A/n: Following last year's tradition, here there is my collection of drabbles and flash-fics to work as a follow-up, and sometimes a little introspection, to the episodes, chronogically in order as they'll be trasmitted. this year, though, I couldn't resist adding a little something for the promo, so... good countdown untill the season premiere!
5.1. promo
She pointed the gun at the target and fired, so many times they limbs actually hurt. At the end, she couldn't even see what she was actually shooting at, because her eyes were filled with tears.
She had believed him. despite the evidence, despite everything, she had actually believed him.
There's something I've been meaning to tell you from a while….
Good luck, Teresa, Love you.
What did I say? I was hyped up…
She had believed him. She had assumed he was backing up because of Red John, because he thought he wasn't worthy her… and all the while…
We were lovers.
Kiss me.
She was just like Lorelai, a tool in his hands, a mean to and, and he didn't care, he never had. He just used and abused her to get to Red John, the rest was nothing to him.
If he loved her, he would have never left to Vegas in the first place, keeping her in the dark, letting her alone to suffer in silence because he was too busy being himself to just text her a simple hi.
If he loved her, he would have never slept with Lorelai, nor he would have kissed her.
And if he really was in love with her…. well, there was no saying what a man as obsessed with Jane could do. She knew that loving him was bad enough, but allowing herself to have him, it was even worse.
For Jane didn't belong to her. He didn't even belong to his family any longer, but to Red John alone, and if she… if they…
He had slept with Lorelai, he had kissed her. How could she say that, were they in a relationship, he wouldn't do the same to get his enemy?
Well, she actually knew the truth. Jane had betrayed his wife, cheated on her with Lorelai for his enemy, and considering what he had done to herself lately… she was pretty sure that sleeping around wouldn't be a problem, it if could mean getting his nemesis.
Loving Jane was a mistake. Allowing herself to actually believe in that love was even worse, and he knew it. that was why he was breaking her heart, was manipulating her.
Apparently, the only promise he had done that wasn't actually empty was when he told her that she couldn't stop him, no matter what.
Once upon a time, she had believed to be second best in his heart, but she was wrong. A screwdriver will always be a simple screwdriver, a mere tool.