Disclaimer- I do not own thw wonderful Characters of Mrs. Meyers but I do own this Plot and whatver Characters I make up!
A/N- Hey guys! This is my first story for twilight So i hope you will enjoy it. I am open to any advice anyone has, but please if you are gonna be straight up mean about it don't even leave a comment! But i do like advice, just advice thats not hateful! Anyways this is just a little peak of what I hope becomes a great story!
I take a look at myself in the Mirror and cringe. I hadn't showered all weekend and I looked and smelled bad, it's not that I meant to have bad hygiene but I was too high all weekend to even think about it. I turn on the shower letting it get smoldering hot preparing myself for the pain. No, not the physical pain of the hot shower, the pain of Edward seeing me like this.
It had been a year since the love of my life left me dying in the forest, for Sam to find me. Even though I appreciate what Sam did for me, what Jacob did for me, and especially what Emily did for me, I couldn't hang around Forks anymore. So after Graduation I moved back in with my mom and Phillip. That's when everything went down hill. I met up with some people who happened to be into drugs, and I mean INTO drugs. They couldn't go a day without being high. I soon found myself in a world that I knew Edward would not approve of…but sometimes that made it even more thrilling to know he would not like this. I mean don't get me wrong I am still madly in love with Edward, but he broke me into tiny little pieces that don't seem to fit anymore. Anyways here I am doing all different types of drugs like Heroin, Morphine, Crack, and anything that would get me high. I am not as bad as some of the people around me I can go sometime without most my drugs…except one. The best one, the one I can never have again…Edward.
As I start thinking about Edward I start shaking with sobs threatening to fall. I think back to the guy who I slept with last night, or more correctly the guy I was forced to sleep with last night. As I think of the past events I start scrubbing my body raw. Edward would definitely not want me now, not after all my innocence is gone everything that was supposed to be Edwards has been taken away from me. I quickly grab my razor which is stashed in the drawer and start carving the D at the end of Edward after all the other letters on my stomach. I watch as my blood…Edward's blood spills out of the freshly cut d. Soon I completely lose it and collapse onto the ground letting the water run over my cut.
Once the water starts becoming cold I stand up and grab a towel and quickly rush out of the bathroom. I was definitely feeling the need for a shot…
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