1 Author: spike's-gurl

Title: I had to go

Spoilers: Villains-Grave

Disclaimer: Ok, I'm not Joss cuz then that would mean I owned Spike, which sadly I don't. He's definitely a lucky bastard.

Summary: Spike's thoughts as he's leaving Sunnydale for Africa and what he might have said to Buffy if she asked why he was leaving.





1.1 I Had To Go

2 I said that I'd always be there and that I would always care

Yet you rejected me and I had to go

I tried to show you the world and what you're missing here with me

Yet you shut me out and I had to go

Living with only a part of you hurt but living without you killed me

Yet still you didn't care and I had to go

You told me I was killing you and now it's the other way around

Yet still you showed no emotion and I had to go

You think that you belong in the light and so do all your friends

Yet I know differently and I had to go

By leaving, you thought I abandoned you and I would never do that

Yet you didn't believe me and I had to go

I'm only gonna promise you one thing and I intend to keep it

Yet you wouldn't listen and I had to go

But I'll be back