Even though she was 18 years old, life was just starting for her. She was starting college and meeting new people and she had a new roommate who she couldn't stop thinking about lately.
-Angela
I had met her a few months ago and we were very different, but the same deep down. Tempe has become a really good friend and a great roommate. She is the brains in our room and I am the artist, completely different right? She isn't open as I have learned. She keeps to herself most of the time and I plan to change that. I know that she is afraid of people on some level. She is a difficult person to understand but I try to understand her. I try because I want to know her better and because I think I may be in love with her.
My life feels so crazy as of late. Tempe is my friend and I am starting to think that I may be in love with her. I know I don't like girls I have always liked guys and she is my friend and I feel so weird about having these feelings. The fact that she is a girl isn't the only thing that scares me it is the fact that she has become my best friend.
I am torn apart inside. I have so many mixed feelings. I want to tell her how I feel, but at the same time I am so scared that our friendship will be ruined if she knows. I have never been this confused before. Tempe makes me feel something so huge and I don't really know what it is that I feel. One moment I think I understand my feelings then in the next I feel something completely different.
Do I want our friendship or do I want love? That is a huge question. Sometimes I think that I want us to be better friends and other times I want us to be together, to be able to hold her close at night, to kiss her, and make love to her. Tempe controls my thoughts all the time and I don't think that she knows that. I am not sure if writing my feelings down like this will help, but I think it is worth a try.
My friend Temperance Brennan makes me feel something so huge and scary. I don't know what I want. Do I want us to be better friends? Do I want us to have a serious relationship with kissing and hand holding and all that other stuff? I don't know how I feel and that is why I don't know what I want.
Life is a complicated thing and love is even more complicated but I'll try. I'll try to put on the brave face, to face her and the world. Can I do it? I don't know, but I'll try because without Tempe I feel empty and alone and I hate feeling that way. I feel like as long as I have her company, her soft voice, I'll never be alone.
I leave you with this question. Is it Friendship or is it love? Is it both? Because I want to know the answer myself…
This is real life baby all my own story kinda only with different characters :) Sorry if anyone got confused and I know I repeat some things but I repeat myself in Real Life a lot so I place that in my writing :)