Author: Chrissy
Title: I Turn To You - ©May 2002
Couples: Jason/Robin, Jax/Brenda, Sonny/Carly, Sonny/Brenda, Zander/Carly, Zander/Robin, Jason/Elizabeth, Lucky/Courtney
Chapter Spoilers: Robin returns to Port Charles with someone, who is this mystery person?.. Sonny finds himself dependent on Robin.. Sonny confronts the past, literally..
As she quietly approached the front door with her bags wrapped tightly around her shoulders, she stopped suddenly and looked back. Dropping her bags silently onto the floor, she pondered whether this was for the best. Looking at her best friend, she searched for some kind of answer within her eyes, but she couldn't find anything. She knew that she had it all, a life that she cherished.. but none of it came even close to what she truly wanted, to what her heart desired the most-- a life with the people she loved most in Port Charles. Taking a few more mintues to herself as she let beautiful memories of her life with him run throughout her mind, her heart.. she looked back at her friend, wanting desperately to hide the fact that she was close to tears.
"Do you think that I'm making a mistake?" she questioned despondently.
"A mistake?" she repated. "Yeah, I do.. but this is your life, not mine. You love him, and that's something that should've never of been questioned, not even for a minute. I've made some mistakes, god knows I have.. and I think someday, somehow I'll get it right. Who knows, maybe my fate lays in Port Charles, just as yours does."
"I love him just as much as the day we said goodbye, even now, maybe more.. but I have so much hesitation filling my heart at this moment. We've tried to make it work so many times, and each time something got in our way.. and I'm beginning to think that this time, it won't be any different. Maybe, I don't know.. maybe fate is trying to tell us that no matter how truly we love each other, that it's just not meant to be."
Feeling caught between a rock and a seriously hard place, she shrugged and answered. "Well, I guess you'll never know unless you get on that plane and go to him, right? Look, if you don't want to do this, then don't. But if that's the decision you make, you'll be left wondering 'what if?' for the rest of your life."
Her expression was emotionless, and even then her friend wasn't able to conclude what she would say next. A tear silently fell pass her cheek as she wiped at it. "Maybe your right." she stated quietly, as she picked up her bags. "Let's do this." she added with a confident grin, following her friend out the door.
Port Charles - Sonny's Penthouse
"Benny.. no, Benny-- listen to me, nothing is going to go wrong this time. No, I have it all under control-" Sonny's voice was once again cut off by his friend. He let out a sigh of frustration as he ran his fingers through his dark, thick hair, which usually was a sign of frustration when it came to Sonny Corinthos. "Benny! Listen to me dammit.. just calm down for one second, and let me get a word in, would you?" the line was quiet and Sonny knew he had Benny's full attention. "Okay, now this is what your going to do..."
Around five minutes later, Sonny was just ending his conversation with Benny when Johnny knocked twice then entered. Looking at Sonny, he remarked that there was a visitor. Hanging up the phone, Sonny gestured for him to let the person in, thinking it would be Bobbie, Alexis or Jason. He turned his back to the door, approaching the bar as he poured himself a drink. Turning around, he locked eyes on his vistor.
"Your the last person I expected to see here." he remarked casually, hiding his shock. Walking towards his sofa, he seated himself down, crossing his legs as he looked up at her again. "Why are you here?"
"I, came to see you," she remarked quietly. "Are, you.. alright?"
"Am I alright?" he repeated her words lightly. "Do I look alright? Why don't you tell me, because these days.. that question is the highlight of my thoughts, and I as hard as I try to find the answer, I find myself at a complete loss. My wife just died, and it's my fault. Tell me, how do you live with yourself when you know that you caused someone you love as much as I loved Carly to die?"
"I, I don't know, Sonny," she paused slightly as she approached him. Setting her bags on the floor, she kneeled down on the floor, placing her elbows on his knees and looking tearfully into his eyes. "but what I do know is.. with time, it'll be alright."
"How?" he questioned distantly. "All I can think about is her. The thoughts that were running through her mind when she saw me in bed with Alexis.. the embarassment she felt even after Zander threw her out of his bed.. and most of all, the pain and betrayl she felt as she got into that car, and blindly drove off that bridge. I've replayed every moment in my mind since that night, and it still breaks my heart knowing that I have lost yet another person I have loved. I know I'm not a good person, but why the hell did HE have to take away the ONLY person I had left to live for?"
"Sonny," she began lightly, not even sure of what she wanted to say, or even how to say it. "Sonny, listen to me," she moved in closer, placing both hand on his face and forcing him to look into her eyes. "Carly is gone, but it's not your fault. You couldn't have known what she had seen, and you damn well couldn't control what would happen to her. You loved her deeply, I can see that, but sinking into a deep, black hole of depression isn't the answer. Please, just.. I don't know, try to find something WORTH living for. That's what she would've wanted."
Forcing himself to break his gaze with her, he looked away, blinking away the tears that had come. There was rarely a time when Sonny had shown his true emotions, but with her.. he knew it was okay. He didn't feel like he had to pretend with her, they always had a friendship that was truly honest, and there was once a time when he had almost ruined that, but the fact remained.. that no matter what they had been through, or the pain they caused one another.. they would always be there for each other.
Finally, he turned towards her again and locked his eyes on hers. "I don't think I've felt a pain like this since, since Brenda died.." he silently let his voice trail off, thinking of Brenda only made his emotions grow stronger. "Robin, I.. I want to thank you for being here for me." he forced a small smile, as he embraced her into his arms, grapsing to her for he was fearful that if he were to let her go, he'd slip away.
After a few moments, Robin pulled away from him, smiling tearfully. "I'm here for you Sonny, whatever you need.. you just say the word, and I'll do it."
"Right now, your being here is all I need." he answered with a smile. "But, as much as I'm grateful that your here, I have to ask.. is this the only reason you came home?"
Backing away from him, she stood up and took a seat next to him on the couch. She pondered what she would say for a few moments before answering. "Actually, no.. it's not. But it is one of the most important reasons. I came home for a number of reasons, but none of them matter right now."
"Jason?" he questioned knowingly, almost reading her thoughts.
She looked away from him before answering, the last thing she wanted was for him to read the truth behind her eyes. "I, hmmm.. I can't lie to you Sonny, I never could," she realized, turning towards him again. "Yeah, he's one of the reasons, but like I said before, none of that matters right now."
"Will you be staying long?"
"Yeah, I'm moving back home. I'll be living with my uncle for awhile until I can find a place to live.." she let her voice trail off, when suddenly she realized that there was no perfect time like the present to unveil her suprise. "Sonny," he began softly, brushing back a peice of her dark hair. "I didn't come here alone."
"What?" he questioned, clearly confused. "Did you bring a friend? A boyfriend?"
"No, not exactly.. I-" she suddenly cut herself off, realizing that the moment would be greater by action, whether than words. "Actually, I'll let you see for yourself."
Robin vaccated her place on the couch next to Sonny and approached the door, leaving Sonny even more confused then he was before. She opened the door slowly, as she stepped outside, closing the door softly behind her. She talked with her companion for a few moments before entering Sonny's penthouse again. Sonny stood up as she entered, all smiles Robin didn't think she could appose herself, but she did. And it would prove to be worth it.
"Sonny, prepare yourself for the shock of a lifetime.." she let her voice trail off as she opened the door and gestured for her friend to come in.
"Oh.. my.. god.." were the only words Sonny would allow to come out of his mouth. "Is this even possible?" he pondered aloud. "Brenda?"
"Well, well.. it's a pleasure to see you too, Sonny."
Title: I Turn To You - ©May 2002
Couples: Jason/Robin, Jax/Brenda, Sonny/Carly, Sonny/Brenda, Zander/Carly, Zander/Robin, Jason/Elizabeth, Lucky/Courtney
Chapter Spoilers: Robin returns to Port Charles with someone, who is this mystery person?.. Sonny finds himself dependent on Robin.. Sonny confronts the past, literally..
As she quietly approached the front door with her bags wrapped tightly around her shoulders, she stopped suddenly and looked back. Dropping her bags silently onto the floor, she pondered whether this was for the best. Looking at her best friend, she searched for some kind of answer within her eyes, but she couldn't find anything. She knew that she had it all, a life that she cherished.. but none of it came even close to what she truly wanted, to what her heart desired the most-- a life with the people she loved most in Port Charles. Taking a few more mintues to herself as she let beautiful memories of her life with him run throughout her mind, her heart.. she looked back at her friend, wanting desperately to hide the fact that she was close to tears.
"Do you think that I'm making a mistake?" she questioned despondently.
"A mistake?" she repated. "Yeah, I do.. but this is your life, not mine. You love him, and that's something that should've never of been questioned, not even for a minute. I've made some mistakes, god knows I have.. and I think someday, somehow I'll get it right. Who knows, maybe my fate lays in Port Charles, just as yours does."
"I love him just as much as the day we said goodbye, even now, maybe more.. but I have so much hesitation filling my heart at this moment. We've tried to make it work so many times, and each time something got in our way.. and I'm beginning to think that this time, it won't be any different. Maybe, I don't know.. maybe fate is trying to tell us that no matter how truly we love each other, that it's just not meant to be."
Feeling caught between a rock and a seriously hard place, she shrugged and answered. "Well, I guess you'll never know unless you get on that plane and go to him, right? Look, if you don't want to do this, then don't. But if that's the decision you make, you'll be left wondering 'what if?' for the rest of your life."
Her expression was emotionless, and even then her friend wasn't able to conclude what she would say next. A tear silently fell pass her cheek as she wiped at it. "Maybe your right." she stated quietly, as she picked up her bags. "Let's do this." she added with a confident grin, following her friend out the door.
Port Charles - Sonny's Penthouse
"Benny.. no, Benny-- listen to me, nothing is going to go wrong this time. No, I have it all under control-" Sonny's voice was once again cut off by his friend. He let out a sigh of frustration as he ran his fingers through his dark, thick hair, which usually was a sign of frustration when it came to Sonny Corinthos. "Benny! Listen to me dammit.. just calm down for one second, and let me get a word in, would you?" the line was quiet and Sonny knew he had Benny's full attention. "Okay, now this is what your going to do..."
Around five minutes later, Sonny was just ending his conversation with Benny when Johnny knocked twice then entered. Looking at Sonny, he remarked that there was a visitor. Hanging up the phone, Sonny gestured for him to let the person in, thinking it would be Bobbie, Alexis or Jason. He turned his back to the door, approaching the bar as he poured himself a drink. Turning around, he locked eyes on his vistor.
"Your the last person I expected to see here." he remarked casually, hiding his shock. Walking towards his sofa, he seated himself down, crossing his legs as he looked up at her again. "Why are you here?"
"I, came to see you," she remarked quietly. "Are, you.. alright?"
"Am I alright?" he repeated her words lightly. "Do I look alright? Why don't you tell me, because these days.. that question is the highlight of my thoughts, and I as hard as I try to find the answer, I find myself at a complete loss. My wife just died, and it's my fault. Tell me, how do you live with yourself when you know that you caused someone you love as much as I loved Carly to die?"
"I, I don't know, Sonny," she paused slightly as she approached him. Setting her bags on the floor, she kneeled down on the floor, placing her elbows on his knees and looking tearfully into his eyes. "but what I do know is.. with time, it'll be alright."
"How?" he questioned distantly. "All I can think about is her. The thoughts that were running through her mind when she saw me in bed with Alexis.. the embarassment she felt even after Zander threw her out of his bed.. and most of all, the pain and betrayl she felt as she got into that car, and blindly drove off that bridge. I've replayed every moment in my mind since that night, and it still breaks my heart knowing that I have lost yet another person I have loved. I know I'm not a good person, but why the hell did HE have to take away the ONLY person I had left to live for?"
"Sonny," she began lightly, not even sure of what she wanted to say, or even how to say it. "Sonny, listen to me," she moved in closer, placing both hand on his face and forcing him to look into her eyes. "Carly is gone, but it's not your fault. You couldn't have known what she had seen, and you damn well couldn't control what would happen to her. You loved her deeply, I can see that, but sinking into a deep, black hole of depression isn't the answer. Please, just.. I don't know, try to find something WORTH living for. That's what she would've wanted."
Forcing himself to break his gaze with her, he looked away, blinking away the tears that had come. There was rarely a time when Sonny had shown his true emotions, but with her.. he knew it was okay. He didn't feel like he had to pretend with her, they always had a friendship that was truly honest, and there was once a time when he had almost ruined that, but the fact remained.. that no matter what they had been through, or the pain they caused one another.. they would always be there for each other.
Finally, he turned towards her again and locked his eyes on hers. "I don't think I've felt a pain like this since, since Brenda died.." he silently let his voice trail off, thinking of Brenda only made his emotions grow stronger. "Robin, I.. I want to thank you for being here for me." he forced a small smile, as he embraced her into his arms, grapsing to her for he was fearful that if he were to let her go, he'd slip away.
After a few moments, Robin pulled away from him, smiling tearfully. "I'm here for you Sonny, whatever you need.. you just say the word, and I'll do it."
"Right now, your being here is all I need." he answered with a smile. "But, as much as I'm grateful that your here, I have to ask.. is this the only reason you came home?"
Backing away from him, she stood up and took a seat next to him on the couch. She pondered what she would say for a few moments before answering. "Actually, no.. it's not. But it is one of the most important reasons. I came home for a number of reasons, but none of them matter right now."
"Jason?" he questioned knowingly, almost reading her thoughts.
She looked away from him before answering, the last thing she wanted was for him to read the truth behind her eyes. "I, hmmm.. I can't lie to you Sonny, I never could," she realized, turning towards him again. "Yeah, he's one of the reasons, but like I said before, none of that matters right now."
"Will you be staying long?"
"Yeah, I'm moving back home. I'll be living with my uncle for awhile until I can find a place to live.." she let her voice trail off, when suddenly she realized that there was no perfect time like the present to unveil her suprise. "Sonny," he began softly, brushing back a peice of her dark hair. "I didn't come here alone."
"What?" he questioned, clearly confused. "Did you bring a friend? A boyfriend?"
"No, not exactly.. I-" she suddenly cut herself off, realizing that the moment would be greater by action, whether than words. "Actually, I'll let you see for yourself."
Robin vaccated her place on the couch next to Sonny and approached the door, leaving Sonny even more confused then he was before. She opened the door slowly, as she stepped outside, closing the door softly behind her. She talked with her companion for a few moments before entering Sonny's penthouse again. Sonny stood up as she entered, all smiles Robin didn't think she could appose herself, but she did. And it would prove to be worth it.
"Sonny, prepare yourself for the shock of a lifetime.." she let her voice trail off as she opened the door and gestured for her friend to come in.
"Oh.. my.. god.." were the only words Sonny would allow to come out of his mouth. "Is this even possible?" he pondered aloud. "Brenda?"
"Well, well.. it's a pleasure to see you too, Sonny."