Hi JAGgies!

This is my first ff so please, be honest.. and kind:) I've always wanted to write a FF and last night I finally did it! I've read many stories and I know mine is not that good, I'm not a writer but I'm trying to make you smile and have a nice time reading this. Oh! You'll probably find many mistakes, but my English is a little limited… Sorry!!

I don't own JAG or any of the characters. This is just for fun. (I've always wanted to write that!!)

Mac's POV

"Mac, you have someone who'll always love you."

"And you have somebody that loves YOU."

And then I just couldn't resist, he was there, looking at me with those beautiful blue eyes and I needed some kind of contact… I needed him, so I closed the distance between us and tenderly I put my lips on his… I didn't want to take it any further so I started to push back… but to my surprise he deepened the kiss, one of his hands on my wrist and the other in the back of my neck pulling me to him… I could feel his fear, his sadness, his love? I felt more in that moment that in my whole life. It was perfect! Of course if you forget the fact that it was my engagement party and that Renee opened the door…

"Hey Harm, are you going to come in or should I bring you here…" – We jumped apart and looked at the woman in the door.

"Renee, oh, well, this is not what you think.."

"It isn't? Then tell me what it was?? What Harm? 'Cause I know what I just saw!" – She looked angry and hurt. I had to do something..

"Renee, it was nothing, Harm…" – I tried.

"Oh no! Not you! You don't have the right to say anything!" – She was almost crying.

"What's going on here??" - Great! Mic just came out too!

"Well, ask your fiancée. They were kissing!"

"What? Sarah?" – Mic looked at me waiting for an explanation, an explanation that I couldn't give and Harm knew it.

"Mic, calm down. She didn't do anything. I … I… I was… I kiss her and I'm sorry. I shouldn't have.." - And that was all he could say, 'cause Mic hit him.

"Mic! Stop!" - Oh! Great! Now everybody is outside the house looking the scene.

It was good that the admiral stopped Mic's next move, 'cause he was going to hit Harm again.

"C'mon Rabb! Let's solve this like men!" – I didn't know what to do, I wanted to get somewhere safe, alone and think. But I couldn't leave, so I took the easy way…

"Enough Mic! It was just a kiss! It didn't mean anything! We were saying goodbye!"

"And he kissed you?" – I can't face this now, not here…

"Yes." – I'm a coward, I tried to look at Harm, but my eyes didn't obey me.

"Let's go home Mic, please." – I had to stop that. He relaxed a little and started to walk to me, passing in front of Harm.

"We are not done Rabb" - I've never seen Harm so quiet. I couldn't see what he was thinking. I looked one last time to everybody and to Harm for the first time. And I saw it, I knew he was worried for letting me leave home with Mic. I tried to express with my eyes what my words couldn't say. I didn't like the idea of letting him there alone, but I had to talk with Mic.

Harm's POV

"You kissed her?" – She looked now more relaxed.

"Yes." – I had to say it, I knew Mic could still hear me from his car. For a second I thought she was going to hit me too, but she just started to cry.

"I'm a fool! I thought once Mac was engaged your story was over. And I could have you.."

"Renee, please, listen to me." – I didn't know what to say but that wasn't the place for that.

"No Harm, YOU listen to me! If this is how it's going to be, tell me now. 'Cause I don't want to waste my time with someone who doesn't love me and who will leave me without a thought when Mac wants."

Everybody was surprised. Harriet tried to give us some privacy and was trying to get the attention of the guests, without success.. Of course what followed didn't help..

"Harm, do you love her?" – Renee looked desperate. I didn't know what to say. I tried to visualize the consequences of my answer in case I say no… or… yes, but I was getting more confused!

"I got my answer." – And she left the porch and started to walk, when she noticed she didn't have a car she stopped. Ouch! I was supposed to take her home. I don't know how it happened but Tiner read my mind and ran to where she was..

"Can I take you home Ms. Peterson?"

"Yes, thank you Tiner." - Yeah, thank you Tiner. And there I was, like a fool, standing where few minutes before I had felt what was kissing Mac was like…in front of all my co-workers and friends.

"The party is over people. I'm sorry for… everything. Drive safe and see you all on Monday" – The admiral just saved me from all the questions. I said bye to all and breathed, I needed air. Then I saw Bud approaching me.

"Sir, if you need anything call us, ok?"

"Thank you Bud. I'm ok, but thanks." - I gave him a small smile and he and Harriet left the house too. You are a good man Bud…

"Harm? Harm?"

"What?" - The admiral was there looking at me. – "Oh, sorry sir, I was thinking…"

"I noticed, here, put some ice in that jaw. So, do you want a beer?" – I knew he wanted to ask me about what happened but he didn't want to pressure me so this was his way of giving me time to talk… I couldn't say no.

"Yes, that would be good. Thank you sir." – And he offered me one beer. Minutes passed and none of us said a word. I needed to say something to explain my actions.

"I'm sorry for what happened sir, I didn't mean to ruin your party." - He took a sip of his beer. And finally talked.

"Well, it wasn't my party Commander, and I know you didn't do anything."

"Sir, I…" – I tried to talk but he continued.

"She kissed you." – That wasn't a question. How did he know? Did he see us? Or was it that obvious? If he noticed, Mic could have noticed too, was Mac in trouble?

"Harm? Still with me?"

"I knew that wasn't right, I shouldn't have let her do that but… I wanted her to do it." – Last part of my sentence was barely a whisper, and I wasn't ready for admiral's next question.

"Do you love her?" – That question again! How many times have I asked that to myself! And I still don't know what to say.. I was lost in my thoughts again when…

"Yes." – Did I just say that?? To the admiral?? To our CO?? Great timing Hammer!

"Then fight for her." – Wait a second.. Has the admiral just tell me to fight for Mac?

"I wish I knew how…"

"You know it, but for now, go home son. Tomorrow everything will look much better." – He was right, I needed to rest.

"Yes, I'll go home. And sir.."

"I know." – And with that he entered his house closing the door after him.

I walked to my car and started to drive home.

Should I check on Mac? See if she is ok? Maybe that's not a good idea.

Oh Mac! What happened? What have we done? And more important, what do I have to do to win you?

- Should I continue? -