Perfect

by probablyprocrastinating

Merder au 3/3

1. Chapter 1

Hi guys! Here is Perfect, I thought I'd put the first chapter up for you guys. I should have some more time next week when my college assignments are done for a couple of weeks, to write the next part. Please let me know what you guys think/what kind of things you'd like to see. I have the whole thing pretty much mapped out already but if there's anything you guys want to see I will try my best to incorporate it in if I can! Even if it's just a scene or something you guys would like to read of them

Thank you to those of you who have stuck with me throughout this trilogy and I'm hoping this one will be the best one yet. It's going to be a long one and there's going to be drama, but I love these two as much as you and so there's also going to be a lot of cuteness and fun.

I also know a lot of you guys have been asking me about Stone Cold and I know it's hard to but believe me when I say I WILL finish it. It might not be for a while but one day it will be done.

For those of you who haven't read the first two stories I would go back and start with Help me lose my mind so you can get up to date with this MerDer universe.

Thank you and I hope you like it!

PP X

I found a love for me
Darling, just dive right in and follow my lead
Well, I found a girl, beautiful and sweet
Oh, I never knew you were the someone waiting for me

'Cause we were just kids when we fell in love
Not knowing what it was
I will not give you up this time
But darling, just kiss me slow
Your heart is all I own
And in your eyes you're holding mine

Baby, I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass
Listening to our favourite song
When you said you looked a mess
I whispered underneath my breath
But you heard it,
Darling, you look perfect tonight

Well, I found a woman, stronger than anyone I know
She shares my dreams, I hope that someday I'll share her home
I found a love to carry more than just my secrets
To carry love, to carry children of our own

We are still kids but we're so in love
Fighting against all odds
I know we'll be alright this time
Darling, just hold my hand
Be my girl, I'll be your man
I see my future in your eyes

Baby, I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass
Listening to our favourite song
When I saw you in that dress
Looking so beautiful
I don't deserve this
Darling, you look perfect tonight

Baby, I'm dancing in the dark
With you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass
Listening to our favourite song
I have faith in what I see
Now I know I have met an angel in person
And she looks perfect
I don't deserve this
You look perfect tonight

'Still nervous?' Asked Derek, squeezing her hand as they made their way across the parking lot.

'Very.' Meredith nodded. 'I wish there was a mixer so we could have met people before today.'

'I know.' Derek murmured. 'But Lara and Joe will be there.'

'I still find that weird.' Meredith scrunched her nose.

'At least we wont be running into them all the time unless we're on peds.'

'True.' She sighed. 'Do they do a lot on the surgical floor.'

'I don't think so.' Derek shook his head. 'Only every now and again.'

'And Mark.' Meredith giggled.

'Oh don't remind me,' Derek rolled his eyes. 'Having Mark as my boss is one hundred percent my worst nightmare.'

'He might not be your resident.'

'No but he's still a resident. And we're interns.'

'At least knowing him we have our insider knowledge.' She giggled, turning to glance up at Derek who was smiling softly at her.

'Very true,' he laughed. 'At least this way mom knew to give us enough food for forty eight hours.'

'Probably the only thing going to get us through.' Meredith grinned, moving her hand from his to wrap around his waist, leaning into him as they neared the hospital.

'Yeah.' He sighed as they stopped in front of it, and he squeezed Meredith close.

'We're here.' She grinned.

'We're here.' He nodded. 'Fourth best surgical residency program in the country.'

'Yeah.' She whispered.

'You ready?'

'Yeah.' She nodded, before pulling on his hand as he started to walk toward the door. 'Wait… Der…'

'Yeah?' he turned around.

'I… love you.' She murmured, moving closer to him and wrapping her arms around his neck.

'I love you.' He whispered, kissing her gently. 'And we can do this.'

'Yeah.' She nodded, nuzzling his neck as her arms remained tightly around him.

'Love you.' He repeated, pressing a kiss to her hair.

'Hmmmmm.' She smiled, pulling back from him to give him another quick kiss.

'And we are going to kick ass today.' He ginned, hugging her. 'Dr. Shepherds.'

'Dr. Shepherds.' She giggled.

'I'll leave the snacks in your locker,' he murmured. 'But make sure you save me some.'

'Always.' She breathed, resting her head on his shoulder as he held her close.

'And page me at lunch.'

'Of course.'

'Love you.' He said again.

'Love you.' She echoed, kissing his cheek.

'You ready now?' he breathed.

'Yeah.' She nodded. 'Just wanted an us moment.'

'Hmmmmm.' He smiled, pressing his lips to hers. 'Let's go.'

'Kay.' She smiled, grasping his hand tightly as they headed into the was the first day of hers and Derek's internship at Mount Sinai. They'd moved to New York after graduating med school in June and got an apartment together in-between the hospital and his mother's house.

They'd had three weeks after graduating where they moved home and then took a ten day vacation to Hawaii to have some time together before their lives completely turned around. They'd heard from Mark just how many hours Sinai put them under, and decided it was important to have quality time before they became owned by the hospital.

They'd been married for three years now, and together for eight. Which was the weirdest thing ever. She was twenty seven years old, and Derek was thirty. And they had been together eight years. There was a time when being together six months seemed long, but this was crazy. And although it sounded like such a long time, it had flown.

Her life with Derek was too good to be true, it seemed like yesterday they were in Europe together. But here they were, top and second in their class about to start at Mount Sinai. She leant up and kissed Derek's cheek as they walked down the reception desk to collect their scrubs.

'Hi, we're here to start our internship.' Smiled Derek at the short blonde woman behind the desk.

'Name?' she replied bluntly.

'Derek Shepherd and Meredith Shepherd.'

'Okay,' she noded, reaching for two packs of scrubs and handing them over the desk. 'The locker room is on the second floor the east wing, you'll find it easily.'

'Thanks.' Derek smiled, handing the scrubs to Meredith.

'You're welcome.' The woman nodded.

'East wing,' Derek murmured as they stepped inside the elevator.

'Hmmmm.' Meredith nodded, leaning into him as it made its way up to the second floor.

'Let's go.' He breathed, kissing the top of her head as the doors opened.

'Yeah.' She echoed, following him.

It was pretty obvious when they reached the interns locker room, it was full of loud chatter as people everywhere were changing into scrubs and stuffing stuff in their lockers. Meredith's and Derek's were next to each other's with them having the same last name and he handed her the bag of snacks Allison had given them to put in her locker.

'Thanks.' She whispered, pulling her scrub pants on before taking the bag off him.

'It's okay.' He nodded, putting his coat inside and putting his top on over his shirt.

'Listen up,' came a voice all too familiar as Mark entered the room along side another resident, a clipboard in his hand. 'Carr, Handler, McConnel, Grey and Sims, you're with me.'

'Me?' laughed Meredith.

'Yep you Grey.' Mark winked. 'Come on.'

'Coming.' She nodded, shoving her stuff in her locker and moving to follow Mark and the rest of his interns.

'Now, I'm Doctor Sloan and I am your resident, you will do what I say when I say. Got it?'

'Yeah.' The five of them nodded in unison.

'When I page you, you better be there immediately. And if I hear any crap about you from any of the attendings then you will be on scut until I say otherwise. I assign you to your attending and you do as they say, this first shift is forty eight hours so buckle up.'

'Handler and Sims, you're with , Carr you're with me, Grey and McConnel you're with Dr. Reed. Go.'

'G-go…' Meredith breathed as Mark took off in the opposite direction. 'Where… how do we know where to go?' she turned to a ginger girl next to her.

'You're Grey, right?' she replied.

'Right.' She nodded. 'Well not technically…. But yeah. I'm Grey. Meredith.'

'Georgia.' The girl nodded.

'Are you on Dr. Reed's service too?'

'Nope,' she sighed.

'Oh.' Meredith breathed, turning around to where the other interns had been to see no-one was there. 'Crap where did they go?'

'I have no idea.'

'Damn it. How are we supposed to find the attendings? Mark didn't even take us around the hospital.'

'Mark?' Georgia raised her eyebrows.

'Oh… Dr. Sloan.' Meredith corrected herself.

'Since when did you know Dr. Sloan?'

'He's my brother in law.' Meredith explained, wincing. 'Crap… let's go this way.'

'Okay.' Nodded Georgia, following Meredith as they searched the floor for their attendings. Meredith didn't even know what this Dr. Reed looked like, she was totally screwed.

'Lara!' she shouted as she saw her sister in law getting in an elevator.

'Mer!' Lara grinned, stepping back out to hug her. 'You okay?'

'Yeah,' she nodded. 'No. No I cant find my attending and I have no idea how to.'

'Who is it?' Lara frowned.

'Dr. Reed. And Georgia's looking for Dr. Hond.'

'Reed?' Lara winced. 'Ouch, rather you than me.'

'You know him?'

'Yeah, he should be on the cardio ward. I'll come with you and point him out.'

'Thanks.' She sighed in relief. 'Do you know where Hond is for Georgia?'

'I've just seen her actually she's a peds surgeon, she's on her way to get a CT scan so head there. Down the hall to the right. She's got dark hair, very bubbly.'

'Thanks.' Georgia nodded. 'Bye Meredith.'

'Bye.' Meredith smiled before walking with Lara. 'So what's Dr. Reed like?'

'A jerk,' Lara rolled her eyes. 'I don't know him personally but I've heard a lot.'

'Great.' Meredith sighed.

'So who's your resident?' Lara asked as they turned a corner.

'Guess.' Meredith laughed.

'Who?'

'Mark.' She rolled her eyes.

'Mark is your resident?' Lara laughed. 'That's classic.'

'I know.'

'At least he's not Derek's, he'd die.'

'I know.' Meredith giggled.

'Who's his resident?'

'I don't know,' she shook her head. 'I left before he got assigned.'

'I see.' Lara nodded, stopping walking and pointing across the corridor to a tall man with dark hair. 'Reed.'

'Thanks.' Meredith breathed in relief. 'You're the best.'

'I know.' Lara laughed.

'I owe you.'

'Don't be stupid,' Lara shook her head.

'Thanks.' Meredith breathed before running over. 'Dr. Reed?' she said to the man staring at the OR board.

'Yes?' he turned around.

'I'm Dr. Shepherd, your intern.' Meredith nodded.

'Oh. You're late.'

'Oh… I… I'm sorry sir I wasn't told where to find you.'

'McConnel found me just fine.' He said shortly. ''Here. I need you to do rounds on my patients. Catch up with McConnel.'

'Right.' Meredith nodded, taking the clipboard from him.

'Go.'

'Okay… going…' Meredith nodded, looking at the room numbers on the list and looking through every window she passed until she saw an intern she recognised, assuming it was McConnel and opening the door. 'Dr. McConnel?'

'Yeah?' the guy turned around.

'I'm doing rounds with you.'

'Okay.' He nodded, continuing to write on his clipboard.

'Do you… need me to do anything?'

'Nope.' He shook his head. 'I'm just finishing this and then we're moving on.'

'O-kay….' Meredith breathed, wondering why this guy was acting like her boss. She didn't like this guy already, she had no idea what she was doing and neither did he, they were supposed to be working together and instead she felt like she was useless already.

'Dr. Shepherd, Dr. McConnel,' Dr. Reed came into the room. 'I've just received some blood work back for Mr. Helton and need you both to take him up for an ECG,'

'Okay.' They both nodded.

'Mr, Helton, there is no need to worry,' Dr. Reed turned to the man in the bed who's wife was sat next to him. 'Once we have the ECG results I can give you a better idea of what I think the complication is. But you're in good hands, our new surgical interns will take you up now.'

'Thanks, Dr. Reed.'

'No worries.' He smiled.

'You two, go.'

'Yes sir.' Meredith nodded quickly, putting the chart down and moving to help Dr. McConnel with the bed.

'Do you want to get the door?'

'Are you… okay with the bed?'

'Yeah, you get the door.' He nodded.

'Okay.'She nodded, reaching to open it. Dr. McConnel pushed the bed out of the door before Meredith moved to grab the other side of it and help move it down the corridor.

'Grey, McConnel,' she heard Mark's voice. 'We're going to get an ECG I believe.'

'Yeah.' Meredith nodded.

'Don't get used to my superior presence, I'm only coming with you to show you how it's done.'

'Thank you, Dr. Sloan.' Nodded Dr. McConnel.

'And how are you Mr. Helton?' Mark grinned. 'Haven't seen you in a while.'

'Good.' The middle aged man laughed. 'Just hoping I come out clear and can go home.'

'Hopefully.' Laughed Mark. 'This way.' He nodded to Meredith as they turned a corner. 'And how you doing Grey?'

'Fine.' She smiled.

'And you?' he turned to her fellow intern.

'Yes thank you Dr. Sloan.' He nodded.

'Dr. Reed told me you were late.' He said quietly to Meredith.

'What?' she breathed.

'You were late.'

'Oh.. yeah… only a few minutes… I didn't know where he was or how to find him.'

'Just giving you a heads up,' He murmured. 'McConnel wasn't late, and Reed can be tough.'

'Okay,' she nodded. 'Thanks.'

'But I've got your back, Grey.' Mark smirked.

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Meredith sighed as she slumped against the restroom door. She was having a crap day. The crappiest day she'd had in a long time. Dr. Reed had her and McConnel with him all day, but didn't even acknowledge her. It was like she wasn't in the room. Unless it was to do scut. She had to run and pick up a lab while McConnel got to help Mark prep a guy for surgery, and then she'd been sent to get his coffee. She knew internship was supposed to be hard and she wasn't exactly expecting to cut into anyone, but holding doors open and getting coffee just didn't seem to be benefiting her medical education in any way.

She knew she'd been late that morning but only by a few minutes and it wasn't a conscious thing, she had no idea where she was going. She was lucky she'd bumped into Lara otherwise she could have been wandering around for ages.

She flushed the toilet before heading out to wash her hands in the sink where she bumped into Georgia.

'Hey,' the ginger intern smiled at her.

'Oh, hey.'

'You okay?' she grinned.

'I'm good, thank you.' Nodded Meredith. 'You?'

'Great.' She grinned. 'How's cardio? That's Reed, right?'

'Yeah.' Meredith nodded. 'It's…. how's peds?'

'Good.' Georgia grinned. 'Dr. Hond is great.'

'Lara said she was nice.' Meredith nodded.

'Dr. White?'

'Yeah.' Meredith nodded. 'She's my husbands sister.'

'Oh.' Breathed Georgia. 'She was on my case this morning but she's gone now.'

'She's great.' Smiled Meredith.

'Yeah.' Gerogia nodded. 'So what have you been up to? I got to watch Dr. Hand do a liver transplant on an eight year old, it was amazing.'

'Oh… wow.' Meredith breathed. 'That's great.'

'So what's your case? Any bypasses or anything?'

'Oh… no.' Meredith shook her head. 'We had a patient this morning but it turned out just to be a scare and he's fine.'

'Oh.' Georgia breathed. 'Anything more fun this afternoon?'

'I'm not sure. I'm just going to get Dr. Reed's coffee and then he's going to assign me something else.'

'Coffee?'

'Yeah.' Meredith sighed.

'That… does not sound fun.'

'Not fun at all.' Meredith shook her head.

'Hey have you heard anything about the scrub in?'

'Scrub in?' Meredith frowned.

'Yeah, the intern who gets to scrub in at the end of the first shift.'

'Oh… no.' Meredith shook her head. 'I didn't even know about that.'

'I'll let you know if I hear anymore about it.' Georgia nodded.

'Thanks.' Meredith whispered.

'Anyway, I better be getting back. Dr. Hond's getting a neuro consult for a little girl. I'll see you later.'

'Bye.' Meredith smiled as Georgia left. Scrub in. Someone got to scrub in and she was about a hundred percent sure it wasn't going to be her. Reed seemed to hate her. Georgia had seen a liver transplant and all she had done was run around after an arrogant ass of a doctor.

She sighed as she left the rest room and went to the coffee cart to get another coffee for Dr. Reed. She wondered if Derek was having a better day than she was. Surely he must be. It wasn't hard.

'Dr. Reed,' she smiled, knocking on his open office door, where Dr. McConnel was sat next to him, assessing a scan on the computer screen.

'Ah, my coffee.' He nodded. 'Thanks.'

'No problem.' Meredith breathed. 'I… what would you like me to do now, sir?'

'I've been told they need an intern in the ER, there's a load of backed up rectal exams they need doing.'

'Oh.' She breathed. 'Okay.'

'Bye.' He said, turning his head to drink his coffee.

Rectal exams. Rectal exams. She was being sent to do rectal exams. While Dr. McConnel was sat doing some real work. Some interesting work. Looking at a scan. And working with an attending surgeon. While she was getting coffee and being sent to do rectal exams. At least it was almost eleven, which meant there was only two hours until she saw Derek.

She had a feeling as soon as she saw him she would fall into his arms and start crying. Her attending seemed to hate her and she was doing absolutely nothing. It wouldn't bother her, if everyone's first day was like this; but it wasn't. Georgia had watched a transplant and McConnel was working at the right hand of the head of cardio. While she was running around getting coffee and being treated as if she didn't exist.

She needed Derek. She needed a Derek cuddle and a Derek kiss and Derek telling her everything was going to be alright. As much as she loved him she kind of hoped he was having a crappy day too, that would make her feel better.

She opened the door of the ER and saw an attending.

'Hi I'm Dr. Shepherd, I've been sent down as the intern to help with the… rectal exams?'

'Rectal exams?' the woman laughed. 'What did you do to piss off Reed?'

'What?' Meredith breathed.

'He always palms his worst interns off, the rectal exam is his favourite excuse. He's used it the last four years now.'

'Worst interns?' Meredith breathed, not wanting her voice to waver. 'I… it's only been five hours.'

'Yeah.' The woman laughed. 'and you're already down here.'

'Oh.'

'Here, this way,' the woman nodded. 'I'll take you to your first patient.'

'Okay.' Meredith nodded. 'Thanks.'

She straightened her back as she walked, not wanting to look hurt by what she'd just been told. Worst interns. She was second in her class at Dartmouth, only second to Derek. She hadn't even had a chance to prove herself yet and she was already being branded as one of the worst interns. She wanted to cry. She wanted to cry and she wanted her husband. But she couldn't cry. She couldn't cry because she had to stick her hand up some stinky guy's ass.

She took a deep breath as the woman pulled back the curtain on her first patient. Only two more hours until she could see Derek.

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Meredith sighed as she placed her tray on the table and sat down with the rest of Mark's interns, taking the seat next to Georgia.

'Hey,' she breathed.

'Hey,' grinned Georgia, taking a drink from her water.

'Hey,' smiled another girl.

'Hi,' Smiled Meredith. 'I'm Meredith.'

'Grace Carr.' The girl grinned.

'I'm Stephen Handeler.'

'Hi, I'm Meredith.'

'I'm Toby McConnel.' McConnel smiled.

'You guys been on Reed's service?' asked Grace.

'Yeah.' Toby nodded. 'Well, I have at least.' He smirked.

'I thought you were on that service too.' Pouted Grace.

'I am.' Meredith sighed. 'Reed hates me.'

'Ew, jackass.' Frowned Georgia.

'He's cool.' Said Toby.

'Hmmmm.' Breathed Meredith, taking a bite of her salad.

'So you're Dr. White's sister in law?' Asked Stephen, glancing at Georgia.

'Oh… I… yeah.' Meredith nodded.

'You're Dr. White's sister in law?' Asked Grace. 'Wait, who's Dr. White?'

'Peds.' Nodded Georgia.

'She's my husbands sister.' Meredith nodded.

'You're married?' Grace raised her eyebrows.

'Yeah.' Meredith nodded. 'My husband is an intern too.'

'Here?' breathed Georgia.

'Yeah.' Meredith nodded. 'I haven't seen him all day.'

'Wait so your husband is an intern too?' asked Grace again.

'Yeah.' Meredith nodded, laughing slightly.

'Who?' she grinned. 'Is he hot?'

'Grace!' Meredith giggled.

'There was a really hot guy in the queue for the labs today… it could have been him!'

'He's hot.' Meredith nodded.

'What does he look like?' she breathed.

'What's he called?' asked Georgia.

'Derek.' She nodded. 'He's taller than me but not tall, and he has dark hair.'

'You have to point him out.' Georgia nodded. 'How long have you guys been together?'

'Eight years.' She breathed.

'Woah.' Said Grace. 'That's like… a long time.'

'Yeah.' Meredith smiled.

'How long have you been married?'

'Three years.'

'Wow.'

'Yeah.' Meredith laughed slightly. 'It's a long time.'

'And he's Dr. White's brother?'

'Yeah.' She nodded, before adding tentatively: 'And Dr. Sloans too….'

'Wait what?!' Grace almost spat out her juice. 'Dr. Sloan…. Our resident… is your husbands brother?'

'Yeah…' she nodded. 'I mean… not biologically… but yeah they're brothers.'

'What the fuck.' Breathed Toby. 'Is that even allowed?'

'Must be.' Meredith shrugged. 'They knew when we applied and I was assigned to him. I mean, maybe it explain why Derek's not got him.'

'Still favouritism.'

'Mark doesn't show me favouritism.' Meredith frowned. 'I've been doing rectal exams for the last two and a half hours while you've been working with an attending.'

'Hmmmm.' Toby shrugged.

'So your husband seems to have a lot of doctors in the family.' Said Stephen.

'Yeah,' Meredith laughed. 'His other sister is a resident at Boston gen.'

'Seriously?' breathed Grace.

'Yeah.' Meredith nodded. 'They're all really smart.'

'So if you two have been together eight years, when did you meet?'

'Freshman year.' Meredith grinned. 'We were in the same bio class.'

'That is so romantic.' Breathed Grace. 'And you've been together ever since?'

'Well, the end of freshman year.' Meredith nodded. 'Yeah.'

'That's amazing.' Sighed Georgia. 'I've never had a boyfriend longer than a year.'

'Poor Georgia.' Giggled Grace.

'Are you married?' Georgia turned to the other girl.

'No.' she shook her head. 'I'm seeing someone but it's not anything serious.'

'Can we talk about something else?' Toby frowned as Meredith saw Derek come through the cafeteria doors with some other interns. He was laughing as he made his way to the lunch line with them. He looked really happy, like, really happy. Which immediately shot her hopes of him having a worse day than her.

She waved at him as he picked up his tray and headed for a table. 'Der!'

'Oh,' she saw him look up at her and make his way over, pardoning himself from his new friends.

'Hey,' she breathed as he got closer.

'Hey,' he grinned, ducking down to kiss her quickly.

'Do you want to sit?' she asked.

'Sure,' he smiled, putting his tray next to hers and pulling up a spare chair before turning to the other interns at the table. 'Hi, I'm Derek.'

'Hi,' grinned Grace and Georgia.

'Hey,' nodded Steven.

'You okay?' he asked, wrapping an arm around Meredith and kissing her cheek.

'Yeah,' she whispered, leaning into him, even though she wasn't okay. 'Are you?'

'Great.' He grinned, kissing the top of her head. 'How's Mark?'

'Good.' She nodded.

'I'm glad it's you rather than me.'

'I know.' She giggled, reaching her hand to rest on his thigh, wanting to be as close to him as possible. 'Who's your resident?'

'Dr. Torres.' Derek nodded. 'I like her.'

'Good.' Meredith whispered. 'Have you done anything cool?'

'We got to help with her pre op this morning and watch a knee replacement she scrubbed in on.'

'That's cool.' Meredith nodded.

'You?'

'I'll talk to you later.' She whispered.

'Oh.. okay.' He murmured, squeezing her to him and kissing her head once again. 'Do you need a moment?' he whispered. 'Outside?'

'Please.' She nodded quietly, hoping none of the others would notice how suddenly close to tears she was feeling.

'Okay.' He breathed. 'Do you want me to get some of mom's cookies and we can sit outside? It's a nice day.'

'Yeah.' She whispered.

'Okay, let's go.' He reached for her hand.

'Der you lunch… we… I can wait.'

'You're more important than a salad, Mer.' He breathed, kissing her gently.

'I love you.' She whispered, squeezing his hand.

'It was nice to meet you guys,' Derek smiled. 'I'm just going to steal my wife for five minutes.'

'Okay.' Grinned Grace.

'See you later, Meredith.' Said Georgia.

'See you.' Meredith smiled weakly, picking up her tray and taking it to the stack.

'Hey,' Derek whispered as they walked down the corridor and he reached for her hand. 'Are you okay?'

'Yeah.' She murmured. 'Just want you.'

'Okay.' He breathed, squeezing her hand as they reached the locker room. 'Shall I just get the whole bag of cookies?'

'Please.' She nodded. 'I could do with a few.'

'Okay.' He murmured, picking up the bag and moving to hug her, holding her tightly. 'Let's go outside.'

'Yeah.' She nodded.

Derek walked her outside until they reached a bench that was just in the sunshine. He sat down before pulling her onto his lap and holding her close to him, kissing the top of her head.

'You're not okay.' He breathed.

'I'm fine.' She whispered.

'Mer….'

'Fine. I'm not okay.'

'What's wrong?' he murmured, kissing the top of her head again.

'I'm having a really bad day.' She whimpered, feeling her voice starting to waver.

'A bad day?' he murmured, squeezing her.

'Reed hates me. McConnel's an ass. And I've spent the last two hours doing rectal exams just wanting you to hold me.' She whispered.

'Oh Mer…. Reed doesn't hate you.'

'He does.'

'He doesn't.' Derek shook his head.

'No, he does.' She looked up at him, a single tear dropping down on to her cheek. 'He… he sent me to do the back log of rectal exams which apparently he does to all his worst interns and I… he likes McConnel and he's letting him do stuff and Georgia watched a liver transplant and you watched a knee replacement and I… he hates me and I….'

'He doesn't hate you. Baby he doesn't hate you.' Derek breathed, kissing the tear away from her cheek. 'It's the first day. It's not even been a whole day yet. We've been here six hours. The first six hours don't define who you are. You're going to be an incredible surgeon. It's your first day.'

'Derek…' she whispered, nestling her head in his neck.

'I know it's crap. I know you're having a crap day and I know McConnel's an ass and I know Reed's an ass. But Mark's not an ass. And you wont be on Reed's service forever, only the first shift. Do you want me to talk to Mark?'

'No,' she shook her head. 'Don't talk to Mark. Definitely don't talk to Mark.'

'Okay, okay.' He breathed. 'No Mark.'

'No Mark.' She shook her head. 'McConnel hates me for that too.'

'What?'

'Being related to my resident.'

'Hmmmm,' Derek breathed, cupping her face in his hands. 'McConnel's an ass. And he's gonna hate himself for being an ass when he realises he's working with one of the best interns in the program.'

'Derek…' she shook her head.

'I love you. And as soon as it's time for sleep you page me and come find me and we'll find a bed somewhere and we'll cuddle and in the morning, when it's time for pre rounds, it will be a new day.'

'Hmmmmm.' She breathed.

'I'm sorry I cant make it better.'

'It's okay.' She whispered. 'I love you.'

'I love you too.' He kissed her softly. 'I love you and you're a Rockstar and you're going to kick ass and make McConnel and Reed regret doubting you.'

'Hmmmm.'

'I love you.'

'I love you too.' She whispered, cuddling into his chest as he held her close.

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