Well guys here it is! My first fanfic. I know I'm not an amazing writer but I hope you all enjoy :)
Here's the first chapter to "Like Coming Home"
Questions
You know, love is a funny thing. Whoever said it was like an emotional roller-coaster was right.
For the most part.
Maybe I should throw Eli on one; you know, so that he can see what a real coaster does. So that he can see that a normal roller coaster doesn't go straight up for a few feet, and then somehow plummet two thousand feet to the center of the earth. But then, maybe I shouldn't be comparing our relationship to a normal roller coaster.
Because honestly, our relationship was anything but.
We've been through a lot, Eli and I. From him running over my glasses when we first met, to him making be scream at the top of my lungs in public. From me telling him to leave Fitz alone, to him completely ignoring me and almost getting stabbed. From us going on our first real date to see Chuck Palahniuk and getting matching piercings, to him getting totally Stalker Angel obsessive on me and crashing his hearse….
"Huh…I might have skipped a little there-"
"Gee, you think?" Ali said sardonically. We were sitting in front of my computer in my room, looking at the piece I had just written about mine and Eli's relationship. It was actually Ali's idea, to write about what I felt after I had kissed Eli at the Frostival….
The Frostival.
I kissed Eli.
I still can't believe I did it. I couldn't believe it the day after, or even a week after that. I don't believe it now, but the reality is... I did. I kissed Elijah Goldsworthy at the Frostival.
And I can't say I regret it either.
I can say however, that it felt….right. It felt like coming home, and I couldn't wait to tell him that when I saw him…I was a little nervous about that though…
"-so long?" Ali looked at me expectantly, breaking me from my thoughts about Eli. Had I missed something?
I gave her an apologetic look "I'm sorry Ali what did you say? I must have been day dreaming." She gave me a knowing look.
"Honey, you've been like this ever since the Frostival, and don't think I don't know why." I was confused, what could she possibly know? My confusion must have shown on my face because she continued. "Don't play dumb Clare, I know we haven't been talking because of the whole cabin thing" We both winced at the thought. But she recovered quickly "But you're still Clare and I still know you. Ever since you kissed Eli little Saint Clare has been having dirty thoughts about her Ex Gothic Prince, hmm?" She'd said the 'Ex Gothic Prince' part with an awful British accent, reaching out in a longing gesture.
I blushed beat red and looked at the floor. "N-no I wasn't …I mean t-that is-" She tried to suppress a giggle and I cleared my throat biting my lip, mentally cursing myself for stuttering. "Um…Ali what was it exactly that you were saying?"
She laughed a little and rolled her big brown eyes. "Alright alright Clare, change the subject I get it." She put up her hands in surrender and I smiled at her thankfully, the blush still faint on my cheeks. "I was just asking why it's so long. I mean, I only said you should do this so you could get it off your chest and have fun over break. Not waist your whole break on the thing. This is a freaking biography!" She sounded exasperated and a little disappointed. I felt a little bad I had spent so much time on it instead of hanging out with her. She said for me to do this because she thought I would obsess over it the whole break.
I sighed and smiled sadly at her, moving from my desk chair over to my bed where she was sitting. "I'm so sorry about not seeing you over break, Ali. It's just…" I sighed again, I felt so guilty "I spent tree days working on this and when I was finished my mom and her new hubby insisted Jake and I stay in the house for the remaining four days* because she wanted us to" I put up air quotes " 'Bond as a family' for our first Christmas together."
Ali blinked and shook her head "oh, no Clare I'm not mad. I just wanted to see my friend after not seeing you for so long is all." I nodded
"I know you're not but I am." I sighed for the umpteenth time in the last few minutes "Ali, the whole reason we weren't friends for so long is because of guys getting in between us. I just feel like it's starting to happen again."
She laughed and hugged me tightly "Clarebear you don't even have to worry about that ok? It won't happen again. We just have to make a promise that we won't let guys get in between us ever again." She pulled back and looked me in the eyes, holding out her pinky. "Promise?"
I laughed at the feeling of being 10 years old making pinky promises with my best friend. I smiled and locked my pinky with hers "Promise." We both laughed and hugged again. I really did miss my best friend and I was so glad to have her back.
When we had both came down from our laughing fit, Ali pulled back and looked at me again clearing her throat and wiping the tiny tears out of her eyes. "Now," she said officially, as if she was about to give a speech. I looked at her quizzically. "Enough about us, let's get down to business. About this whole Eli thing. I need to know something before you do anything." I nodded slowly and skeptically, not knowing where exactly she was going with this.
She took a breath as if she was getting ready for something and looked me dead in my eyes. "Clare," She paused searching my eyes. The suspense was absolutely killing me. "Clare, do you still love Eli?"
My heart skipped a beat.
My breath hitched.
Did I still love Eli?
My mouth opened to answer the question but no word came out. I tried again but still nothing. Ali started to get a sort of worried look on her face. "Clare...You ok Clarebear?... Its ok if you-"
Dead Hand began blasting in my room, that was Eli's ringtone. I looked around to find my phone on my pillow. I reached out to grab it and saw that it was a text. I opened it up with Ali reading it over my shoulder.
-Clare-
Hey, did you have a good break?
I know we still need to talk since we didn't get to at the Frostival, so do you think we could talk after school? How about, in that area we had lunch in when you spilled cauliflower soup on me? Answer back soon.
-Eli-
"….Oh Clare, you spilled cauliflower on him?"
*I didn't know exactly how long breaks are in Canada so a made it a week like mine here.
...Well? What did you think? I don't think it was horrible, but its not my best. But hey 1,382 words...Hm, not bad.
If I get reviews next chapter will be Eli's POV :O This should be a three shot if you guys want it to continue :)
Much Love
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