was lost in thought. He watched her walk beside him. He liked the tight green suit she wore when they were training, but she was beautiful in the green sundress she wore tonight. Her hair was up in a sloppy ponytail with quite a few strains of hair falling free.

They had been out at the farm for a few weeks. They all had reduced training, and most of the time training turned to play, thanks to Mikey and his pranks.

Raph and Joi got to the river and sat on a fallen tree. She was looking up. The stars where bright out there, at the farm, away from the city's light pollution and Raph knew that she loved being able to see them.

Scooting closer, Raph leaned in close to Joi, "You wanted to talk." She looked at him. Their eyes meet and Raph leaned in even closer. He had been hoping for a chance to finally kiss. They had been flirting a little bit during their training with the tribunal and here on the farm, and he hoped that they could go beyond the flirts and get to the good stuff.

Joi let out a sigh as she turned away. "I can't", she whispered. Raph sat up, confused. When he didn't say anything, she continued. "I thought that, maybe, I could, but I can't." She paused looking back up to the stars. "I like you, a lot. I just can't get passed the fact that you are only, just sixteen, and…." She trailed off.

"And?" Raph prompted with a bit more force that he had intended.

"It's just not right." She said. "You're and animal, and… I can't bring myself to be okay with being with a turtle."

"You knew what I was when we started this." He growled.

"I know. I was caught up in everything. But, now that everything has calmed down and that I've had time to think. I realize that I can't."

Raph crossed his arms and looked down in the water. Joi watched him, waiting for him to respond. He took a deep breath, "So, what now?"

"I guess, I'll go home." She answered, and Raph let out a deep sight. He was still staring at the river. Joi reached out to touch his arm, but Raph moved away.

"Just go." He hissed. Without another word, Joi stood and made her way back to the house. Raph waited for a few minutes before letting out the scream that was building in his gut. He had never hated the fact that he was a turtle before. And, he hated her for making him feel that way. Tears soaked his mask as he found his breathing hindered by sobs.

He stood and with another frustrated scream he picked up a nearby rock. It was large and heavy, but in his anger he managed to hurl it into the river. He knelt down in the grass and let himself cry.

He got back to the house in time to see the car pull away. His brothers were standing in the driveway. Mikey was waving his hand high above his head, his gruff voice carried as he yelled, "Bye, guys! Have a safe trip home!"

Raph had pulled his wet mask down off his face and it now rested loosely around his neck. Reluctantly he made his way, in the darkness, to the house. As soon as his brother saw him, Donatello rushed up and wrapped his arms around his brother's shell. "You okay?" Raph had confessed his feelings to his brother one night after they had made love. Raph had explained that he wanted to try things with Joi and didn't want to complicate things by also having relations with his brothers. Donnie was a deeply saddened, but also understood.

"I'm sorry." Raph said, his face pressed on Donnie's shoulder.

"What for?" Donnie asked.

"For choosing her over you guys." He said. "I won't be doing that again." He shuttered a little as he fought down a sob. "Just have to accept that we just won't have any kind of relationship with women."

Mikey walked up and gave Raph a kiss on the cheek. "You'll always have us. We're not going anywhere."

Leonardo shifted a little at that and cleared his throat. "I have something that I've been putting off telling you guys." His three brothers turn to look at him, Raph pulling away from Donnie's embrace. Knowing he had their attention, he continued. "Master Splinter thinks it would be a good idea for me to enter the next stage, the final stage, of my training."

"Leo, that's great!" Mikey exclaimed throwing his arms around Leonardo.

Leo briefly returned the hug before pushing Mikey away. "There's more." He whispered. Mikey stepped back to stand with his brothers.

"More?" Donnie prompted.

Leo cleared his throat, "The training entails me… leaving."

"What?!" Raph exclaimed.

"This was decided weeks ago." Leo countered.

"You're leaving?" Mikey's voice was almost a wine.

"How long?" Donnie asked.

"As long as it takes." Leo replied. "A few months."

Raph turned and stormed into the house, punching the doorframe on the way in.

"He'll be okay." Donnie said.

"I won't be gone long, I promise." Leo said giving Don a tinder kiss. Mikey ran up, slamming himself into Leo and wrapping his arms around his brother's shell he buried his face in Leo's neck he began to cry.

...

It had been almost a year since the Turtles had helped Winters and saved the world, again. How many times does that make it now? Donatello mused. A lot had happened in that time. Nothing as great as saving the world, but still.

Casey and April had finally gotten married and April was expecting their first child, a girl. And in true O'Neil fashion, April was debating on what month to name her daughter after. May? June? She's even played with the idea of November, with the nickname Ember. Casey was leaving it up to April.

The Turtles have had a few run ins with the Foot, but for the most part Karai has been staying within the law, and despite her threats she has yet to manage to bring back the Shredder. Stopping the Purple Dragons and keeping the city's gangs in check has been the majority of the Turtle's activity.

Donatello was finishing up making Michelangelo's new tail guard. The youngest of his brothers had grown a bit in height, muscle, and girth since turning eighteen, so his old guard didn't fit right anymore. And, Raphael has been taking full advantage of it in training first knocking the ill-fitting guard off then tweaking poor Mikey's tail.

Donatello smiled to himself as he remembered the first time he entered the dojo with his tail guard. When they were young, he and his brothers had learned quickly to keep their tails tucked. Being that they are extremely sensitive. They would reach up, whenever possible, to grab each other's tails during practice. That first day with his, Leonardo got a surprise and a jammed finger when he tried to pinch Donatello's tail.

Donatello's grin was huge as he got praise from their father for his ingenuity. Splinter was soon directing him to make more for his brothers. Donnie did, but took his time with Raph's. He was the worst when it came to tail pinching and he and his brothers had fun with their revenge. One practice later, and a stern look from Splinter was all it took for Donatello to hurry up with making his brother's Guard.

Lost in his memories, Donatello didn't hear the door to his lab open then shut. It was until there was a mouth kissing his neck did he know he was no longer alone. "You busy?" Raph breathed into his neck continuing his kisses.

"Nothing that can't wait." Donnie responded, tilting his head to give his brother easier access. "Your room or mine?"

"Floor." Raph answered, pulling away so that his brother had room so stand.

"Here? On the floor?"

"Yeah."

Looking behind Raphael first, to make sure the door was shut, Donatello grabbed the cushion off of his chair and put it under his head as he lay on the floor. Raphael was on him in a second and he reached down to remove both his and Donnie's guards. Slowly Donnie untucked his tail.

Raph was usually a passionate lover, but every so often he was strangely different. Usually, Raph dominated, being the one who penetrated his brothers. He would kiss deeply, touch, and cuddle after. Today, however, he was different. His kisses where lite, almost hesitant, and his hands remained on the floor on either side of Donnie's head.

One test touch, Donatello's hand reach up to trace Raphael's muscle, but Raph pulled ever so slightly away. That was the sign. Donatello knew what Raph wanted. It wasn't something he wanted often and it took Donatello nearly four years to figure out how to do it right.

Donatello slowly dropped his hand back to the ground while Raph started rubbing their tails together. He could feel that Raph's vent was wet. He always prepped himself before approaching Donatello. And, it was only Donatello he does this with. He figured it's because Leo and Mikey try to dominate Raph, and he doesn't like that. That or they haven't figured it out yet.

Another strange thing about Raph was that he didn't like seeing his brother penises. When they were younger, before Donnie knew better, if he ever let his out Raph would stop and leave the room, and Raph never participated in group.

Donnie had no idea why Raphael did this. He, Leo and Mikey where all okay with each other completely, and took turns with who penetrated, but not Raph. Donnie guessed it was because, maybe, Raph preferred women. All of his porn was of women and he did have a thing for Joi.

Today though, Raph wanted it, but Donnie still had to be careful. As their tails rubbed together he slowly, and with great control, let his member slide out of his cloaca. Raph stopped when he felt it and positioned his own opening over the exposed tip. With great care Donnie continued to slip out of his tail and into Raph's. Raph had used a lot of lube, it was warm and Donnie had to fight the urge to thrust up.

Keeping the rest of his body still and his breathing steady, Donnie slid his member up and touched Raph's penis. Pushing past it, he found the rectum. Pausing he waited for Raph. His brother could still decide that he really didn't want to do this and leave. He has before.

Raph slowly lifted himself up, just a little, and Donnie let more of himself out, again reaching the rectum. Letting Raph have all the control, Donnie waited until he decided to move himself down, sending Donnie into him. Donnie stifled a grunt as his member entered Raph's anus. His was tighter than his other brothers due to limited use.

Slowly Donnie continued his push inward. Deep enough to reach Raph's prostate, but not so deep to cause damage. He stopped when Raph gasped and twitched at having his prostate touched. After a while Raph began moving up and down, gradually increasing his pace. Donatello stayed as still as he could while Raphael rode him. He knew he had to get his timing right. Too soon and he would only make his brother mad, too late and Donnie would not get his release.

The sign that his brother was about to finish started with Raph's hands moving from the floor to grip the top of Donatello's plastron. Next his breathing started to hitch, and his muscles started to tighten. Soon, Donnie thought to himself and his hand twitched.

Suddenly, Raph stopped moving and his hands tightened on Donnie's shell. Now, Donatello thought, his hands coming up to gab the base of Raph's carapace and he trust upward with his hips. Raphael let out a cry as he reached orgasm, his muscles tightening even more. Donatello grunted as he got his own release.

A few more gentle thrusts up, then Donnie relaxed. He began to move himself out of his brother, but Raph said, "Wait."

Surprised Donnie looked up into his brother's eyes. Raphael usually just got up and left afterwards, never saying a word. "Okay" was all he could respond.

"I wanna tell you something," Raph whispered.

"Okay, what is it?"

Raphael curled the tip of his tail around Don's then kissed him gently. "I trust you, and love you most." Raph's voice was almost a whimper.

"I love you too, Raphie." Not sure if this was what Raphael wanted to say or if he was just leading up to it, so Donny remained quiet.

"Do you remember when we were seven?" Raph started.

"Yeah." Donny answered as movement caught his eye. His breath stopped when he looked up to see Splinter and his brothers standing at the door, looking at them.

Drawn by Donnie's reaction, Raph looked over his shoulder. He froze for a moment. "No" he gasped out, "not like this." In a heartbeat Raph was up and running for the backdoor to the lab. Donatello's eyes never leaving his father's as he lay naked and exposed on the floor.