Were life begins and love never ends.

Hi! I'm new here, finally got enough courage to sign up and post. I love fluff and Linstead family, so here i am trying. English is not my first language though.

Erin pov.

Every year I realise how much I hate winter. Chicago style winter even more. But the sight of my boys chasing each other, and mainly their dad, with giant snowballs, melts my heart. And my frozen toes too.

My poor little tough girl, desperate to keep up with her brothers, freezing her ass off. While our smallest secret, I think it's a girl, is still warm and safe inside my belly.

If you told me seven years ago that I would marry my partner, move to a small townhouse with a yard and end up with four kids, I probably laughed my eyeballs out. But I would not trade it for the world. They are my everything.

Sure, I was scared as hell when I found out I was pregnant. And yeah... I kind off freaked out when the doctor told us 'Congrats! You are expecting twins!', but with Jay still having my back after al those years, I can take down every criminal, annoying school mom or Voights neighbors who's giant dog runs over my kids.

'Mommy look!' Hazel yells from Jay's shoulders. Damn, my baby girl is growing up so fast. By the time the baby comes she will be three.

'We turned Liam into Olaf!'

'Not every snowman is called Olaf, Haze,' Jay grins.

'I think they are.' Yep, she is definitely ours.

'It's not fair, we can't reach Hazel!' My five-year old Liam whines.

'You seriously wanted to beat a two-year old in a snowballfight Liam? I thought I taught you better.' My husband, a.k.a. Best dad ever.

'No, but with her on your shoulders I might hit her when i'm trying to get you.' Liam is just as badass as his dad. His twin brother on the other hand, while both the spitting image of Jay, would not hurt a fly. Noah is definitely a mommy's boy.

'Can we built a real snowman, dad?' Noah asks.

'Of course we can!'

'Yes, a weally big one!' Hazel smiles with her arms wide open. 'Can Mommy help too?'

'Mommy hates snow,' Liam laughs.

'Why?' Someday her why-fase stops, we hope.

'Because it's cold,' Noah answers.

'Okay,' clearly logical enough for my baby, as they start building. An hour later I pull the wet ski suits of my kids, lift them in their warm pj's and admire their giant snowman in our backyard while they snuggle up against me.

'Who wants hot chocolate?' Jay asks, carrying a tray with five warm mugs, causing all four of us screaming 'me!' at the same time.

'And can we watch Frozen Mommy?' I lost count how many times we've seen that movie.

'Sure munchkin, ask one of your brothers to put it on.'

'I'm on it,' Noah says.

While watching Frozen I look at Jay.

'I was to tired to think of anything for dinner, so I ordered in pizza,' I confess. His hand immediatly caressing my cheek.

'Still not feeling better?' My overprotective husband asks. During every pregnancy Jay turned into overprotective hubby 2.0, this time included.

'Just tired babe, nothing major.' He smiles, like i'm the stubborn one...

'Sure. When do we tell them? You're showing big time, and almost halfway through.'

'Tell them what?' Liam asks. Jay grins like an idiot.

'Can you pause the movie for a moment No?' I ask my son. He immediatly responses with putting the movie on hold, causing his sister to sit up.

'Noah!'

'Haze, we can watch the rest later. Mommy and daddy want to tell you guys something.' I tell my Frozen-loving headstrong two-year old.

'Is grandpa comming over?!' She enthusiasticly asks.

'No, grandpa will take you to the Zoo tomorrow, because Mommy and I have to go to the doctors.

'Why?' Noah immediatly terrified, thinking back to almost a year ago when Jay was shot.

'Because Mommy has another baby in her belly No,' I spit out directly to comfort him.

'You guys are getting another brother or sister!' Jay says, with still that idiotic dorky smile on his face. God, I love him so much.

Noah's worried face immediatly turns into the same dorky smile as his dad. 'Really!'

'Really!'

Two little hands are shoving up my sweater, and I feel a cold nose and lips against my belly.

'Hi baby!' Hazel says happilly, and gives me a questioning look. 'You are not as big as aunt Kim.' Refering to Burgess, who just gave birth to her seccond son four months ago.

'That's because our baby has to grow inside my belly for a while Bug.'

'When will she get here?'

'She?' Jay asks. 'We don't know yet if it's a boy or a girl, Haze. We'll hopefully find out tomorrow.'

'I want a girl baby,' Hazel answers. 'We can call her Elsa!'

'And what if it's a little baby brother?' Jay asks her.

'Olaf, or Sven.' She says without hesitation, causing her big brothers rolling of our couch laughing.

'Well Haze,' I try to tell without laughing. 'I don't think we're naming your sibling Elsa, Olaf or Sven.'

'O,' a little silence falls. 'But I want a sister, I don't want to be the only girl.' There she had a point. All of our friends had boys. Ruzek and Burgess had two, Casey and Dawson had three boys running around, Severide and his ex have a boy who the're sharing custody over and even Atwater and his girlfriend had a kid, witch to Hazels annoyance also turned out to be a boy.

'We'll find out tomorrow sweetheart,' I said while lifting my girl on my lap.

'Will you tell us mommy?' Liam asks.

'Of course we will tell you!'

Noah smiles. 'I also want a sister, for Hazel. So she can have a best friend too, just like me and Liam.' Tears well up in my eyes. Everyone will say it about their children, but mine are the cutest for sure.

'Don't cry Mommy,' Liam says. 'We like a brother too.'

'That's not why I'm crying squirt. I have happy tears because you guys are so cute, and I love you so much.' My boys look confused, and I see my husbands idiotic grin reappear.

'The baby is messing with mommy's feelings guys, called hormones, she will cry a lot about nothing upcomming months,' he winks at me.

'Hey, you can't mess with a pregnant woman!' I call in defense, but knowing he is right. My other two pregnancies I was an emotional wreck. I even cried over the weather forecast. That's why Voight banned me out of the district last times.

I received a gentle kiss. ' I won't babe, I won't.' The bell rang, what made Jay stand up. 'Pizzatime!' He made a beeline to our frontdoor to collect them.

'Go and wash your hands, my incredible snowman builders.' While my kids ran to the kitchen I looked to their outside creation. Maybe this winter wasn't so bad after all.