I have been so careful not to let anyone know any personal information about myself, that I have never acknowledged the personal information about myself. I have forgotten. I no longer know where I was born, my parents' names, or even, my first name. I only recall, that I am 25, and my birthday is on October 31st, the same day as Halloween, or, at least, that is what Watari has said. I have nothing to reference to learn the other information either. All records of anything concerning myself were burned for safety purposes. When my birthday certificate was burned, L. Lawliet was burned. I was burned. I no longer exist, if you want to be technical. All proof of existence was burned. The only evidence to say that I exist, are the very few people who have seen me in person, or have worked with me. That leaves only Naomi Misora, who is most likely deceased now, as she has been missing for so long I had almost forgotten about her existence, the Kira Task Force, Watari, Most people in Wammy's House, and my succesors, Near, and Mello, and I believe that none of them, besides Watari, know a single fact about me, much less my birthday.
Today is my birthday. I am 26 now, or so I I must rely on that number, I have nothing to tell me that that number is incorrect. I get out of my chair. I have not slept for 104 hours, tomorrow I have allowed myself time to sleep for 17 hours, I would certainly not sleep today, and miss my birthday. Watari calls out, wishing me a happy birthday. I say thanks. I wish I knew for sure if today was my birthday. I see the Task Force come in hard at work, Watari seizes me, and puts me back in my room, and locks the door, with a special lock that even I cannot figure out. I hear silence for a while, and them shuffling, and them a snapping and smashing noise with a chorus of "MATSUDA!", following. I wonder what the heck is going on. Watari comes back and takes off the lock after approximately 5 minutes. I act as if nothing happened, and walk out. I get a large "SURPISE!" from the Task Force, and since I saw them a few minutes ago, it seems that more people have come. I see Wedy, Aiber, Mello, Near, Matt, Roger, and the Task Force, all smiling. They all have birthday hats on. They are are smiling for me. Me. Someone who doesn't exist. I am hit by a wave of emotions. I try my best not to show happy tears. Watari comes by, with a trolly full of assorted cakes, but I feel as though, for once in my life, the craving for sweetness I have always had, has been satisfied. I am no longer hungry. I don't think I will ever be hungry again. Although, there is a strawberry shortcake that is looking rather delicious with a number 26 candle in the middle of it. Everyone is watching me to see me blow out the candles and take a bite of the cake. I would not want to dissapoint them, would I?