Sharing

by Emy.Elle

I know what I have to do when my suspicions are confirmed. Jarlos. Lots of fluff, an ounce or a lot of slash and smut. Just an ounce, or, you know, a lot - maybe. Read and review.

1. Chapter 1

Walking to the kitchen to get some orange juice I heard voices. They sounded like arguing so I stoped. I don't usually eavesdrop, but, this time, soomething told me to listen. Carlos was arguing with James and my heart sank with every word I heard.
- Why, man? Why the fuck would you ask her to stay with you? James was furious but keeping his voice low. So I wouldn't hear them, for sure.
- I'm lonely, James. You know that. Carlos was sounding like a 2 year old.
- Carlos..we barely find time to be together as it is..why would you..oh, my God! James gasped.
- What?
- You love her! It sounded like an accusation.
- Y-y-yes..I do. Carlos was stuttering. He was nervous. My heart turned to a flea. All of my suspicions were now confirmed.
- Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! That was NOT supposed to happen..
- James..she's amazing, she respects me, she supports me, she takes care of me..she loves me..she's here when I need her..
- Don't..just don't go there..you know I want to be here, next to you, every single second..you know that..
- I do..Carlos sounded like he was crying. I dropped to my knees. I knew it. I just knew it. And it hurt. A lot.
- You know our families, baby..I don't want this..
- We still have your place..the hope in Carlos' voice made my head shoot up. The love and desire in his words made it clear to me. What I had to do. It was the only solution to keep Carlos happy. I got up from the floor and started to take a step to actually enter the kitchen. James' voice stopped me.
- No. We don't. James said. I froze.
-Wh-why?
- My sister is moving in, Carlos. You know that..
- I..I..I forgot,ok?
- Fuck! We don't stand a chance, man! I hate this. I hate the pain. The jealousy. I have no right.
A loud bang told me James had hit something in frustration.
- Jamie..
- Don't call me that! James exploded.
When Carlos didn't answer I knew something was terribly wrong. The emotions flying around the kitchen hit me dead on in the middle of my chest. I was gasping for air. Before I could even sort my feelings out James exploded again and I found myself reacting on an impulse.
- I'm out of here! James shouted and opened the back door.
- YOU ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE! I called after him as I entered the kitchen.
They were both instantly frozen. Both had red eyes and I knew they had been crying, but whatever tears they had shed were now instantly dry form the pure shock of seeing me stand there, looking ferocious.
- Baby? Carlos mumbled.
I looked him in the eyes. He was terrified. I switched my eyes to James. He was as white as a piece of paper. Terrified to hell and back.
- How..How..
- How much did I hear? I finished Carlos' sentence. - Let's just say I heard every word.
All of the blood drained out of both their faces.
- Baby..It's not..
- It's not what I think? I raised my eyebrows at Carlos. - So..you two aren't in love? My voice became gentle. As talking to children.
They both became porcelain statues. I stepped to James and took his hand, literally dragging him back to Carlos.
- You're not going anywhere. I told him again. - Carlos needs you.
- Baby..
- Carlos admit it. You love James. I looked him square in the eyes.
- I love you..too..Carlos whispered not even looking me, or James, in the eyes.
I looked up at James. He was stunned. By my reaction. By Carlos' confession. By all of this. I was in a bit of a shock myself, but, now there was no turning back. I would not allow Carlos to be in pain. Ever. I let go of James' hand and took the last step separating me from my boyfriend.
- Look at me. I told him. He shook his head like a stubborn child denying me. - Baby, look at me. I said on a gentle tone of voice.
As he lifted his face to meet my eyes tears were running down his cheeks. I kept my face relaxed.
- I'm an awful person..Carlos sobbed and shyed his eyes from mine.
- No, baby, you're not. I told his and held him to my chest. - I love you more than I have words to express. You're amazing! I told him, gently caressing his hair.
- I don't deserve you. Carlos said and pushed me away ever so slightly. I just held him tighter, turning my head to James. "Help!" I pleaded with him.
- Carlos. Don't lie. James told him and Carlos' head shot up, eyes wide open. Just a second later he began to cry again.
- Either of you. Carlos said as he pushed me away - hard. He turned on his heels and left. James wanted to chase him but I put a hand on his shoulder and stopped him.
- What? James retaliated at me.
- I know how you feel. I can't stand to know Carlos is crying either. But he needs space and we need to talk.
- About what?
- Carlos' happiness.
James calmed down. Apparently those were the right words to get thorugh to him.
- What do you mean?
- You love him, just as much as I do. I said matter-of-factly. - He loves us both..as weird as it may sound.
James was just listening. His arms crossed over his chest. Clearly fighting with himself but seeing the truth in my words, in spite of his obvious jealousy. I understood him completly. I was burning with jealousy myslef, but I had to get over it and do what I had to. Carlos' happiness meant more than my stupid possessiveness.
- Go on. He told me.
- Carlos will be misserable if you leave him. James nodded in agreement.
- So would I..he whispered..I forgot how to live without him. James whispered again, looking at his feet. I put a hand on his forearm.
- I know. I smiled when James looked me in the eyes, more surprised than anything. - I forgot as well. I love him. Need him like air.
- Then you won't..
- No. Never. Plus. Even if I did end my relationship with Carlos that would not fix anything between the two of you. Your families will still remain your families. I know Papa Garcia, remember? He frowns upon how touchy-feely you guys are as it is..I don't even dare to think what he'd do to know his eldest son is in love with another man..A man he considered a brother for years.
James started to tear up.
- I know..But..How..
- Learn to live with it.
- With what?
- Each other.
- What?
- We - you and me - learn to live with each other. Learn to share Carlos. Hmph..actually..we have been sharing him all along..I said, a bit of saddness creeping up in my voice as I began to crack down.
- You knew?
- No. Not for sure. I had a feeling about it. I had my suspicions. A smile here, a touch there..but no..I never KNEW. Carlos has always treated me like a princess..my voice cracked and tears creeped up into my eyes. James just took me in his arms and held my tight. I hugged him back. Tight.
I could feel his tears on the top of my head. We both cried for a moment, pulled together by out love for the same man.
- Ok. He finally said. - We share.
I looked up into his hazel eyes. It wasn't the best idea, it wasn't going to be easy, it wasn't going to be a ride in the park, but for Carlos' happiness we were both willling to put our hearts on the line. I nodded.
- Lets go to him. I whispered.
We found him in our bedroom. Suddenly I found myself wondering just how many times had Carlos shared the same room with James. I shook my though away and pushed open the door. Carlos was in the middle of the bed, covered up to his ears. I looked up at James as he took my hand in his when we both sat on the bed.
- Carlos? I said gently.
- Baby? James pulled Carlos' covers.
His face was red and puffy. His chocolate eyes drowning in tears. But he soon stopped as he saw our hands clasped together.
I looked at James and smiled. He responded to my smile and gave me a barely there nod.
- We have something to tell you..James started.
- We made a decission..I played along.
Carlos froze.
- We've decided to hook up..James said, a smile playing at his lips.
- We're both breaking up with you..I couldn't hide my smile.
Carlos was stunned. He went white.
- What?
James pulled me to his lap.
- Wait. What?
I snuggled close at James chest. We were now smiling from ear to ear.
- No. This is not happening..What?
The we couldn't hold it in anymore. Both James and I burtsed out in laughter.
- Baby, seriously?!
- Honey!
- What?! Carlos demanded yet again.
- We're pulling your leg! James laughed placing a hand on Carlos' leg and tugging lightly.
- Big time! I couldn't help myself.
- We had a talk..
- We both love you too much..
- Your happiness is what matters most to both of us.
- We've decided to share.
- Stop hidding..at least from your girl..
- I'll give you your couple time and James will give us ours..
- Our families will never know..
- Your fans will never know either.
I was still on James' lap. He was holding me close with one arm, the other still resting on Carlos' leg. Carlos was frozen.
- You'd do that? He finally asked.
- Yes.
- Yes.
- For me?
- Yes.
- Yes.
- Why?
- Because we love you. James and I said as one.
Carlos got up and kneeled before the two of us, on the bed.
- What have I done to deserve this? He asked placing his hand on the hand that James was holding mine. His fingers intertwined with ours. My hand in the middle. It fit so well. It felt right. Somehow. In a weird way. It felt right.
- You loved us. James whispered.
- You made us feel loved, appreciated, needed. I added.
- This is a dream..Carlos whispered and flung his other arm around James, pulling us both to him. Tears started to fall again. This time they were happy tears.
I got my arm around Carlos' waist and muzzled into his neck. I felt James' hand on Carlos' shoulders as I ran my hand up his back. James took my hand as he pressed us all closer together, to his chest. It was the most awkward of positions, but nothing could feel better.
- Baby, please stop crying..James soothed.
- Neither of us is going anywhere. I whispered in Carlos' ear.
He broke our embrace and placed his lips chastly on mine. Gently. Like the wings of a butterfly. Then he kissed James just as lightly.
My breath held. It was the hottest image I had seen in my life. It lasted only a second but it turned me on to no end.
Carlos backed up, searching in both our faces. Searching for a sign that his gesture had bothered either of us. He didn't seem to find any because he let out a long, hard breath while looking down at his own hands, clasped tightly on his lap.
- I love you both so much. I can't even imagine my life without either of you. But I can't ask you to..
- Carlos..James began on a soothing voice.
- STOP! They both looked at me wide-eyed. - First: we both love you right back. With everything we've got. We can't imagine our lives without you. If we have to share a bit, then, so be it, but you are part of both of us. Second: you're not asking. This is a decission WE - James and I - made because your happiness is all that matters to the both of us. And, lastly, third..I blushed bright crimson - seeing you two kiss..was the hottest thing I've seen in my life..I said almost whispering with embarassment.
Both of them gasped. Neither had expected it. But it was the perfect diversion.
- Say what? James prompted me with the widest of grins.
Carlos' eyes became hot like a volcano. The color his eyes get only when we're in bed. He swallowed hard.
- I..I..I mumbled.
- Say that again. Carlos' voice was low and husky. That could only mean one thing.
- I loved to see you guys kiss..
- Like this? James asked me playfully while leaning in and kissing Carlos on the lips. Passionately. Eyes closed. Tongues fighting for dominance. I gasped.
- Yeah..just like that..I whispered, lust dripping from every sound that came out of my mouth.
- Baby, I have an idea..Carlos said, addressing James. This will take some getting used to. Carlos calling James "baby" and not me. Jealousy exploded inside of my chest but I quickly stumpped on it, like an annoying bug.
- What, baby? James asked his..well..our - i guess - boyfriend. His voice betrayed him. He knew Carlos' mind. And, as a matter of fact, so did I.
- Come here. Carlos told James and began to whisper something in his ear. I heard what sounded like "in front of her" but I could not be sure. James' grin just widened as he turned and captured Carlos' lips again.
I backed up a little, leaning in on the bottom board of the bed. My view was gorgeous. James had completly pinned Carlos down under his weight. They were both giggling in between kisses, happy to have their moment together. I felt like a peeping-tom or a voyeur, but I could not tear my eyes from them. My jealousy had been quickly forgotten, turned into pure love and lust, but I dared not move. I dared not breathe. They'd remember I was there and I'd ruin everything. I held my breath as I pulled my legs closer to give them room.
Carlos ran his hands up James back. A moan came from somewhere between their connected lips and I held my breath completly.
- Mmm, baby..Carlos gasped as James began trailing kisses down his jaw and neck. It was a different sound from the ones I knew Carlos made in bed. Completly different. I bit my lower lip hearing him. - Baby, baby stop..time out..he giggled meeting James' gaze. I thought I saw James nod as they both turned to me.
James got off Carlos who got up and opened his arms to me.
- Come here, angel. He told me in his bedroom voice. I obeyed. I crawled up to him and knelt by his side, opposite to James.
My heart was pounding so fast. It was so scary. I had no idea what to expect. What to do. What to say. So I said nothing. Did nothing. But expected everything. And Carlos did not disappoint me. His kiss was soft at first. Then, as soon as his hand found the nape of my neck, he deepened it. I moaned into the sweetness of his mouth. I heard James gasp and my blood began to boil. I gave in to Carlos' every whim and replied to his demands with the same level of passion.
Soon enough I was pinned down under him, his expert hands roaming my body, his mouth tasting me, his hips grinding against mine. It didn't take long for him to give me a small shallow orgasm. He'd always been able to do that. Neither of us knew how or why, he just did. I arched my body under his in the sudden wave of pleasure and dug my fingers in his short hair.
- Mmmm..I love it when you do that..Carlos moaned against my collarbone as I came off my high. - Wonder if..He trailed off.
- Wonder if what? I asked gasping for air, my body already screaming for more.
- Wonder if anyone can make you feel that..he continued in the sexiest voice I had ever heard. - Someone like James..
I gasped on spot and shot up from under him. Seeing them kiss, make out, even, was one thing. I knew I had to live with sharing Carlos with James, but..sharing James with Carlos? That I had not expected in a million years. My possessive boyfriend sharing his man with me. Ok, yeah, that sounded weird even in my head!
- What?
James ginned. Carlos did the same.
- I know you like me..that way..James told me. His voice low. Sexy. Damn sexy. His eyes dark. Lustful.
- I-I-I..
- Angel, you're stuttering. Carlos grinned as he tucked my hair behind my left ear.
- I-I-I..
Carlos moved away. Suddenly James pulled me to him, had me saddle him. I blinked at him in amazement. When did all of this happen?
- I am going to kiss you now. Carlos will watch us..like you've watched us..like I've watched you..James said looking at me like I was a piece of juicy meat. - Yoou were so right - it was the hottest thing I've ever seen..He brought his face withing a hair of mine. - Seeing you come like that...when Carlos barely touched you..James connected our lips. His kiss was hungry, demanding, consuming. I had no choice - my eyes flew closed as I gave in to him, opened my lips and let him take my mouth.
Carlos gasped. - So hot..he whispered.
James smiled against my lips. So did I. I opened my eyes and met James smoldeing hazel gaze.
- I want you to come for me. He said as he leaned on top of me.
I looked up at Carlos. He was smiling. I reached up over my head and took his hand in mine as my attention returned to James. I needed to have my boyfriend's touch as his man touched me. James smiled at Carlos, placed his hand over mine, linked our fingers together - the way they had been before - leaned down and captured my lips again. I moaned into his kiss as his erection rubbed against me.
- For me? I asked full of lust.
- For you. James replied and moved his hips again. I bucked up against him letting him know I loved the feeling. Soon enough we were fucking with clothes on. With Carlos watching. It was the hottest moment of my life. It didn't take long for me to come again. James just watched me, watched my face, as I came down from my high.
- You're beautiful. James told me. - I can see why Carlos loves you.
I smiled and kissed his jaw.
- And I can see why he loves you. You're perfect. I replied pulling him to me with my free arm and legs. James hugged me back. For a precious moment it was just the two of us sharing more than two people have ever shared before. Our hearts beating as one for the same man. We both looked up at Carlos. At the same time. As one.
Carlos unlinked our hands and James rolled off of me. He got up, pulled me to him and dropped back on the pillows, with me on top of him, opening his arms. Carlos accepted his unspoken invitation.
For any other person it would have been weird to share James' shoulders with their boyfriend. But for me - it seemed natural. Fitting. Perfect. Carlos' hand found mine over James' chest. He linked our fingers together.
- Thank you, angel. Carlos addressed me. He brought my hand to his lips and gently kissed it. I melted under his touch.
I said nothing. There was nothing to say. We just said there, in comfortable silence.
- Feels right, doesn't it? James finally said kissing the top of Carlos' head and then mine.
- It does. I agreed.
- I love you both so much! Carlos told us both.

To be continued?