Emily's POV

I haven't seen Lily since we came back from our holiday in Berlin. After Skins, our acting careers started to kick off and as a result we were both offered some really good parts in films and a few TV programmes that we really couldn't say no to. Once things had cooled down had started to cool down, we decided to book a holiday for the New Year together as we hadn't seen one another for awhile and neither of us had a proper holiday in around 3 years so it seemed like a great idea, besides we both deserved it after all of our hard work.

We decided on Berlin because Lily knew how much I loved it when I went there before with my boyfriend, but with Lily I wanted it to be even more special… I'm not sure why. I mean, yeah we were close with each other in skins and she's my best friend, but oh I don't know!

I shouldn't have let it happen. I've only just come to terms with it and I think I'm ready to tell her but I'm not ready for everyone to start judging me. I've always said that I don't like labels and that they're for cans, but not everyone thinks like that, do they? I don't think I'm ready for all of that yet.

But then I wonder why it's taken me so long. I knew how she felt about me when we were filming Skins, or least I liked to think that's how she felt, otherwise why kiss me next to the fountain in Berlin on our last night?

I was too stupid and scared though and ran back to my hotel room. I kept thinking that it was too much like Emily and Naomi, and look at what they went through. I thought that if it is real then Lily might be like her character and keep running away. But turns out it's me! I was the one who was too scared to answer her calls when she kept ringing or to even open the door when she ran back to the hotel to say sorry.

We eventually spoke, just put it down to being VERY drunk from celebrating our last night and that we were both emotional from not being able to play Emily and Naomi again. I was too scared to tell her that I actually liked her kissing me again, that I have always liked her kissing me… that I'm in love with her, yes love. And now that I think I'm finally ready to tell her, she's in fucking Jamaica with my fucking sister and Kaya and I don't know if she'll ever talk to me again, let alone want to see me…

So what do you think? Should I continue? I have plans of something which I don't want to give away just yet as it may spoil the 'surprise' I have, but I'm not sure if anyone will even like this yet, so please review to let me know what you think.

Oh and for anyone who doesn't know, yes, Lily and Kat really did go away to Berlin on holiday for New Year this year and Lily did go to Jamaica with Megan and Kaya afterwards. I thought I would make a fanfic around what LilyKat do as well as add bits of Naomily.