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It is girl's night and Tracy and Andy are chatting about Dov's latest antics. Andy picks up the bottle of wine and refills their glasses.
"So..." says Tracy.
"Don't start," says Andy, knowing exactly what Tracy is going to say next.
"Did you tell him yet?" Tracy asks.
"Tracy, I said don't start!"
"So, I'm guessing that's a no."
"Yes, that is a no! What am I supposed to do, Trace, just walk up to him and be like: Hey Sam, I'm moving in with Luke! Have a nice life!"
"Well... not exactly like that, but yes!"
Andy rolls her eyes. They have been having the same argument for about a week now. Andy knows that she has to tell Sam before he finds out from somebody else, but every time she tries her throat closes up and her mind goes blank. Saying that she's moving in with Luke will make it that much more real, and it terrifies her.
"Look," says Tracy. "That thing with you and Swarek... it was a mistake right?"
"Right," says Andy, not sounding very confident.
"Then telling him that you're moving in with your boyfriend should be no big deal, right?"
"I guess..."
"But it is a big deal to you. So, maybe that thing with you and Swarek wasn't a mistake?"
They sip their wine in silence, both engrossed in their own thoughts. Tracy finally breaks the silence
"What are you thinking?" she asks her friend.
"I'm thinking... I'm thinking that I need to talk to Luke."
The next day, Andy and Sam are on patrol together. He is driving like usual, but something isn't right. His hands are squeezing the steering wheel just a little too tightly and his jaw is clenched just a little too shut.
"Sam, are you okay?" asks Andy.
Sam lets out a long sigh and pulls over.
"You trust me, right?" he asks her.
"Of course I do."
"Then why didn't you tell me that you're shacking up with Callaghan?"
"Because I'm not."
"Excuse me?" He looks at her incredulously. He had expected her to make up some lame excuse, not to outright lie.
"After our undercover op, you told me that I didn't have to fake it anymore. I realized that I still was. With Luke, I mean. I'm not in love with him, and I never was."
"So you broke it off with him?"
"Yes. How does that make you feel?"
"I feel..." He shakes his head. He doesn't know what to say. Words always fail him. The last time he tried to tell her he loves her it came out it was what it was. "I feel..." He places his hand gently on her cheek and pulls her closer to him. He puts all of his passion into the kiss.
When they pull apart for air, he says, "That's how I feel. Understand?"
Andy nods. "I feel the same way." She pulls him in for another kiss.
Maybe one day they will be ready to tell each other those three words. But for now, it's enough to feel them.