Hey, for some reason, I felt the need to post this story. Why? I just love this series, that's why.
I don't own any of the Haruhi Suzumiya series.
Looking back, I'd never think that this would happen. Or maybe I would've, but always rejected the idea. It's not like I regret any of it, but thinking back, I could have saved a lot of drama from ever happening. Ah well. Not even Asahina-san's time traveling abilities could prevent this, due to it being a fixed point in time, or so she tells me. Oh, but look at me rambling. Here, let me start from the beginning of all of this.
"I guess this is my loss," Koizumi commented with a smile on his face as I felled his King. Even when losing, that guy could still smile like it was nothing. Come on, man. Let me see your guise slip and curse at me or something. "I must say, you are very good at chess." I shrugged.
Thanks. Well, not that it really matters. Haruhi, our oh-so-magnificent brigade leader, sat on the only swivel chair in the room with a bored look on her face. Her eyes were glued to the screen of the computer that showed who knows what. But whatever it was, it was enough to make her face scrunch up and bite her bottom lip. She spared me a glance, but that went as fast as it came. "So, you up for another round, or do you want to play another game?" There wasn't much for me to do, so these small moments of me kicking Koizumi's ass at board games keep me busy. Unfortunately, that smug bastard refused.
"Sorry, but I have to study for an upcoming test. It seems that this one will be rather challenging with what the teacher has told me." Liar. You'll probably ace that test easy. You are such a sore loser. He left the room, leaving me with the rest of the club members. Like I said, not much to do. In the middle of what must've been my hundredth sigh that day, a cup made its way to the table in front of me. I traced that familiar blue sleeved arm up to the familiar sight of one Asahina Mikuru. Her sunshine smile was brighter than any passionate flame and brighter than any sun as she announced that my tea was ready. I gladly thanked her and held the tea to my face. And what a heavenly smell, might I say with a matching taste to boot. Now right now, it was a rather boring day. But that wasn't the real beginning. The following was where it all started.
"Hey Kyon," Haruhi said to me. I looked to the resident god, expecting something very strange and supernatural to come out of her mouth. She was probably reading those Creepypasta things that she had discovered a few weeks ago. Anyways, what Haruhi said, was NOT something that I expected. "What type of girl do you like?" And thus the spark that set off the ignition to the bomb was lit. I was utterly surprised at the "normal teenage girl" question, that I almost dropped my tea. More importantly, why was she asking ME this question. If I wasn't mistaken, it was usually girls that girls asked this question to about guys.
"Uh…I don't know what to say." I really didn't. But this answer seemed to rile up Haruhi up a bit. She glared at me and stood up on the chair with her hands on her hips. Now everyone was looking at our leader with a curious look on their face. Even Nagato had stopped mid-page to see what was going on. That's really dangerous there, girl, you better be careful.
"This isn't the time for your useless jibber-jabber, Kyon, I'm being serious." Well excuuuse me, princess. "So, what type of girl do you like?" I shrugged. What was she expecting?
"Sorry, but I really don't know what to say." Haruhi let out a growl like a cat.
"It's for a questionnaire. Okay, let's start with this: Long hair or short?" Well that was blunt. Huh...Well, long hair gives the best ponytails, not that I'd say that part out loud. But in the end, either one would be fine with me. Nagato was incredibly cute with her bob haircut, and Asahina-san was as well with her long hair. I didn't say that out loud either. "Alright then, do you like someone who's a deredere, dandere, or tsundere?" Deredere? Dandere? Tsundere? Have you been watching too much anime? But as I thought about it, those personalities seemed to reflect certain people.
"...I can't say I prefer one over the other. It's nice to have something different in your life."
"Last one…" Haruhi bit her lip bashfully. I found myself bracing for whatever she was plannin to say. "BIGMEDIUMORSMALL?" There was a torrent of incomprehensible words that shot out of her mouth that I could not follow at all. Seeing my confusion, Haruhi took a deep breath. "I-I said…Big, medium, or small?" Of what? That's such a vague question.
"What are you talking about, shirt sizes? Meal sizes? A girl's height? Or-" Haruhi suddenly interrupted me with a yell of,
"BREASTS!"
There was yelp from Asahina-san behind me, who was now blushing at the mention of the word. Her saucer was tightly pressed against her plentiful mounds of heaven. Tearing my eyes from Asahina-san, I stared at Haruhi perplexedly. What the hell kind of questionnaire was this? "Well? Spit it out!" Haruhi literally jumped over the computer and onto the table. Hey, you're going to break it if you do that. But those words didn't leave out of my mouth as Haruhi grabbed my tie and pulled on it. "Let's say, between Mikuru-chan, Nagato and me, whose breasts appeal to you the most?" Again, what the hell? What's with the sudden barrage about my tastes in women? "Answer honestly, Kyon, or I'll make you go through a penalty round." Penalty round? I don't think I want to go through that. This was ridiculous, I had to stop her.
"Look, I'm not particularly picky about that sort of thing, Haruhi. Not all relationships are about breast size. Now that I answered you, could you let go of my tie?" Haruhi gave me an unsatisfied scoff before releasing me. I rubbed my neck and took a deep breath. "So? What's with these questions, anyways?" Haruhi narrowed her eyes and folded her arms.
"It's nothing." I almost dropped my head on the desk at her blatant lie.
"Hold on now. Something like that wasn't 'nothing.' It clearly has something to do with something you saw or heard." Haruhi stood in silence, playing with a strand of her hair. She still had her signature scowl pointed at me before sighing.
"…Alright, the questionnaire thing was just a coverup. I overheard some girls in our class saying that guys mostly like girls with big breasts. I wanted to see if you were the same." I tilted my head.
Not every day that you get caught up in teenage gossip. I'm proud to announce a reward for being more like a normal girl. Yaaaaay (I say sarcastically). Haruhi stomped her foot, and an audible crack was heard. Poor desk. What has the mean omnipotent girl done to you?
"Stop being so stupid, Kyon. Anyways, all of you are dismissed. I'm going home I promised my mom that I'd help her cook dinner tonight." Again, that's pretty normal. Well whatever. Haruhi offered her hand to me. I took it and helped her get off the table as everyone packed up. I left the room to let Asahina-san change clothes.
That night was no different for any other. As always, my little sister was playing with Shamisen, causing me to have to drive her out. It was a normal day, as was the next day, and the day after that. The whole month, and the whole year went by normally, just as it did the last.
That's what I'd like to say, anyways.
There must have been some sort of force that went against everything I wanted, and I wanted to know who it was...Oh yeah, Haruhi. After Haruhi's strange interrogation, my real trouble began. And the first to affect it was Nagato, our clubroom's bookworm, and me. Take a look, would you?
(The next day)
Now knowing what I do, you'd think that I'd never be bored. But in fact, I was incredibly bored out of my MIND! Haruhi, to my utmost surprise, was sick today, and was not present, leaving the clubroom quiet. I guess even gods get sick. When she called me, she sounded horrible like a frog that lost its voice. I found it weird with how active she was yesterday compared to now. But she wasn't the only one not here.
Unfortunately, the ever so beautiful Asahina-san was not even around to serve her famous tea that's good enough to start a business. I wouldn't even try to compete with her, since my tea was still close to water than tea. She called me a while back with a worried tone in her voice, saying that something was "Classified Information." I hope I won't be getting any letters from a certain woman anytime soon.
And Koizumi, the smiling pretty boy had something to do, and informed me that he would not be coming. I wouldn't have really cared if he was here, but I could've gone a few rounds of me kicking his ass in board games.
The only ones around were me and Nagato. As usual, she sat in the corner of the room with a Sci-Fi novel in her hands. Her delicate body, that looked like it would break if you touched her, sat ever so still, only moving her hands to turn the page, and only moving her eyes to read the words. After a while of unintentional staring, she finally noticed my gaze and looked at me with what looked like slight curiosity. Looking closely, she tilted her head by just a few millimeters as if questioning me what I wanted.
For some reason, I was a bit disappointed by the simple reaction of Nagato. It was normal of her and I knew it. Rarely though, she would answer differently in a way that was absolutely refreshing. As Nagato and I played our little staring contest, I couldn't help but think to that one winter in the alternate world. The last time I had stared at Nagato, she immediately began blushing and shying away. If asked, I would take any chance to see such a reaction from her again.
"Is there something wrong?" she asked so quietly that I could barely hear it. I had long since gotten used to her usual emotionless tone. It was one of her most charming points.
It's nothing, I replied, letting the girl go back to her book. To be honest, I don't even know why I was still in the clubroom, but something compelled me to stay. Maybe it was just my boredom, or maybe it was because I didn't want to leave Nagato alone, but I felt obliged to be in the clubroom despite the lack of activity in it. I was lost in my thoughts, and I failed to see Nagato stand up and walk to our mini library. The literary club sure had a lot of books left behind. Nagato must've read more than half of the books by now, if not all of them. Looking to the small girl, I noticed that she was trying to reach the top shelf, going on her tip-toes. Unfortunately for her, Nagato was a bit too small to reach the books there. So, being the kind person I was, I stood behind the bob haired girl. You need help there, Nagato?
"None," was the quick reply. But I could tell that she was being, at the very least, prideful. Nagato was having a pretty hard time with something, which I found rare. After a while of watching her rather short arms try and reach the book, and making what seemed to be soft grunting noises, she finally turned to me. "Upon rethinking my response, I must revise my choice. I require assistance from you." She turned around to try and grab that book again, although looking at it, it didn't seem that good. Well, never judge a book by its cover, I guess.
But I got it now. It wasn't every day I could help Nagato out. Basically, Nagato needed me to get her the book she wants. But I could just feel the boredom yelling at me to take this opportunity to do something different. My train of thought decided to take a different route to wonderland and left me with a strange urge to do something...distinctive. Whatever it was, I was like a puppet to an unknown puppeteer that even controlled my thoughts. So, I figured: What the heck? Let's mess with Nagato this one time. Maybe I could elicit a reaction.
So without further ado, I had taken my hands and put them on Nagato's slender waist. I picked her up with surprising ease. She barely had any weight to her. I was rather surprised, but that was beside the point. The moment I did this, I could tell that it was not something that Nagato was expecting. That's because when I lifted her up, I could hear a very faint "Huh?" from her, which was the most genuine display of emotion I'd seen her express aside from the alternate Nagato. I saw her look around as if to try and confirm that I was actually doing what I was doing. Well, aren't you going to going to get your book? Nagato heard my voice and remembered why she had been trying to reach the top shelf. She exchanged the book she had with the one she wanted. Once I put her back on the ground, Nagato stared me with a questioning look. She blinked a couple of times, probably thinking of what to say.
"What was that?" was the surprisingly simple question that left her soft lips. The genuine confusion in her tone caused me to smile like an idiot.
"I helped you get your book." I sounded like a smart ass. I could feel my heart skip a beat from the adorableness of Nagato's eyebrows-furrowed face.
"I am quite aware of the action, but I was referring to the purpose of your choice. I simply asked you to obtain the book that I was targeting, yet you did something that was unorthodox. The action you called lifting was ultimately unnecessary, as you could have opted to simply grab the book." Was she accusing me of being lazy?
"Don't worry about it, Nagato. I was just having a little fun. You know, like this." I was still unsatisfied with my fun, so I lifted my arms again and put my two index fingers on the area just outside her lips. Her skin was soft like the cheeks of a newborn. I resisted the urge to pinch them. Nagato didn't resist, or she didn't care to resist as I pushed her cheeks upwards to make a faux smile on her face. It looked just like the alternate world Nagato's smile, making me feel regret from never taking a picture of it. "You should smile more, Nagato. I really find it attractive." I left my fingers there for a while. It was a good thing neither Asahina-san, Koizumi, nor Haruhi were here, or else I wouldn't be able to do this. I'm sure I'd cause another crisis at the hands of our resident god. Nagato released herself from my touch and looked down in thought.
"I see. I apologize, since I am unable to find a reason to smile frequently as you have suggested. The Entity did not see it fit to give me access to the facial expressions the unit Asakura had." Please don't mention her. I still shudder whenever I see a knife.
"Just make small ones when you read something you find funny, or when you hear a great joke. It wouldn't hurt." That said, I didn't know anything about her type of humor, or what Nagato found funny. I thought back to when Nagato had imitated Asahina-san by saying her famous "Classified" line. At that time, she looked like she was repressing a chuckle. I returned to my seat in front of the computer with a satisfied feeling in my body. Messing with someone like Nagato was pretty fun; especially since she's inexperienced with such things like people touching her. She was pretty innocent to such things. And looking at Nagato being pretty lonely in that corner, I felt an overwhelming urge to go there and keep her company. Yeah, there was certainly something wrong with me today. But I didn't care. So…I rolled my chair next to Nagato with a fake yawn, and put my arm around the petite girl's shoulder. Cheesy, but you know. Whatever. At first there was no reaction, but then Nagato suddenly stopped flipping her book mid-page. Her eyes were pointed to me while her face was still on her book.
"Your behavior today defies your usual normality. If there is an alien component in your body causing you to act like this, I can expel it at your command. Otherwise, I would suggest that you stay at your house to recuperate if you are feeling sick." Nagato was more or less worried about my health rather than being flustered and embarrassed. Oh well. I pulled Nagato closer to myself, and I won't admit that my face was getting hot from having Nagato so close to me. It was a pretty nice sensation of being in contact with her. Next to me, the humanoid interface left a warm feeling on my side that traveled through my body. And she was so soft, that I had to restrain my grip. Nagato was just that fragile in my arms. It was like holding…I don't know. A warm fluffy marshmallow? A glass figurine? Whatever. But it was rather hard to make Nagato flustered when it was me that was embarrassed and red. It didn't help that she didn't have any intention of pushing me away. Ah, why was I doing this again? Oh yeah. I was bored. Come on, Nagato. React...please?
"Say, Nagato. How's your life on Earth been?" That was something I never really asked her. The alien barely gave any indication that she was enjoying herself or was feeling joy. But I could see the tiny changes in her face whenever she felt lonely or whenever she was the least bit frustrated by Haruhi's activities. Like that time with the endless summer, and a few days before December 18th. Nagato had lived through all of those loops in the same way over and over for many years' worth of time. When you think about it, Nagato has had the most unfortunate time in the SOS Brigade. I wouldn't be surprised if she hated the club by now.
"It has been most informative," was her reply. That was it? Nothing about Earth was fun to her? "Human beings have displayed many attributes and behaviors that the Entity did not have knowledge of. Most cases are about your behavior." I stared at Nagato to see if she was kidding. There was no lie in her eyes. But if that Data Overmind thing based the human race on my behavior alone, then prepare for a catastrophe, everyone. "My objective was simply to observe the being known as Suzumiya Haruhi but not long after your inclusion into her life, the Entity decided to change it. Along with Haruhi Suzumiya, I was also ordered to make observations of…" She said my name. She said my real name. Not the nickname that my little sister had spread around, but the one that I was born with. I never told Nagato my name, and I knew neither Haruhi nor Mikuru told her. "Like I said before, you have been acting strangely. From the memory banks of the Data Overmind, I can see that it is reminiscent to the human activity called 'flirting.' If that is the case, then from what I have seen, you are romantically interested in me, or you are simply looking to 'hook up,' as humans call it."…Well, that was awkward. Stupid Data Overmind, you ruined my plans.
"N-no, that's not it. Like I said, I was just having a bit of fun. I just wanted to see if I could make you do something you don't usually do. And since Haruhi, Asahina-san, and Koizumi aren't here, this was a perfect time to do something like this. I was just bored." Nagato looked at me with her usual face, except for this strange twinkle in her eyes that held some sort of emotion that looked the closest to…sadness? Disappointment? What was there to be disappointed about? I thought about it, and realized that I had just said that I wasn't in the least bit interested in Nagato. Man, what a slip up. "Not that I don't find you attractive, Nagato. If anything, you are incredibly beautiful!"
...
And so it came to pass on this moment that history was made. Those to witness it, mainly me, did see this miracle, and thought it good. The moment I said that one phrase, I could tell it struck deep into her body. Nagato looked at me with wide eyes as a rosy pink bloomed on her face. In other words, Nagato was blushing! YES! It was only natural that my heart would start racing at such a glorious sight. Ah, where's my phone when I need it? I fished out said object from my pocket and quickly took a photo of Nagato's face. That went to a separate folder from Mikuru.
After seemingly getting her mind together, Nagato began fidgeting in my grasp. I let go of her. Nagato scooted away from me in similar fashion to the alternate Nagato when I had accidentally assaulted her. Now if anyone were to tell me that a monster was destroying the town, I would bat an eye to it compared to the surprise I felt right now. I was sure that the surprised look on her face would last only for a few seconds, her cool demeanor never came back. She was still acting opposite of her usual self and this is when I knew that something was wrong. "Nagato? What's wrong?"
"U-uh…" She was even stuttering. How cute. She laid her hand on her ear as if receiving a message. "Large amounts of error data have infiltrated my body and are affecting my programming. The Data Overmind does not know what is happening, and is at a loss. As we speak my very existence is being changed." So in other words, Nagato was flooding with emotions; and at a rapid rate, as well. Was she turning into that Nagato again? I heard her gasp. "A part of me has been disconnected from the Entity. More specifically, the ability to terminate my existence as it has wished to if I were to ever be infected by error again has been deleted. It is unknown how, but that connection has simply disappeared from existence." That's good. It meant that I didn't have to spill the beans about Time Travelers, Aliens or Espers to Haruhi. "Other than that, I am still connected to the Entity. It is quite angry at me…How scary." …Eh? Did Nagato really say that she was scared? She narrowed her eyes at me. "Well having an entity that exists outside Earth that is able to change the very land itself can be very intimidating." And there was sarcasm. Holy crap, Nagato was being human! Interesting. VERY interesting.
"So you're becoming more human, is that what you're trying to say?" Nagato nodded. "…Nagato. Smile." The girl backed away at the sudden order. But after fidgeting with her face, she gave up and used her fingers to raise the corners of her lips into a smile. It was a start.
But enough about that. Nagato was truly developing feelings. What a momentous and historical event. I need to take more pictures. After adding more pictures and videos to my newly made "Yuki" folder, I decided to seriously go about this situation. I sat Nagato down in front of me and looked her in the eyes. "Alright then, let's start with this. Do you have any idea as to why you're acting like this?" Nagato tilted her head shyly.
"Well, according to the Data Overmind, a large amount of data was released just last night and altered the world. At first, there was no sign of any major change, but it seems to have activated now. It is different from Haruhi Suzumiya's usual reality warping in which the alteration has barely affected the world. The effects are limited to Japan with this city as the epicenter Not much else is known. According to the readings, the data is centered mostly at you, and…"
"And?" Nagato took a pause and bit her lip.
"Well it says the data is also centered on the females most closest to you." The females? Why only them? Boy, was I looking forward to the trouble Haruhi has done now.
"Yare Yare. So what's the verdict, Nagato-sensei? Has everyone affected by Haruhi's power gone mad or something? Or maybe I'm in another universe." Nagato chuckled at my joke, which I may point out, sounded the same as a refreshing summer breeze in a hot day felt. Ironic with her name meaning snow.
"The alterations have made the females around you act differently. The difference is still unknown, but I'm pretty much a prime example here. The others could be behaving in a similar fashion as I, but that is currently uncertain. But one string of data has reoccurred in all of the females, meaning that there is something that all the females that have been affected have in common. I'm sorry, but I'm counting on you to find out what that is." So something is different, and it's my job to find out what. Great. Seeing my stress, Nagato came to try and console me. "Please, don't be so disheartened. I'll do anything I can to help you…I-if you need it." Well, this was going to take time to get used to. This Nagato was as shy or even shyer than the other Nagato. Come to think of it, the idea of being with a Nagato with emotions AND alien-ness was not bad at all. If I could have made my own choice when I decided to go back to this reality, I would've made an equal ground between the two realities. After all who had the right to not allow Nagato to be who she wanted to be? As I thought this, Nagato stood akwardly shuffling between feet, and twiddling her fingers. "Um…What should I do now?" Oh. I never thought about what Nagato should do now that she was the way she was now.
"Hmmm…Well, It doesn't matter to me whether you have emotions or not. You'll always be the Yuki Nagato I know and l-" Oh crap, what was I trying to say there? "A-anyway, you'll have to get the hang of handling your emotions. But now, you can experience things that you've never felt before. Like happiness, and sadness, and everything that a human feels. Here, give me your hand." Hesitantly, Nagato placed her hand in mine. I ignored how nice it felt and flipped her palm downwards before pinching the back of her hand. Nagato let out a small yelp and wrenched her hand away. She stared at me with her eyes starting to wet.
"That hurt, Kyon." That was the first time she called me by that. Come on, even you? You said my real name before. But, I couldn't focus on that while Nagato was looking at me those eyes. "What was that for?" I instantly felt guilty in hurting Nagato while she was still new to emotions. Her nerves are probably still sensitive to the slightest touch. It was like bullying someone on their first day of high school.
"I'm sorry. I wanted to see if you could feel pain."
"W-well you didn't have to do it like that." I apologized again and grabbed her hand. I brought it up to my lips and kissed the area where I had hurt her. It wasn't a surprised that Nagato started blushing. She was still new to all of this. We should take this one step at a time. And…eh? Why did I kiss her hand? I would never do something so…not me. It's like some force drove me to do the things I did today, because in a normal day, I'd sure as hell never flirt with someone. Come on, Haruhi, what did I do this time? Can't you give me a break once in a while? Not only do I have to find out how the girls are acting, but now I have to find out what's wrong with me. What's with the flirtatious attitude, almighty goddess? "We should probably go home now," Nagato said at the sight of the setting sun. "Shall we?" We packed our things and were out of the door. Being the gentleman I was, or believed to be, I felt the need to take Nagato home. No sense in letting an emotionally sensitive girl by herself to do who knows what.
Walking with this new Nagato was rather interesting, because every few steps, Nagato would look around and take in her surroundings. With her new found emotions, she found everything to be interesting. It was like watching a child make her first steps outside of the house. And what a beautiful night it was to do so, because I could see the stars shining in the sky. Seeing as this was a rare occasion, I took a little detour and took Nagato to a certain bench in front of some flowers. This area seemed to be a mecca to me especially, but I wasn't really complaining. I sat Nagato down on the bench, and she looked at the area. "This is where I told you to meet me, isn't it?"
Yeah, this was the place where I had to meet Nagato when I received that bookmark that instructed me to come here. It seems so long ago when my concept of the world changed drastically to fit the ones that Asahina-san, Koizumi, and Nagato had laid down on me. This place was also the meeting place for whenever Asahina-san(big) needed to talk to me, or whenever Asahina-san(small) needed to take a break. Those were fond memories of mine that, upon looking back, were something that I wouldn't trade for anything.
"It's such a quiet night, isn't it? Is this what it feels like to be at…peace?" Yeah, it is. "It's strange. Just a few moments ago, I would've passed this area without a moment's glace and never have a second thought about it. Kyon, did you know this? There's a reason why you find yourself here a lot when dealing with us supernatural groups. You see, this area exists in a time and space plane separate from your own." Oh, really? For some reason, I wasn't surprised. No wonder no one ever came when I was here. It was a perfect place to meet without the interference of others. "This area is considered an equal ground among the 3 factions, not counting such entities as the Sky Canopy Domain. Orders have been given by the superiors of the other groups to not cause any conflict while still in the range of the field. This is because of a fail-safe put upon this plane. Any harm caused by an interface, time traveler, or esper to each other will cause this area to erase the following people." Wow. It's like a contract in which the penalty for breaking the terms is death. So in other words, no one would be able to enter this field unless they were from the "three factions of supernatural people." Well four, if you count sliders. Haven't seen any of those guys yet.
But then something hit me.
"So in other words…We're alone right now?" When you thought about it, this area would be unavailable to anyone else except for anyone supernatural. And since they aren't so keen in revealing themselves at random, I could say that no one would be able to bother us. Nagato looked at me with a face that said that she considered what he was thinking. She looked down, her ears turning pink.
"Yes, that is the case right now." Well that was a bit awkward to know. Nagato seemed to know what I was thinking, and scooted a bit away from me. Well excuse me for thinking of the general image.
After a few more minutes of silence without even the sound of cars to distract myself with, Nagato suddenly laid her never growing purple hair on my shoulder. I looked to the girl and she looked at me. There was a wavering in her eyes followed by small dots of moisture appearing in alongside the corners. Oh great, what did I do to make Nagato cry? Stupid Kyon, making girls cry.
"Nagato…" She closed her eyes, and gripped my sleeve with the tips of her fingers. An image of me eating hotpot with her and Asakura came back to me.
"Kyon…I am quite aware of my sudden change in attitude. I understand if you feel awkward around me, since you are not used to a Nagato Yuki with emotions. But ever since I gained these emotions, there has been something inside me, like a bug eating at my insides. It's making me crazy, because something is telling me to tell you something very important. I know I'm being strange, but nonetheless, I have to say something that I may never be able to say to you ever again." I could tell that she was mustering up courage. The tension caused my heart to speed up tenfold, but I had to stay to hear what she had to say. It was the least I can do after everything she had done for me. "Please listen to what I have to say...Kyon-kun. I really like you."
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…Huh? Did I hear that correctly? There must be something in my ear. I stuck my pinky in my ear, but nothing was there. Was there any interfering noise? Nope. Not a car in sight, not that any could come. So I MUST have heard that right, right? What the hell? Kyon-kun?
"Uh…I'm sorry, but could you repeat that?"
"I said that I really like you. Actually, I love you. Kyon-kun, you have to understand. When you went back in time to meet me with Asahina Mikuru, I synchronized with my future self, and gained her feelings and memories. I gained the love that had started to accumulate in my system and at first, I couldn't even begin to identify what it was. But when you went to sleep, I waited three years with these strange feelings, in my body. I only referred to them as error data back then. Kyon-kun, I had to wait three years before I could meet you again; before I could see your face again. You don't know how happy I was to see you enter the literary club room."
I sat there in awe as Nagato poured her heart out to me. Was this what the other girls were like? Did Haruhi make it so every girl that was affected by her powers was…in love with me? Then that would mean that Nagato was given false emotions, and that just wasn't right. The idea that Nagato loved me made me incredibly happy, but what was the point if it was all a lie?
"These are no false emotions, Kyon-kun. I truly love you and always have. I'm sure you remember me explaining the small changes during the summer time loop. I never told you everything. During the 15,498 times that time had repeated itself, I abandoned my duty and gained your affection 8,643 times. And each time I did, there were never any discrepancies. You would always do the exact same thing, and it made me feel...happy. Every time, I would confess to you in this exact same place. You would hold me as I vented as best as I could, all of my grievances and stress." She smiled softly. "You would always be angry for my sake and curse the fact that you couldn't save me. And later on you would...kiss me." Nagato was blushing so much that I could feel it from my arm. She pushed her fingers together, looking down so I would not see her face. I wasn't unaffected either. I was embarrassed at my other selves' actions, but I could understand them. I feel like I would do the same things if I was put in their place.
"You said that you might not be able to say this ever again," I noted. "What did you mean?" Nagato looked at me with a pitiful smile.
"There are too many obstacles that keep me from ever being with you. The number of complications ensure that I will never be able to walk by your side and hold your hand just as I did that summer." Her voice wavered, signaling that Nagato…no, Yuki was close to crying.
It's not like the thought never crossed my mind, since Nagato was always the one to protect me from harm, and I in turn wanted to help her get by with Haruhi. The thought of going out with Nagato was always there in the back of my mind. I had no objections whatsoever. As if triggered by her words, I could feel some residual memories of those many times I had held Nagato in my hands and comforted her to the very last second. The thought that I was unable to help her even thought she had saved me countless times made me frustrated. I felt useless when I compared my human body to those that could travel time, shatter monsters and manipulate reality, but I knew that none of that would stop me from making sure that Yuki had all the comfort she needed whenever she was stressed.
"Yuki," I said, catching the bob haired girl's attention. "I'm so sorry." I took my arm and sat her up right before pulling her into a hug. A small squeak came from her mouth, as I put my mouth to her ear and practically breathed down her neck. Her soft hair smelled emanated the scent of lilacs. "I am so sorry that I never knew. I am so sorry that I never did anything to acknowledge your feelings." I sensed a feeling of déjà vu as the words seemed to spray out of my mouth without my consent. "And most of all, I'm sorry that I left you alone for three years in that apartment. I assure you that no matter what these obstacles are that make you so afraid, I will hurdle through them to make sure you are always happy. That's what you deserve." Nagato shook her head in my chest.
"You don't even know what those obstacles are, Kyon-kun. Once you know, you'll see that you'll never be able to choose me." I felt angry at her words. Just what the hell were these so called "obstacles" that could rob Yuki of her happiness? If it was the Data Overmind, I swear I was going destroy that thing myself. "You will see in time, Kyon-kun. For now, why don't we just go home and forget that this ever happened?" Yuki got out of my hold and stood up, but she refused to look at me. The sounds of her sobbing reached my ears and guilt washed over me.
What the hell should I do? Damn it, Kyon, you human scum. You're so useless, always watching from the sidelines as Nagato saves you time and time again. I couldn't do anything when she was fighting Asakura, I couldn't help her when she was sick. She created a whole world for me, for goodness sake! Just so I could live a normal and peaceful life, she was willing to throw away her powers and live a normal life with me.
Yuki walked away from me, almost reaching the end of the isolated plane that we were currently in. I ran to her as fast as I could and grabbed her shoulders. She gasped. I turned her around and made her face me, but her head was still focused on the ground. Damn it, Nagato. Why do you have to be so cute? "Please, Kyon-kun. That's enough for today. Leave me alone for now." Drops of liquid dropped to the ground, and I couldn't help but think that she was the most human out of all of us. Even me.
"No. Not until you are happy. If not tomorrow, or the next day, or next week, or next month or even next year! If not then, then I want you to be happy today. I want to fill your heart with so much love, that it'll last forever." And with that, I lifted her head with the side of my index finger, and did something I'd never thought I'd do. I leaned down to her gentle and red face, and brought my lips to hers. It was as soft as I thought it would be, and I loved every second of it. It was like nothing I'd ever felt, like…Ah, I can't even describe it properly! I could feel the happiness radiating from the girl. Not once did I regret my actions and not once did I hold back. Right now, it was me and Nagato. Er, Yuki. Yuki continued to cry, but she was feverishly trying to stay connected to me. She wrapped her slender arms around my neck and pulled me closer to her. I pulled her closer as well until no space was between us. We simply kissed under the starry sky without a care in the world. I wanted to stay by my word and not regret it. And regret it I didn't. No, no, no. I was FAR from regretful. I was ECSTATIC. My first kiss! And with such a cute girl, as well. I did kiss Haruhi, but that technically never happened. Or did it? I don't know, it hurts to think about it. Anyways, that put me far above Kunikida and Taniguchi. But none of that mattered right now. Right now, all that mattered was Nagato, and her feelings. The most human and pure person that I had ever seen and I made her cry. I felt like a jackass. But not anymore. With all the power I had, I wasn't going to let Yuki be sad ever again.
I thought that this was the only time I would ever do something like this, but I was far from wrong. Yuki was only the first girl that was affected by the power that Haruhi had unleashed. My story is far from over.
And there. Yeah, I'll continue with the next chapter later. Be gentle with this one, will ya?
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