This memory, it's always there, engraved in my mind haunting me. It's a daily obsession more than anything, so I'll be blatant about it, it's left me to become a victim of insomnia and depression, and the blame is entirely on you. If I had known the regret that plagues me now, I would have done anything in my power to make the time we had together better.
Do you remember that day, it was our two year anniversary, and you cooked lasagna for us. I forgot to tell you how delicious it was and I forgot to smile and tell you how my day went, I'm sorry about that. Now I don't see your beautiful raven hair floating around the kitchen from the counter, it's just an empty room that carries our most precious memory .Without your presence the house is dark and lonely, just like my heart.
Rage and sadness is all I feel now, and in all honesty it's useless. These feelings are all useless; at least that's how I now see the world. You have taken everything with you when you died, maybe even a half of me, you took away my best friend, my lover, my future. I'm feeling sad again, even in death you managed to change me, Ulquiorra.
"Do you remember exactly how you died, Ulquiorra?" I said it out loud, I know, I always have a feeling as if you'd reply to my disappointment you never do, but I explain anyways.
I remember every single detail, from the moment you turned the door knob to the time I heard your name being on the news. I didn't believe it at first, the fact that you had been run over by a drunk driver, but when I decided to go see for myself it took everything for me to not beat the crap out of whoever did such thing to you.
Now Ulquiorra, do you know how I die? Well, in about ten minutes I'm going to think life without you is nothing. I will go into our room, and pull out my gun from the drawer, I will point it to my head and you know what, I hope I don't regret it. I forgive you now Ulquiorra, because I can't die holding a grudge on you. It will take me two minutes until I finally pull the trigger, and I will fall into a never ending sleep, death.
I have a feeling it will be worth it, Ulquiorra.
A/N That was pretty depressing, I'm glad I just wrote my first GrimmUlqui fic I hope you enjoyed it and Thanks for reading R&R.