Forever.
To Live Forever.
That Is my curse.
Watching forever, as everyone I could ever love, every care about slips through my fingers and bury themselves six feet under the ground.
Six feet away from me.
And it hurts, its worst than the deaths ... I would live a thousand deaths for the pain to stop. and maybe thats why I tried to shut it off. Tried not to care, tried not to love.
But then They came along ... he came along. My torchwood team, My Ianto.
They Made me care, and although it will hurt forever when I loose them, I can never be sure that I would ever give it up. because I have my memories, and although my memories might not be enough one day, for now I will cling to them. When they are gone, I shall remember ... Toshikos Smarts, Owens stupidity, Gwens Heart, I will even remember Rhy's Jelousy ... But most of all I will remember holding Ianto in the night and knowing that for how ever long i had to go without him, only in his arms would I be home, and everyone returns home eventually ...
I shall never Forget them. Never Forget Him.