Drifting Away

Chapter 1

This always happens, I mean every time. Things are rough and there's this dark period. Then things get way better, and all the shit that happened was worth it. But, that would make things easy and sweet and nothing, nothing, can ever be that easy and sweet. So everything becomes harder. She leaves. Just when I finally had her, she leaves. I mean it's only for the summer, but it took us awhile to get to where we're at now and then she's off to London. Ashley, I don't know how I can possibly make it through this summer without you. You're like an umbrella in a rainstorm. You can deal with the storm for a little bit, but then it's too much. Ashley, I can't survive without you.

But what can I do? Complaining isn't going to get me anywhere. I'll just hold back my tears and kiss you goodbye. I'll tell you to have a blast and to bring me back a T-shirt or something. Heh. That is, if you come back. I'm so sick of expecting one thing, and then it turning out to be horribly wrong. It's supposed to be just the summer, but what if you decide London's just too good to leave and you stay there. I don't think I could take that, I don't think I can take being abandoned again. Sure, I have my circle of friends, but even they can't feel that empty hole. I'm incomplete with out you babe. I've known that all along, even though we had our problems along the way, we ended up right where we need to be. I wish you well. Don't let me lose you.

Sincerely

Paige Michaelchuck

I kissed the letter, rolled it up, and put it in a glass bottle with a cork. I learned awhile ago, that when there's something eating up your insides that it's best to just write it out on paper and send it away to the deep abyss. I closed my eyes and threw the bottle in the water. All of this really happened fast, it seemed as if one day we were best friends, than the next we hated each other because she took ecstasy, then the next day, she was sitting there while I sobbed on her shoulder about Dean. I don't know when we fell in love, maybe I loved her all along and just replaced it with hate, it wasn't until her break up with Craig that I realized it though. I remember secretly envying her when they would walk down the hall hand and hand. But when they broke up, I realized I wasn't interested in Craig like I had originally thought. My feelings of envy were for him, that he had her. It all happened so fast, we fell in love, we hid our love, we still do. But it doesn't matter if other people know about is, they don't need to. Because I love her and she loves me and that's all that matters. I could try to explain our story, about falling in love and how it happened, but I'd rather skip that part, and tell you about what happened after words. After she left for London, and how I was right, how my feelings about her never coming back were proved accurate.