Hey guys this is just a one-shot that popped into my head after the last episode. I know that some of you are peeved off bonnie right now but I hope you can understand that she is fragile at this point. I personally chose to see her attack as some kind of payback (for me) for him trying to kill Jeremy then Caroline(but that's how chose to see it, not how it's meant to look in the show) but come on it kinda was awesome to see her light him on fire. Anyway enough of my rambles hope you enjoy.
P.S. I do not own TVD or any of the characters (blah, blah, blah) because if I things between Bamon would have gone down alot differently.
Bonnie couldn't handle it any more. Her whole world was crumpling down around her; she was losing everything, everyone she loved and now even herself. She attacked someone out of pure rage, she wanted to see him suffer and hurt like she had. That was not her, as Elena had told her 'That can't be us'. She broke down. She had cried in Elena arms that night just leaving Damon on the floor, she hadn't truly realised what she had done until she had done it. She just wanted someone to blame, she just wanted to remove that feeling of guilt that followed her around always. She just wanted to feel human again. She needed to blame him, because without him she knew the finger of blame would fall on her. She had forced her grams to open the tomb, she had caused her death, she had lied about the device, she had killed Anna, causing Jeremy to overdose, she had killed Tyler's father, she had put Caroline in hospital, she had begged Damon to give her his blood, she had turned Caroline into the thing she hated and she had attacked Damon tonight. Bonnie had cried herself to sleep that night, for the first time letting in the guilt that she had blocked out.
When morning came Bonnie refused to move from her bed hiding herself way from the world. Ignoring her phone- which rang every half an hour- no doubt Elena checking if she was okay but she was far from it. she was searching herself trying to find that last piece of herself that was salvageable, she had lied and hurt everyone around her, she was no better than Damon. Wallowing in the guilt and sadness that she had felt for months, she knew it was time for a change. Lest she be lost and hurt anyone else. She knew she had to redeem herself, starting with Caroline. She needed to be there for her friend; even if she was a vampire she was still her Caroline and would do anything for her. With this plan Bonnie jumped out of bed and headed downstairs to find Emily's grimwar. She was going to create a Lapis Luzi stone.
After hours of searching and preparing Bonnie had finally created a Lapis Luzi stone which she had mounted onto a locket of hers that Caroline had always adored placing the necklace into a little box she grabbed her coat and headed out the door. To the Salvatore's.
Bonnie fiddled with her hands awkwardly as she got up the nerve to knock on the ominous huge wooden door of the Salvatore boarding house. Night had just fallen and she was hoping that Caroline would be here. Taking a deep steadying breath she grabbed the brass knocker and banged it firmly, praying that it would be Stefan to answer. Barley had she removed her hand, when the door flew open revealing the older Salvatore- apparently the fates where not smiling on her today.
"Well if it isn't the little wi-oh sorry I mean bitch. Come to try and kill me again" he spat a threatening scowl set firmly on his features.
Bonnie dare not look him in the eye replied evenly "Is Caroline here" trying to keep the tears and sadness out of her voice from the overwhelming guilt she felt
"Why come to flambé her too" Damon replied in the same icy tone smirking
Bonnie's eyes darted up to his face "I would never hurt Caroline!" she shouted in anger
Damon seemed a little taken aback by her outburst; he had never seen her that way so fierce. But her quickly recovered "Well I wouldn't put anything past you" he kept cool trying to get that kind of reaction out of her again. He liked it on her.
Bonnie once again felt guilty but she was still energized from her anger. Letting out a deep sigh "Look Damon, I just came to see Caroline, so is she here or not" trying to keep the anger from her voice. What was it about him that just set her off.
Damon studied her inquisitively, beginning to think she had some kind of mental disorder. One minute she's going off on him the next she's fine, her watched her carefully before replying "No she's off in the woods somewhere with Stefan getting a lesson on self-control" he said in a bored somewhat mocking tone.
"Oh" Bonnie replied simply "Is it okay if I wait, I really need to talk to her"
Damon was once again taken aback, the witch was voluntarily asking to come into to the house of a vampire she hated and tried to kill last night. Now he was really questioning her sanity. Damon simply grunted before moving from the door to the bar. He needed a drink.
Bonnie followed closing the door behind her following him into the living room taking a seat on the couch, staring into the fire. Her face blank, mind lost in thought.
Damon stood leaning against the bar a glass of bourbon in and WATCHING the witch. Well studying her really. Her slumped defeated posture, her emotionless face the far off gaze in her eyes. This was not the witch that was his only real match in the bantering that he had come to know and love (wait love WTF no hate, despise, revolt anything Damon Salvatore does not love anything about this witch) she seem to be a different person. Bonnie never let herself get down she always came back with a bite but now, she looked lost.
"Should I be worried that you are staring in to the fire" Damon asked sarcastically.
The ghost of a smile that appeared on Bonnie's lips was the only recognition that she gave that she had even heard him. Her eyes were fixed dead ahead, lost within herself she barely recognised the uncomfortable silence that filled the room.
Taking a deep breath she found her resolve, she was going to start with Damon. "I don't blame you" she said in barley a whisper, but her heard her none the less
"Why" Damon asked truly perplexed
"Because...it wasn't you it was me. It was just easier to blame you, blaming you helped me forget this was my fault. Everything was my fault. It was just easier to hate you."
Damon was quiet he honestly didn't know what to say, although he was still angry at the little witch for the stunt she pulled last night. He was more than pissed off to find out that she blamed herself for everything that happened. He had only met a few good people in his long life and Bonnie Bennett was truly one of them. She had no right to blame herself for anything that had happened
"Oh spare me the pity party witch; you know as well as I do none of this is your fault. So pull yourself out of your little self inflicted guilt trip and do something useful" Damon spat. Tiring to get a rise out of her, bringing back the fiery witch that he knew was still there.
Bonnie's jaw clenched, her tiny hands balling up into fists at her sides as she fixed him with a, look that would cause anyone too spontaneously combust "You think I am just doing this because of self pity" she asked angrily as she stood up. Her eyes locked with his "Well your wrong! Ive seen the person I have become, I need to fix everything or else I will end you like you!" she spat the last word
Damon smirked broadly there's the little witch he knew and loved (no wait not loved...tolerated, yeah tolerated, never loved. he loved...Elena?) she was back all the fire, the passion, her heat radiated off her. Her anger filled the air around him it was intoxicating. This was Bonnie Bennett.
"See now this is the little witch that has been missing for the past couple of months. This is the little witch that would do anything for anyone. This is the little witch that is loyal beyond belief. This is the little witch who loves and forgives immensely. This is the little witch I have been trying to find. Not that guilt ridden mask you have been wearing. Welcome back Bonnie" Damon said proudly as Bonnie's expression before broke out into a smile. Realising for the first time in months she had felt something real, she had felt the old Bonnie coming back. She was slowly piecing herself back together.
"Thank you" Bonnie said genuinely, not even surprising herself with the sincere tone
"Just helping you see what was already there little witch. So we even now" he asked kinking an eyebrow. But before she could answer Caroline and Stefan came strolling in.
"Bonnie" Stefan asked amazed, eyeing the smile on her face and the proximity to his brother. Bonnie and Damon for the first time realising they had basically been standing chest to chest (As she had stomped over to him during her outburst) Jumping apart not willing to look each other in the eye. Stefan eyed them suspiciously before bonnie interrupted his thoughts
"Yeah I came here to talk to Caroline, well both of you really" Bonnie stated offering them a small smile. "If you don't mind can I speak to Caroline first" she questioned awkwardly "it's easier that way". Smiling at Caroline who had remained silent.
"Um yeah that's fine" he continued to watch bonnie and his brother "Damon and I will be in the next room if you need anything" he said nodding to both Caroline and Bonnie.
Damon followed his brother out of the room, giving Caroline a wary look not sure if it was a good idea to leave the baby vamp alone with Bonnie.
"Hey Care" bonnie said softly as she took calculated steps toward the new-born vamp.
Caroline just smiled at her, hoping to show Bonnie that she was still the same Caroline. Bonnie seemed to get the message and ran as fast as she could to the blond engulfing her in a hug. Which Caroline reciprocated greatly, careful not to crush Bonnie with her new found strength.
"Im so sorry Caroline this is all my fault" Bonnie whispered into the blonds shoulder, feeling tears spring up in her eyes. Not sure if they were tears of guilt for Caroline's situation or tears of happiness that she was still her Caroline.
"Bonnie" the blond said firmly, grabbing bonnie by the shoulder and pulling her back to look her in the face "none of this is your fault, and I refuse to have you blame yourself. You did not of this Bon Bon. All you did was try and save me, without I'd be dead" she then smiled "Well dead, dead" she joked softly, pulling bonnie back in for a hug. "You are still my Bon Bon and I refuse to have you blame yourself when nobody, and I mean nobody else does" she whispered softly "If anyone's to blame it's that bitch Katherine, who by the way has awful split ends" Caroline remarked in typical Caroline fashion.
Bonnie was no crying tears of happiness knowing her friend didn't blame her, another piece of her fitted back together. "Thank you Caroline" Bonnie whispered squeezing her again. "Just know I will be there for you thought all of this, anything you need any question anything I will be there" Bonnie smiled.
A few minutes passed which just considered off them hugging. Before Bonnie pulled back "So I'm guessing Stefan told you everything" bonnie asked.
Caroline smiled knowing what she was getting at "About you being a witch, yeah he did. Which honestly didn't come of that much of a surprise, you where always going on about some freaky physic voodoo, witch isn't that far of a leap" Caroline joked.
Bonnie smiled broadly amazed at how understanding her friend was. "Well as a witch, I can do spells, which is how I created this for you." Bonnie reached into her jeans pockets and pulled out a little black box which contained the necklace. Holding it out she continued "You know how Stefan and Damon can walk around in the sunlight because of their rings" Caroline nodded "Well I created this for you" Bonnie added opening I the box and pulling out a small silver locket with a thin sliver chain. The front of the locket held the small lupus luzi stone. Caroline smiled broadly, Bonnie was unsure whether it was the prospect of being able to walk in the sunlight or the fact that Bonnie had given her the locket that Caroline adored. asking her to turn around placing the locket around her neck bonnie smiled knowing she had done a great thing for her friend "Now it's really important that you never ever take that off, unless you want to burn like a crispy fry" Bonnie smiled, but she was dead serious. She wanted nothing to ever hurt her friend. Caroline nodded solemnly, understanding completely what her friend was saying, pulling her back in for a hug.
They both turned at the sound of someone clearing their throat at the doorway, to see both Salvatore brothers stood in the same rigged posture with their arms crossed over their chest with a seemingly anxious expression on their faces. Both girls just smiled allowing the brothers to visibly relax Stefan more so than Damon.
Damon eyed Caroline's necklace before turning to Bonnie with one eyebrow kinked "What you didn't think I could do it" she challenged. Damon smirked it was nice having the old Bonnie back, though he'd never admit it.
"Of course not little witch I'm just surprised that you moved on from parlour tricks, other than finding ways to kill me" Damon remarked in typical Damon fashion his smirk set firmly on her features.
Bonnie rolled her eyes at him, before smirking herself "Just know I can still do it any time"
Damon smirk gets wider as he responds "Just know you can do me any time" he wiggles his eyebrows suggestively. All three sets of eyes in the room roll before Bonnie asked to see Stefan alone. Damon watches them unwilling to leave as Caroline flitters past him to the kitchen to grab a blood bag. Bonnie and Stefan move to the couch, not before telling Damon to leave.
"I erm" Bonnie fidgets nervously "I uh just wanted to say I'm sorry" she spoke genuinely looking him in the eye "I'm sorry I've been avoiding you and blaming you and Damon for something none of us could have controlled. It just helped to have someone to blame, someone to hate for losing someone I loved so much. And I'm sorry that had to be you and Damon." Bonnie looked down ashamed that she had blamed Stefan, who had saved her life on more than one occasion.
"It's okay Bonnie" he said reaching out and taking her hand "I completely understand your reasons, I am just glad you are okay" Stefan smiled at her as she brought her head up to meet his eyes. She smiled softly at him, thinking that this is why him and Elena where perfect for each other both completely understanding and forgiving. She was glad her friend had him.
Squeezing his hand back she continued "I also wanted to say thank you for saving me, from Katherine and taking care of Caroline too" she smiled at him.
"Bonnie, I would do anything for my friends; I'm old enough to know a friend like you does not come around so often. After losing Lexi I know more than ever how important friends are" he smiled sadly at the thought of Lexi.
Hugging him, thankful for having another piece click back into place. whispering "Thank you" to Stefan before saying good bye to Caroline and leaving the Salvatore boarding house.
Opening the door to her car she felt a hand enclose around her elbow turning her round to face the dazzling blue eyes of Damon Salvatore. "So little witch you never got to answer my question before are we even" he said in a low almost seductive tone
Bonnie smiled slightly before replying in barley a whisper "No, not yet I still need time. But soon, soon you will prove yourself" bonnie stroked his face so gently that Damon wasn't sure she touched him at all. Before getting in her car and leaving a very confused Damon Salvatore in her wake.
So what did you guys think? I know it may seem a bit OCC but it's my story and I'll do what I like :D who else hopes that bonnie saves Stefan in the next episode please? I want them to be friends again.