I feel as if my life has been taken over. He says what to do and I do it, I just want him to go away. Leave me in peace. I know that will never happen though.
Dean says go left, but I still go right. Why? He tells me to. The Devil. Lucifer.
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His bidding is impossible to disprove, His voice whispering through my ear, I cannot ignore.
I close my eyes, Though I never sleep. Not a wink.
Always darkness taking over, Nothing more.
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I constantly question, When will it end. His answer? "It ends, When you can't take it anymore." his sentence flickers throughout my mind, Its all I hear at night. I roll over and stare at my elder brother, Sleeping. I watch his chest rise and fall. Its almost hypnotizing.
Sometimes I want to call to him, Tell him I'm falling far. I could never, I can't put such a burden onto his shoulders. How weak would that be to him? For me to not even be able to fight off anything, Not even my own mind. Pathetic. All I am is pathetic, Weak, A nuisance... I pulled away from my thoughts for a moment as I spotted my knife laying scattered across the room. I wobbled up and wrapped my fingers around it. Starring at its shining features. Maybe. Maybe, Just one. Just one small little infliction. How would it feel?
I pressured its frigidness blade onto my frail arm. My breathing began to unsteady as my heart rate began to increase.
Lucifer's voice entered my mind, "Do it Sammy, Do it."
I quickly ran the knife down my arm with as much heaviness I could force. It was like some sort of heroin introduced my veins. I felt as if, I could now control something, Something in my life.
It was the beginning to my addiction. My secret. No one will know.
"No one but me, Bunk-buddy." Winked lucifer.
First things first. I feel like this is the most horribly edited thing I've ever written. I'm not even gonna re-read it & try to fix it, I'm just gonna post it as is, lol.
I've lost my inspiration completely & I hate it :c If people like it, I'll continue it & try to make it better though. Maybe bring back some of that amazing inspiration I had once before. I haven't written in so long, Dur to my laptop exploding about a year ago & my cheap ass couldn't afford a new one.
Anywhore, Review please.
Also, I'm sorry for the people that are subscribed to me strickly for my Naruto stories. I really just wanted to start doing some Supernatural stories because as we all should know, Supernatural is love XD .
I'll try to continue some of my old stories & work on some new ones and if anyone likes this one I'll continue it too.
It's like I have the plotline & everything in my head, I just cant make the words come out the way I want them to, :/.
Reviews please & Thank you. Much love if you do, & Much love if you actually sat through and read the whole chapter. Bye (:
Oh, & I also know it's short, lol. My bad. Like I said, No inspiration.