Hidden

(A/N: Hi, this is Mini. I started writing this one-day and decided to turn it into a FanFiction for Fairy Tail. I might write names differently sometimes because this wasn't originally for Fairy Tail or . Thanks, enjoy!)

~~~~~All I ever do is watch and listen. I never speak; I never draw attention to myself. Not since she died. I can barely look at myself; I look too much like her. I try to avoid people as best as I can.

~~~~~If she were still here, maybe I would still be social. Maybe I would still have friends. Maybe I would remember how to speak. But no, she just had to die. I remember the day. July 7th, x777. I was only 10.

~~~~~When I was young, I believed friendship and love were everything. Now I know they are not. The world is dark and cruel. It took her. And it takes more every single day.

~~~~~The only times I ever leave the house are when I am told to. I am not lonely. But I am alone.

~~~~~When she died, Father became different. He paid no attention to me. It was as if I didn't exist. And I still don't feel like I do.

~~~~~Today I must go to the market, one of my least favorite things to do. Because of him. Whenever I go there, he is there. He is loud, bold, and annoying. His name is Natsu.

~~~~~He has a tendency to hang around me. He thinks I listen and understand, but I don't. I don't understand. But I do listen. I listen because it is my job to do so. I know more secrets than God. I have more knowledge than my tutor. But that is all inside. Hidden.

~~~~~He talks too much. But I don't mind. Because I don't have words, and I don't want words. I fear, if I have words, it will all slip out. The pain and the sadness, all of it. So I don't speak.

~~~~~Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever forget the pain. If the emotional pain of loss will ever go away. I don't think it will.

~~~~~People try to get me to speak. I never do. That is why I am best left alone. No one would care anyway. No one cares about me. No one enjoys my presence. They think I am weird. They think I am different. But I am not. Just hidden.

~~~~~If I spoke I would tell them. But they wouldn't understand. No one ever understands me. But I think Natsu would. He says he lost his father when he was really young. He doesn't act like it. He is the only person I would ever consider a 'friend'

~~~~~I never leave my thoughts. Except when Natsu is speaking. He tells amazing stories. But they would never come true. Like me, they are hidden from the world. I think that's why he tells them to me.

~~~~~I must leave now. If I do not there will be no food to eat. I would starve. No one would miss me. I am too hidden for anyone to notice me.

~~~~~Here he comes. Just as I expected. He says hi to me but I don't even glance at him. Some people may consider me to be cold-hearted. But I am not. I just don't interact with other people.

~~~~~"Lucy, are you even paying any attention to me?" Natsu says. I am not. I am not paying attention to him. But I still look at him.

~~~~~"I was saying that maybe I could help you today-?" No. I don't want his help. Or his pity. I shake my head.

~~~~~"Please?" I don't respond. He knows the answer already. I shouldn't have done anything. I should've jut walked away. Then I would be safe. I wouldn't have to interact.

~~~~~"Why not? I know you can hear me Lucy. Why don't you try to answer me with words?" My Father put him up to this. I just know it. Natsu would never ask me to speak. He doesn't mind my silence. I walk away.

~~~~~"Lucy! Lucy, wait for me! I didn't mean to make you mad!" But you did, Natsu, you did make me mad. I run away. I can't make people sad. I can't. I must see Father about this.