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This is a story about finding what you've lost in yourself ...nah maybe just porn with a plot.
this is some hard gay stuff , children please close the browsers and if you're easily offended or don't like bad worse , maybe dnt read it?. otherwise please continue on :) ..

"It's raining..." I said purposefully breaking the eerie silence; the air was too still for my liking and his expressions too dull. "Yeah I can see that " He replied, monotone and dead "Thanks for the update ". " Anything to help you sensei" I smiled sarcastically, "you know it's kinda weird … a teacher walking around with a mask like that ". He remained silent, "it's almost like your trying to hide something sir ". Still he ignored me. "Like a birth mark or scar, or maybe you just don't want people to look at your face anymore "I saw his eye flick, time to add some fuel to this fire. "Like you're ashamed... like if someone saw you they'd remember how much of a coward you really are " he looked up at me , now glaring " a coward , a good for nothing , low life coward " . he cringed in his seat , the word alone made him shiver , it made him nervous , I know it did .." can you hear their screams now sensei , help me ..Help me Hatake, why are you walking away? Please help me! It burns! Please KAKA-"
Bang! The tables clambered and shook violently; the papers once situated on top of his desk flittered off and on to the floor. We stared at each other for a while, me with my grin, him with his straight faced mug of a face, well eye really. He sighed, his eyebrows rising and eyes closing, rubbing the hand he used to abuse the poor desk "is that the kind of reaction you where after?" he asked.
"Nah, it was a little to play down, I wanted you to hit me or something "I answered.
" I'm not into that kinda play "he said
"you know that's not what I meant you dirty old man, I'd get you fired".
"you see Sasuke if you only put that much effort in to school you wouldn't be here right now "
" I am your top student , or do you need to get that eye checked , I mean you are an old man and all" I said jokingly
"oh HAHA.. No a top student actually attends classes "he said "all these numbers on papers are just numbers to me, really. You are no different, no you're worse than a student that doesn't try at all "
I looked away from him now, not because I was ashamed or anything, just because I can't stand this bullshit he's saying. It wasn't even really what he said , it's how he said it … Like I , Uchiha Sasuke was supposed to give a shit about his bleeding classes , like I was to waste my time when I could be out doing fuck all. I looked back at him and shrugged my shoulders.
He continued "you see right there... that attitude of yours, like you know it all "
and here we go again, if I've heard it once it before. every "grown up " lecture almost always begins like this , it's to signal this was a proper telling off , I was being scolded . I knew all the lines he'd add. He'd say how I was arrogant and inconsiderate, how I am only making life harder for me and how I should grow up and sit up straight. he'd tell me how I am such a bright kid and about my potential and how I wasn't a bad kid yada yada yada blah blah kiss ass shit fuck , literally the works . What do people really expect when they say shit like that? For some sort of heart to heart? For me to open up and tell them how difficult my life and how hard I try. Maybe even cry .hah. Me cry? The thought of it is so ridiculous it might actually make me cry.
"Are you listening to me Sasuke?" I heard Kakashi bellow.
"hn" I answered while nodded, trying to imitate an interested person.
he sighed again and rubbed his forehead "look I know things have been hard since, the accident"
oh no
"I know its hard being alone now but sasu-"
"stop it sensei, don't waste your breath". I cut him off before he could start it
"Listen Sasuke I –""I said stop already" by "It" I mean the "I understand and sympathise with your situation bull crap "speech. I hated this one the most.
"I don't want your pity Kakashi, I don't need it, I didn't ask for it, yes my parents are dead, yes my brother killed them, and yes I am now alone because none of my relatives want me in their house in case I turn out to be as fucked up as my brother. I don't need you to remind me how screwed up my life is ..." he was looking away now, didn't have the courage to look me in the eye any more with his wretched one eye. Bastard, yeah I don't know why Kakashi has his faced covered up like a rapist but one thing is for sure. He is a coward, no different from the rest of them. "you know what ..." I continued "I don't need you either or this school. all of you have already made up you're minds about me huh." his face said it all.
I sunk into my seat "what names have you dubbed me with huh, what have you and your little teacher friends been saying?" truly "am I the drop out now" truly "the one that got away "it hurt "do you sit around and go that kid will never amount to nothing" it hurt like a bricks being shoved down my throats "you know I heard mental health problems run in the family, HE COULD JUST TURN ON US ALL! THE APPLE NEVER FALLS FAR!" I'm chocking on the dusty rocky bitter taste of their word " satoshi don't play with that uchicha child anymore, the NEIGHBOURS WILL TALK " I was suffocating , drowning in well of hard rock and pain , it was crushing my insides and making me bleed .
"Sasuke stop it "
"Oh why should I? I know you say it to Kakashi, you think I'm a hopeless case now "I screamed at him.
"Sasuke..."
"STOP SAYING MY NAME!" I didn't even notice when my hands had gripped the table I was sat at, or when I had got up, or when I had flung it, full force at the door. No it only became clear when I heard it crash against the door. it was like it was screaming, like my mind was screaming in pain. the table looked shattered in so many places, like I was shattered in so many places. "how dramatic of me ..." I said "sorry about that Kakashi ". I realised though, ironically, I had been comparing the table to myself, and I had been the one to break the table in the way that I did. I wonder if, I was breaking myself like that right now. this pain was self-inflicted. I covered my face with my right hand and grimaced as a shot of pounding buzzed through my temples. I felt my throat clam up and my eyes itch. I was crying. me cry? me with no soul, no emotion... a "heartless cold bastard" cry? hah. It's so ridiculous it makes me want to cry.

I grabbed my bag haphazardly knocking over the chair it hung on and ran for the door. I wanted to escape this hell I was feeling. "Sasuke wait!" I heard Kakashi shout as I ran down the hall way. for a minute all I could hear was the battering of the rain on the windows, the squeaking of my shoes on the smooth floor and the dreadful thumping of that blasted organ in my chest. it ached, an ache I couldn't fully describe as existing, it was eating away at me, almost. I wondered if it was real. I was panting hard. my lungs burning, my mouth wide open trying to suck in air, in turn becoming a container for the heavy rain water. It tasted cool and almost numbing; I drank without a second thought. I wanted to be washed away with the rain.

I got on the first bus that came. Down to my second home. I watched as the scenery around the bus was dragged backwards backwards, I watched as the rain water cascaded on the windows. I closed my eyes resting my head on the window , being lulled by the hum of the engine , the oh so familiar aroma of the bus ( a mixture of tobacco , rotting fish, and old lady extracts) .
I got off at my stop and made a b line for "unmei" my second home. It might as well have been my first home seeing as that place where I happen to go to sleep every once in a while was somewhat worse than a hell to me. I was a regular there, they all knew me, my new best friend Tobi especially. "hey dropout, long times no see" he laughed while saying
". let's just caught to the chase ok" I was wet , tired , pissed off , in pain and in need
" no need to be so much of a hurry , Sasu-Chan , you'll get was coming to you " he was another weirdo with a thing for masks.
He proceeded to pour me a bottle of the brown stuff I like, I've never been too familiar with alcohol and I never want to be. it was the first thing swig I'd ever drunk. the first taste I had when I came to unmei and it taste fucking bitter. It smacked you around and spit you out. just how I liked it. I always made a face whenever I drank it... Tobi laughed at that. "hey Sasuke, you've thought about what I said last time" he asked
"I'm in no mood to think Tobi "I said coldly.
" Such is life, my friend"
"I'm not your friend "I said downing the last drop of shit, I got up and walked zombie like, Tobi watched me walk away. I stumbled to the back of the ..."establishment" in the background I could hear cooing and heckling at each other and the sound of people shagging in the toilets . loud laughter all of it was drained away when the door shut. The back was like my bedroom, Tobi my estranged Guardian. The rubbish bins at the back just made it homier I think. I lit a cig I dug out of my pocket and took a deep breath in, the smoke felt mind numbingly good. This was my haven. I put my head back, stretching my neck hearing a click, looking up to the sky, my bangs blocking the view. it was such a dark day it was only 4 and it looked like the end of the word. I close my eyes trying to forget, praying to forget. BANG! My eyes shot open and my body launched forward. I looked to the source of the sound. the rubbish bin, tipped over now on its side, spilling it gruelling content, as some blond haired, tanned idiot in an orange t-shirt draped over it. "I AM INVINCIBLE BITCHES, YOU BETTER BELIEVE IT!" he said. I was in shock; I could feel my eyes were wide open. I watched him, smack the bin hard as he pushed down on it, to get himself up. he grunted when he couldn't do it, and then all of a sudden shot up. it made me jump again. He looked me straight in the face. His eyes were piercing, cool sky blue. The blue that was missing from the sky. he smiled at me before he passed out ….

I wanted to get away that day, not to be found.

End of Chapter one :) I'd appreciate some comment on how i portrayed Sasuke here.
Next chapter: in the case of one Uzumaki Naruto