This is no history to be proud of. I will be totally willing to say that everything that happen in here, sometimes I wish it could have been a little different but thanks to what I saw those days I learnt a lot myself. I had always said, "Life is NOT a fairy tale.
This tale starts with a boy, I will be also willing to say to name it the main character unfortunately this boy does not have almost anything special in it but he had one of the greatest problem in the human nature: he was unable to trust anybody but himself. Not only that, he was also an expert in manipulation using people every time to his own benefit. He lived like that for a long time. Sometimes he tried to remember when he stopped believing in other people, when he start seeing them like liars and selfish beings. In no time he became almost the definition of a sociopath, or at least he categorized himself like that.
Every single time that it seem that he tried to do something for anyone else he noticed that in all of those actions, he always, ALWAYS, win more than any other person. It had become at some time his nature to always do what was better for him and eventually it became a habit of him. Once he tried telling someone specialized in the area and that person denoted that if such person existed with the qualities that he had describe, that person would be most certainly unable to feel any kind of special affection for any other person. At the end he gave up on himself and accepted the kind of grotesque human being that he was. He lived hidden his true color all the time because a contradiction existed in him. Despite knowing how he was and that he just ended up using every person as a tool, he was afraid of ending up alone. Well that was just to be sincere just one of the many contradictions in his personality but he decided to not noticed that for his own safety. He knew that in the moment that all this contradictions ended up being noticed, he will most surely will end up totally broken without method of being fixed. Well enough about talking of our pathetic and selfish main protagonist.
But before introducing our next principal character I must introduce someone with a little role. The boy cousin is part of this tale. The boy admired his cousin. I wouldn't exaggerate to say that he was like a brother to him but with time that changed. His cousin, well, we could say he became more mature and his actions were totally unknown by the boy who once admired him so much. With time the feeling of admiration change for the feeling of wanting to be recognized. A feeling of competition developed in our main character and even if it was just one sided, he took it seriously trying to become better from that guy that he admired once so much. We introduced here our main heroine. The girlfriend or well, to be more accurate the boy despite knowing his colors and the inconsistency, he fell in love of the lover, at the current time, of his cousin. He though that her personality was bright and beautiful not to mention that she had and still has every part of his body well developed, making her still a really beautiful women that any men would be lucky to date.
Obviously the feelings of the boy never were listen but sometimes his cousin teased him about being in love of his, I must repeat, at that time, current girlfriend. I believe that he could have got if he really tried any girl he wanted, well maybe not, but obviously being considered of not aiming to high. One time he believed in a high school crush but this ended up badly because of his coward attitude and his crush had been taken by someone else. I still do not know the reason for the way he acted. Maybe it was because he was afraid of happiness or more like experiencing that happiness and knowing that he could end up losing it because of how he really was. He lived with several friends but none of them were let to be too close to him or more like he did not permit it. He finished his high school time and around that time he caught the notice that his cousin had broken up with his girlfriend. The girl that he once fell in love but decided not to say anything. He did not know how to take the situation.
There were two feeling in his heart. A feeling of disgust against his cousin for letting go such pretty, cute and we could keep going forever of the things that he saw in that girl. And the other one was a feeling of knowing that one of his first crushes was now available. But things did not go well. She ended up being really emotionally hurt for the break up. He could just not bring himself to act. Another in-congruence of his personality or maybe not. He knew that if he acted right in the moment when she was hurt, he most likely just win a little percentage of benefit but if he waited and did things in the right order, his reward would be even greater. At the end, he only thought of himself primordially again. He chat by the computer with the ex of his cousin and tried and sometimes succeeded in cheering her up. Then he start speaking by phone with her, start making drawings for her and all those kinds of things that an idiot in love would do. I sincerely believe that he was certainly in love with her. Unfortunately life is not that easy.
The scars on her were still there and in some moment he came up with one of the most stupid ideas. If he certainly could succeed in overwhelming his cousin, not for the sake of just a childish wish of just wanting to be the best but now for the childish wish of wanting to believe that he could be happy with her in that way or at least that was what his pride made him believe. Well I had already explained the background or in a way I hope something that will be useful for the reader to understand the following events in my tale.