Disclaimer: Not mine.
#1: Because she's too smart, whereas she's too kind
Maybe Haruka would never know this. But Asuka always appreciates her effort even when she says nothing like that. She understands her hidden courage, her kindness to others which often disadvantages her. Asuka knows Haruka is nice.
That's really her positive side, whether Haruka believes it or not.
And Asuka knows she, herself, isn't a nice person. She's a bit too smart—if she has to say it—to be kind. She prefers to concentrate reaching her goal rather than meddling with some childish drama her friends involved. It's a waste of time.
It's her reason. Or maybe excuse. She's not sure.
She knows she doesn't like to decide something, to search the middle ground where everyone happy. She likes to be on the neutral position, standing in the higher stance, observing from the outside. If anything, she knows, it's an irresponsible choice. To be able to escape whenever she wants, without being tied down to anything.
Her juniors, and her fellow third years too, mostly view her as if she's a mighty queen. Like nothing could affected her from doing her own way. She's so perfect, it makes them admiring her.
However, what's that the truth? Not really. Thought it's not wrong either.
She has confidence with her way of think; sure she would reach her goal if she puts her mind to it. But sometimes, she wonders whether it was nicer to be a bit like Haruka, or maybe Kaori, or maybe Aoi… or even her juniors, Kumiko and the others.
She knows there's not only one right option for living your life. And there's not only one ideal to lead others. Haruka should've known it too. She refused to be president not just because she didn't want to, she couldn't. She's a bit too smart to patiently listen to everyone and wait for them to follow her (why they always troubled with something so trivial is beyond her understanding).
Haruka, Asuka understands, is more suited filling that role to her. She wishes she could say it directly like that. But her personality doesn't permit it. Because saying something like that is not her style. She likes roundabout way to impress others after all. It's more interesting that way.
And cruel truth is often needed to make someone realizes something. She doesn't mind to be the bad guy as long Haruka could see complaining to her won't change anything. That she's the president is not Asuka's choice but hers.
Haruka may not think she is respected or admired like Asuka. But Asuka knows, within their circle of friends, she is more loved than she thinks she is. Everyone loves nice person, after all.
And Asuka too—the perfect-o Asuka, loves Haruka.
A/N: Argh... I couldn't help but wrote this after watching Hibike eps 7... I want to write drabble about Kaori and Haruka too. Maybe later, then I'll update this. But well... because I haven't watching eps 8... I don't know...
(I want to write Aoi and Haruka too)
#Harukaneedsmorelove