Lost- Tsuna (1-16-2011)
His life was so lost.
Was it ever like this?
Did it ever feel this empty, this lonely, this depressing?
That feeling of wanting to change,
That following feeling that whispered to him
'Impossible'?
Then why should he ever want to try?
He would always be the useless person everyone would see him as.
Nothing more.
Maybe lesser, if it was possible.
So why did she see him differently?
The way her concern eyes shown,
Her bright smile that brought him out of that depression.
Everything about her
Was all new to him.
[o]
He did change.
He became stronger,
Maybe not as confident,
But surely stronger.
Strong enough to protect her,
Was what he thought.
He became happier,
Warmer,
Red in the face,
Newer.
He thought for sure he could keep her by his side,
Forever and always.
[o]
There was that feeling again.
That empty, that lonely, that depressing feeling came back.
That feeling of wanting to change,
To become stronger,
For her.
That all.
Nothing to it.
It's not like it's too late.
But it was.
She's right there, lying in front of him,
Bloody,
Mangled,
Broken,
Dead.
And he's right there, kneeling over her,
Crying,
Crazy,
Empty,
Dead.
And everything he had felt before he met her
Came back to him,
All in that one moment.
That feeling of being empty, lonely, depress.
Those feelings wouldn't leave him alone.
They were waiting for the perfect moment to strike;
And strike they did.
And here he is,
Sobbing,
Begging,
Pleading
For her to come back.
He knew that his cries would fall on deaf ears.
He won't ever feel those feelings,
The ones that were all new to him in the beginning.
Never again would she see him,
And never again would he see her.