I live my rules…
My own life…
By myself…
I hate being told what to do…
I do it my way…
I don't give a damn of what everyone tells me…
They can all go to hell…
Think you can understand me?...
I can't even understand myself…
So don't even judge me if you've never knew of felt all the pain and suffering that I've felt…
These three letters meant everything in my life…
M…I…A…
Everything started with her…
I would have given everything just to forget her…
She's cute, pretty, beautiful and smart…haha…
She's like a drug…One dose…and you get addicted…
And once you get addicted…you can't stop what you're doing…
All throughout my life I've become an emotional, unstable person…
Still finding a cure that would free me from my addiction…
Turn to run but there's no where to hide.
Looks so helpless from here inside close my eyes and breathe deeply.
Lose this fatal game of hide and seek.
God of Mercury, how'd this happen to me?
Happen to me?
Remember endless days waiting for your call.
For your words of treason to end it all tonight.
So many ways to end a life when a second lasts forever.
Some things best left unsaid.
Because some scars never heal.
One night can change a life…
And your kisses, they burnt my flesh.
Your silence makes my ears bleed.
Your angel voice is poison.
And it's pulsing through my veins.
What's the point of being alive…
If it's all gone when you're dead…
If secrets are left hidden…
Do they fade away?
And would it make a difference if I said, "I HATE YOU"
cause "I LOVE YOU" doesn't work.
Blood is thicker than water.
And it will forever stain your hands…
That memory is burnt into my brain.
And some things were meant to be forgotten…
Here I am.
Pouring my heart to you.
The heart to you.
The heart I've locked up for so long.
I finally found someone to talk to.
Someone I didn't have to say a word to.
They would understand me.
Even if they don't know the half of it.
I tried.
For you.
Why don't you talk to me anymore?
Why don't you want to see me again?
Why are you doing this to yourself?
Why am I doing this to myself?
Why do I find myself screaming?
Is it because I betrayed you and the Mercury Clan?
I scream my lungs out to you, at you, But only when you're not there.
And when I can see you, I might as well be one of the edges of the universe.
Looking down.
Ready to jump.
Whenever you came to my mind…
I cry another tear…
I destroy another thousand brain cells.
From holding my breath.
Though no matter how hard I try.
I can't push you out of my mind.
I smashed another glass today.
Just to try to picture what is going on.
Inside my head.
Inside my heart.
Why does it hurt so much…
When you were never mine?
It finished.
Before it began…
Sorry doesn't matter, you're already too late…
I'm on Mt. Aleph…
Crumbling away with it…
Being eaten at the heart of Mt Aleph…
My death wasn't your fault…
It was but my fate…
For fate is a purpose that we can't elate…
It's simply another step towards a better place…
Yours simply and truly…
Alex…