Disclaimer:
not mine, never will be.
No money so
don't bother to sue.
Authors
Notes: here it goes
This is a
sequel to "I'll say goodbye for the two of us"
Since I
hadn't intended to write one you'll have to forgive me if this one sucks
The words
in italics are fragments of the song "Ain´t no sunshine" by Bill Withers. It is
of course used unauthorized (surprise). No infragment intended, though. I don't
think this is really a songfic, but the song just jumped into my mind while
writing and I decided to include it.
Some parts
are written in Syaoran´s POV and some in… let's call it 3º person. I did this
because it was easier to write this way
means thoughts
` ´
makes references to past statements or sayings
___ means a change of scene or POV
Feedback of
any kind is welcome.
And last
but not least…
DEDICATORY:
this is dedicated to the people who reviewed my story and made such nice
comments. Eternal fire, Vegeta´sHotBabe13, Fuusaki, favoured kid, obiwankatie,
Digi Star, SoulSister, Aramoon, Lil Blossom, fireblaze, Realla Nights, fallen_angel
: this is for you. I just thought it
was the best way to pay back your support, I can't thank you enough.
Enjoy!!!
Special
dedicatory to Sakura491: I'm sorry you didn't like it!! I know it's sad but it
will have a nice ending, I promise!!
"I'll say goodbye for the two of us: when the truth
breaks the silence"
by cherry blossom
"Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not
warm when she's away
Ain't no
sunshine when she's gone
She's
gone much too long
Anytime
she goes away…
Darkness.
That's all
there is these days. For me at least, because the world seems to go on at ease.
Just to
show contradiction, it seems, days have been the most beautiful Tomoeda has
ever seen. According to others, but not for me. Without my cherry blossom
there's nothing. No sunshine, no bloom, not a single thing seems other than
sad.
And if days
are bad, nights are worse.
Just to be
in my room without her brings a pain in my chest I wouldn't have thought
possible. Heart-ache. And it's not just that. What is, to love someone so much
it physically hurts not to have near? I don't believe there's a name, but it
certainly is what's happening to me…
My Sakura,
where are you?
…Ain't
no sunshine when she's
gone
Wonder
if she's gone to stay
Ain´t no
sunshine when she's gone
And this
house just ain´t no home
Anytime she goes away"
Days have
passed and still not a sign from her. Though I suppose I shouldn't expect one,
she said so. I remember her final words clearly. Sneaky way to say goodbye, she
made sure I'd listen but I wouldn't be able to hold her back. One would think
she'd at least give me the reason, but nooo just the `you'll understand
someday´ crap. Shit!! I'm doing it again. I try to transform my sadness in to
anger so I won't miss her so much. But I can't. I love her too much.
Come back,
my love.
I can't
take it anymore
Li Syaoran
sat in the bench beside the Sakura tree. The bench which had been witness of
many of their encounters. He closed his eyes and pictured his cherry blossom.
Her auburn hair, shinning to the light and silky to his touch. Her evergreen
eyes, those eyes which had stole his heart. Her face, her
body, everything. He ached to touch her, to kiss her, to make sure she would
always be there. But he couldn't, for reasons he didn't even know. How could this happen? he
thought. Was I so blind I couldn't see it coming?She knows how much
I love her!! What could have possibly forced her to leave me??
Then
something came to his mind. The dream? No, he had made sure she was okay after
that. It had taken weeks for her to sleep again, but it had ended fine. Unless,
unless it hadn't. Something else had happened and she hadn't told him.
Something really big, if it had made her leave. But why hadn't she told him?
Why?? Didn't she trust him? God, with all that had happened in their he thought
she would always trust him.
Then it
struck him. Her final words `you wouldn't understand´ What does she mean I
wouldn't understand?! I'd do anything to keep her by my side!! he thought
angrily Anything…
Syaoran
gasped realizing what he had just thought. And the horrible pool of feelings
came down on him again, this time with one he knew so well: guilt.
She was
right. As always I'm just a selfish bastard who would do anything to have her.
Even at her own risk. I haven't changed at all since I first arrived here. I
still out myself before others
Exhausted,
he put his head in his hands and cried once again.
A dark
figure watched the usually strong boy lose composure helplessly. Just the
way I planned it he thought and smiled with self-satisfaction. It had all
been way easier than he had thought. He had heard the reputation of the
cardcaptors and they had sounded invincible. But they weren't. If there was something
he had learned in all his years of training was that nothing was unshakable.
You just had to find the weak spot… Many thought that the cardcaptors love was
their strength. But as true as that was
he knew he could manipulate them with it. The girl would have never let her
love die, that was clear. She would have chosen to die over that. And how close
she was to her wish…
On the
other hand, the boy had the worst self-blaming case he had ever seen. It would
destroy him to know his love was suffering because of him. And that's
exactly what I have in my mind…
Notes:
Okay, I was going to write a one-shot sequel but I want to make it right and it
does take time. Since I don't want you to get impatient I'll be posting it by
parts. Thanks and sorry for the wait!!
