A/N: AGH! I know I keep forgetting to post out chapter 2! I lost it somewhere on my hard-drive
^^;; Lol, so yeah. I have to rewrite it or do a mega search on my computer. I got a cable modem,
so everything SHOULD go faster ;) I'll be sure to get Chapter 2 of The Fury Scrolls in!
Another Note: AHH! not another angsty songfic... This time, I'm showing one of my shipping
favours... Hermione and Draco :D This takes place a few years after Hogwarts. Umm,
I suggest downloading the song "Honestly Ok" by Dido (it's short) to get to the full effect of
the "angstyness"
Honestly Ok
A song fic
By Ophelia
Song By Dido Armstrong
The rain falls gently, filling the gutter. The house we bought together is so full. Of you, of me, of US.
I just want to feel safe
In my own skin
I just want to be
Happy again
I just want to feel
Deep in my own world...
Oh, Draco, I knew you weren't caught up and totally lost to the Dark Side. See, I knew loving you would be good, for both of us. When you repented against HIM, I knew they'd go after you. You were their strongest, led astray by a mudblood. Those sick, hateful bastards. That night, when you left to resign your position, we faught. I told you no! I was so concerned for you. But you were still pig-headed. I hadn't changed you completely. Never thought that they'd go after me, did you? I can't sleep without a light, knowing that HE is waiting around the corner. I wish you hadn't gone. I wish you were back. Our love, this forbidden love, was the only thing that kep me sane, Draco. You gave me everything. If you only knew the pain I felt loving you, you would be here, right now. It's all Your fault
But I'm so lonely
I don't even want to
Be with myself anymore
On a different day
I was safe in my own skin...
I was thinking of how you didn't like lieing to me. But you did. And our lives came crashing down. I can't stand this house. I'm not safe, and a feeling of emptiness overwhelms me to the point at which I cry myself to sleep. But I can't leave. I still have the rose you gave me, our first night up in the tower. It's black now, like the sky. It's all your fault
Then I wouldn't feel lost
And so frightened
But this is today
And I'm lost in my own skin...
They say that opposites attract. Never would I believe that... till Us. Without you, my life is like that rose. Fragile and dark. Harry tried to make me happy. But it was never like our happiness. I wander around your grave everyday, that was your greatest achievement. You finally did what YOU wanted. No Malfoy family crypt for you. Somedays it feels like you've never gone, but the toothpaste is on. You never left it on. You swore never to make me cry, another promise broken. Like that last one, "I'll be back soon, honey." Hah. It's all your fault
And i'm so lonely
I don't even want to be with
Myself anymore
I just want to feel
Safe in my own skin
I just want to be
Happy again...
I refused to more after those threats from Him. Everything had to be perfectly the same. Before you left. Guess what Draco? I'm not the same. I know. But I remember that last fight, that last night. I threatened to leave. But, oh. I could and would never EVER leave you. I pushed you to rebel against him. You knew you would never win. Never leave alive. I let him kill you. And Draco? it's not all your fault. It's all MY Fault...
Honestly Ok