A/N: hello mina! This is a sequel to belonging. I think I'm going to make
this a trilogy.
So I hope you watch out for that last installment. In the meantime, enjoy this one...
PROLOGUE
I still can't believe that it has been three years since we started our journey. It's not long before that I was ordered to go to the west and to find out who was conducting Gyumao's revival. That was not all, irritating about the whole situation was that I was supposed to bring three youkais with me. As if, I couldn't handle the mission on my own. But it was an order and I have no authority to question their judgment. I took a glance at my three companions and hid a smile. Although I wouldn't admit it aloud, they were probably the best thing that happened to me. Especially the certain golden eyed zaru who filled my world with sunshine as I do to him. Well, that was what he claimed and I believe him. Besides this was one guy who does not lie, absolutely not.
Where was I? Oh yes, the best thing that happened to me. Well, before I met them all I know was the feeling of emptiness and vagueness. Come to think of it, I remember so little about my past. The only memories that vividly stood out were the time I was with Komyo Sanzo and the time I freed Goku from the mountain. That was it. Between those periods I remember nothing. Funny isn't it? I decided not to dwell on it as I heard shrieks behind me.
"Urusai bakazaru! I'm trying to get some sleep!" Ah, the ero kappa. Sha Gojyo to be precise. About as thick as anyone can get. Doesn't know a thing besides flirting and drinking sake. He can rival me in the smoking department and I've got to give him credit for that. He's also a taboo child. Nonetheless, Gojyo was a reliable fighter. "Maa-maa Gojyo, Goku was just trying to get space too."
Oh, this one was little mother hen. Cho Hakkai if you didn't know. He is the glue that holds us together. With his mild mannered attitude and charisma everything is possible. Heaven forbid if I did not have him as a companion on this trip. I probably would have killed the two damn zarus the first week. And yeah, this two love birds owe me. And the zaru too. If it weren't for my cunning and the zaru's help, they probably would still be pinning for each other.
Anyone with eyes and a common sense would notice that they had a thing for each other. Hakkai would burn red with rage every time Gojyo flirts with a woman while Gojyo's eyes would turn into fat little hearts at Hakkai's slightest movement. Pathetic. Well I've taken care of everything and they are so much together now. I don't watch them too closely though. So sickeningly sweet. See what love does to a person? It can change the most flirtatious, I don't-care-for-anyone persons into a sap. A complete dork of a sap. Simply outrageous. Me? Well, alright I admit. I've gone mellow. Just a little bit. I don't scowl for too long and I've raised my patience a tad bit. Have I missed anything? No. That's probably it. I will never turn into a sap like these two did. Never. "Sanzo! I'm hungry! Do something about it."
I resist the urge to slap my forehead to wake myself up. I don't fall in his spell under these circumstances. I'm superior. I will not turn into a sap. I mustered all the acting skills I have then glared at him coldly. "You will wait until we get into town." I told him forcefully. See? I told you I have longer patience. "But I'm really hungry Sanzo!" WHACK. I tuck my paper fan inside my robes before glaring at him again. I do have my limitations though. "Do I look like a food producer? Now be quiet!" I glared at the boy until he relented and sat back down on his seat and pouted. Adorable as always. I tear my eyes away from his face and set my eyes trained on the road. That chibi, adorable zaru is Son Goku.
You could say that we have a thing going on. I may not be the most caring, sweetest and most expressive person on the face of the earth but he seems happy to be with me. I think that it's all that matters. Besides in my own way, I think I had proven my love for him when I rescued him from Homura. Yes, that damn perverted kami. I'm just glad that the whole Homura episode in Goku's life is over. That bastard almost ruined us. Almost snagged Goku from me. I hid my eyes under my bangs to hide the look of triumph I probably had in my face. He is mine and I'll keep it at that. Well, the whole thing is not particularly over as Homura is not dead. And I know he is just bidding his time. If I were him I wouldn't let me of the hook either. Well the least I could do is to prepare for his return.
I just hope that he won't come back anytime soon. I'm still enjoying my time with the zaru at every possible personal moment. Behind closed doors preferably. I hate giving myself up to other people. What I feel is mine, what I think is mine and I certainly don't need to share these with others. It actually took me a lot of guts and pride to let Goku in on my feelings. Really. I'm a damn secretive person. That's all. But some people misinterpret this. They think I had some mysterious air surrounding me. Mind you, it's a bit annoying. Girls and yes, boys a like love it. I shook my head disgustingly as we passed a girl giggling madly as we come by. Certainly the red haired kappa winked at the girl which made her fall into hysterics. Hakkai looked at Gojyo warningly. Oh the humiliation theses two give me.
Finally we reached town and Hakkai promptly parked Hakuryu at the front of a respectable looking inn. We hopped out and I took time in stretching. Sitting in the jeep for a whole day can give any person cramps all over. Me? I had practice being stiff at the monastery. Who says you couldn't get anything from there? The three youkais looked at me lazily, wondering if I'm deliberately slowing down. Well, they can't exactly get a meal or a room without me. Well not me basically but the little shining, gold credit card I've been given. It gives me extra power over them. I sighed. Hate to break it to them though. The three buddhas appeared in my dream lecturing me on the money splurging. They told me they cut the budget in half. I found out that it was indeed true. I took dignified steps and stopped at the door of the inn. I faced them as if I'm on preaching mode.
"Were on a budget. The three buddhas think were spending to much."
"Eh? What about food?" Goku complained while rubbing his stomach.
"Baka. Of course well get to eat. What our dear master Sanzo is saying is that you cut your food consumption." Gojyo told him. Goku looked at me pleadingly.
"But I'm a growing boy." I looked down on his large golden brown eyes and felt my defenses melting. I shook my head no. "Its not like I'm starving you."
"But.."
"Well, why don't we just share rooms so we could cut cost? That way we could get to eat more." Hakkai suggested.
"Wow! Hakkai you're really good! Ne, Sanzo why don't we do that?"
Well, if you put it that way.. I certainly was looking for a quality time with..Wait what was that? For a moment I feel like I was going to pass out. A shadow was lurking behind the three of them and I vaguely remember it. It was very familiar. I spotted it for a split second before it vanished. I must've spaced out because when I came to, Goku was looking at me closely, his eyes glowing with concern. "Sanzo? You okay?" "Yeah. I'm fine." With that I entered the inn, forgetting all images of that man.
I settled at the bed, feeling satisfied with dinner. It wasn't exactly the best meal I've had but anything is fine with an empty stomach. I close my eyes ready to let the sleepiness engulf me. "What the.." I mumbled when I felt that bed sway. "Sanzo you're sleeping on me! You didn't even say goodnight!" Goku whined loudly in my ear. I turned away from him, positioning my self on my belly. "Go away. I'm tired." I say sleepily. Oh well, so long for the quality time. Goku must've understood me because he kept quiet and settled himself in. I feel really, really sleepy. It's only eight o'clock for goodness sake, and at this hour I'm up and about. I must be really tired. I feel Goku move and settle at my back straddling my waist. "What do you think you're doing?" I ask him indignantly. Goku did not answer; instead he started to massage my back. It felt so good. He kneaded slowly and it erased all the tension I feel. I mumbled a thanks and fall into sleep.
Where am I? This place is so dark. I mumbled to myself. Can't even see my own hands. I tried to move around but in doing so I stumble to the ground. Ouch. Now I've done it! I berated myself as I felt that I broke my ankle. I look wildly around. Still no light. Then suddenly directly in front of me one blue eye twinkled in mischief. I feel my chest tightening. I know that eye.
All lights came up. And I saw myself staring at his hideous face, contorted with anger, fondness and who knows what. His other eye was covered in a patch but I could definitely see the scar that runs along it. His lip was in a snarl and he made the move to touch me. Instinctively I move from his grasp. He laughed madly. A high mad pitch. It was deafening. "Koryu, no, Genjo Sanzo. You let me touch you once. What's the harm in letting me do it all over again?" I feel my blood boil. Who does he think he is? "Who are you?" "My, my, you have forgotten all about poor, little me? Then let me show you." With a swift move of his hands, shackles come from nowhere and fastened itself on my hands and feet. In an instant I was immobile. I watch in horror as he come nearer. Now I know that I don't show fear, but there was something about this man that made me tremble so much. The mere sight of him petrifies me. "Hahaha.. Why are you trembling? You know I wouldn't hurt you?" He told me as he squatted down on my level. Like a kid, I look at him hopefully. "You won't?" He laughed again and touched my face. I felt shivers at his touch. "I'm sorry. I lied!"
He then ripped my robes off. I looked at him madly. Tears were streaming down my face. I think I remember him.. "Now, do you remember me?" I shook my head. He can't be. He looked mad that I didn't recall clearly. He slashed my underclothes. I was completely naked. "Now do you remember?" Still I shook my head I can't place his face. He shook his head in mock sadness. "Then I guess I have to let you feel it all again." He looked menacingly at me and started to shed his own clothes. "Please stop... Stop!"
A/N: hey. sorry for the oocness of sanzo in the last part of this chap. I guess im just trying to show that he too has weaker side and he fears someone too. You better follow this so you would know! Hehehehe... Ja ne!
So I hope you watch out for that last installment. In the meantime, enjoy this one...
PROLOGUE
I still can't believe that it has been three years since we started our journey. It's not long before that I was ordered to go to the west and to find out who was conducting Gyumao's revival. That was not all, irritating about the whole situation was that I was supposed to bring three youkais with me. As if, I couldn't handle the mission on my own. But it was an order and I have no authority to question their judgment. I took a glance at my three companions and hid a smile. Although I wouldn't admit it aloud, they were probably the best thing that happened to me. Especially the certain golden eyed zaru who filled my world with sunshine as I do to him. Well, that was what he claimed and I believe him. Besides this was one guy who does not lie, absolutely not.
Where was I? Oh yes, the best thing that happened to me. Well, before I met them all I know was the feeling of emptiness and vagueness. Come to think of it, I remember so little about my past. The only memories that vividly stood out were the time I was with Komyo Sanzo and the time I freed Goku from the mountain. That was it. Between those periods I remember nothing. Funny isn't it? I decided not to dwell on it as I heard shrieks behind me.
"Urusai bakazaru! I'm trying to get some sleep!" Ah, the ero kappa. Sha Gojyo to be precise. About as thick as anyone can get. Doesn't know a thing besides flirting and drinking sake. He can rival me in the smoking department and I've got to give him credit for that. He's also a taboo child. Nonetheless, Gojyo was a reliable fighter. "Maa-maa Gojyo, Goku was just trying to get space too."
Oh, this one was little mother hen. Cho Hakkai if you didn't know. He is the glue that holds us together. With his mild mannered attitude and charisma everything is possible. Heaven forbid if I did not have him as a companion on this trip. I probably would have killed the two damn zarus the first week. And yeah, this two love birds owe me. And the zaru too. If it weren't for my cunning and the zaru's help, they probably would still be pinning for each other.
Anyone with eyes and a common sense would notice that they had a thing for each other. Hakkai would burn red with rage every time Gojyo flirts with a woman while Gojyo's eyes would turn into fat little hearts at Hakkai's slightest movement. Pathetic. Well I've taken care of everything and they are so much together now. I don't watch them too closely though. So sickeningly sweet. See what love does to a person? It can change the most flirtatious, I don't-care-for-anyone persons into a sap. A complete dork of a sap. Simply outrageous. Me? Well, alright I admit. I've gone mellow. Just a little bit. I don't scowl for too long and I've raised my patience a tad bit. Have I missed anything? No. That's probably it. I will never turn into a sap like these two did. Never. "Sanzo! I'm hungry! Do something about it."
I resist the urge to slap my forehead to wake myself up. I don't fall in his spell under these circumstances. I'm superior. I will not turn into a sap. I mustered all the acting skills I have then glared at him coldly. "You will wait until we get into town." I told him forcefully. See? I told you I have longer patience. "But I'm really hungry Sanzo!" WHACK. I tuck my paper fan inside my robes before glaring at him again. I do have my limitations though. "Do I look like a food producer? Now be quiet!" I glared at the boy until he relented and sat back down on his seat and pouted. Adorable as always. I tear my eyes away from his face and set my eyes trained on the road. That chibi, adorable zaru is Son Goku.
You could say that we have a thing going on. I may not be the most caring, sweetest and most expressive person on the face of the earth but he seems happy to be with me. I think that it's all that matters. Besides in my own way, I think I had proven my love for him when I rescued him from Homura. Yes, that damn perverted kami. I'm just glad that the whole Homura episode in Goku's life is over. That bastard almost ruined us. Almost snagged Goku from me. I hid my eyes under my bangs to hide the look of triumph I probably had in my face. He is mine and I'll keep it at that. Well, the whole thing is not particularly over as Homura is not dead. And I know he is just bidding his time. If I were him I wouldn't let me of the hook either. Well the least I could do is to prepare for his return.
I just hope that he won't come back anytime soon. I'm still enjoying my time with the zaru at every possible personal moment. Behind closed doors preferably. I hate giving myself up to other people. What I feel is mine, what I think is mine and I certainly don't need to share these with others. It actually took me a lot of guts and pride to let Goku in on my feelings. Really. I'm a damn secretive person. That's all. But some people misinterpret this. They think I had some mysterious air surrounding me. Mind you, it's a bit annoying. Girls and yes, boys a like love it. I shook my head disgustingly as we passed a girl giggling madly as we come by. Certainly the red haired kappa winked at the girl which made her fall into hysterics. Hakkai looked at Gojyo warningly. Oh the humiliation theses two give me.
Finally we reached town and Hakkai promptly parked Hakuryu at the front of a respectable looking inn. We hopped out and I took time in stretching. Sitting in the jeep for a whole day can give any person cramps all over. Me? I had practice being stiff at the monastery. Who says you couldn't get anything from there? The three youkais looked at me lazily, wondering if I'm deliberately slowing down. Well, they can't exactly get a meal or a room without me. Well not me basically but the little shining, gold credit card I've been given. It gives me extra power over them. I sighed. Hate to break it to them though. The three buddhas appeared in my dream lecturing me on the money splurging. They told me they cut the budget in half. I found out that it was indeed true. I took dignified steps and stopped at the door of the inn. I faced them as if I'm on preaching mode.
"Were on a budget. The three buddhas think were spending to much."
"Eh? What about food?" Goku complained while rubbing his stomach.
"Baka. Of course well get to eat. What our dear master Sanzo is saying is that you cut your food consumption." Gojyo told him. Goku looked at me pleadingly.
"But I'm a growing boy." I looked down on his large golden brown eyes and felt my defenses melting. I shook my head no. "Its not like I'm starving you."
"But.."
"Well, why don't we just share rooms so we could cut cost? That way we could get to eat more." Hakkai suggested.
"Wow! Hakkai you're really good! Ne, Sanzo why don't we do that?"
Well, if you put it that way.. I certainly was looking for a quality time with..Wait what was that? For a moment I feel like I was going to pass out. A shadow was lurking behind the three of them and I vaguely remember it. It was very familiar. I spotted it for a split second before it vanished. I must've spaced out because when I came to, Goku was looking at me closely, his eyes glowing with concern. "Sanzo? You okay?" "Yeah. I'm fine." With that I entered the inn, forgetting all images of that man.
I settled at the bed, feeling satisfied with dinner. It wasn't exactly the best meal I've had but anything is fine with an empty stomach. I close my eyes ready to let the sleepiness engulf me. "What the.." I mumbled when I felt that bed sway. "Sanzo you're sleeping on me! You didn't even say goodnight!" Goku whined loudly in my ear. I turned away from him, positioning my self on my belly. "Go away. I'm tired." I say sleepily. Oh well, so long for the quality time. Goku must've understood me because he kept quiet and settled himself in. I feel really, really sleepy. It's only eight o'clock for goodness sake, and at this hour I'm up and about. I must be really tired. I feel Goku move and settle at my back straddling my waist. "What do you think you're doing?" I ask him indignantly. Goku did not answer; instead he started to massage my back. It felt so good. He kneaded slowly and it erased all the tension I feel. I mumbled a thanks and fall into sleep.
Where am I? This place is so dark. I mumbled to myself. Can't even see my own hands. I tried to move around but in doing so I stumble to the ground. Ouch. Now I've done it! I berated myself as I felt that I broke my ankle. I look wildly around. Still no light. Then suddenly directly in front of me one blue eye twinkled in mischief. I feel my chest tightening. I know that eye.
All lights came up. And I saw myself staring at his hideous face, contorted with anger, fondness and who knows what. His other eye was covered in a patch but I could definitely see the scar that runs along it. His lip was in a snarl and he made the move to touch me. Instinctively I move from his grasp. He laughed madly. A high mad pitch. It was deafening. "Koryu, no, Genjo Sanzo. You let me touch you once. What's the harm in letting me do it all over again?" I feel my blood boil. Who does he think he is? "Who are you?" "My, my, you have forgotten all about poor, little me? Then let me show you." With a swift move of his hands, shackles come from nowhere and fastened itself on my hands and feet. In an instant I was immobile. I watch in horror as he come nearer. Now I know that I don't show fear, but there was something about this man that made me tremble so much. The mere sight of him petrifies me. "Hahaha.. Why are you trembling? You know I wouldn't hurt you?" He told me as he squatted down on my level. Like a kid, I look at him hopefully. "You won't?" He laughed again and touched my face. I felt shivers at his touch. "I'm sorry. I lied!"
He then ripped my robes off. I looked at him madly. Tears were streaming down my face. I think I remember him.. "Now, do you remember me?" I shook my head. He can't be. He looked mad that I didn't recall clearly. He slashed my underclothes. I was completely naked. "Now do you remember?" Still I shook my head I can't place his face. He shook his head in mock sadness. "Then I guess I have to let you feel it all again." He looked menacingly at me and started to shed his own clothes. "Please stop... Stop!"
A/N: hey. sorry for the oocness of sanzo in the last part of this chap. I guess im just trying to show that he too has weaker side and he fears someone too. You better follow this so you would know! Hehehehe... Ja ne!