A/n: I'm on a plane right now and I have nothing better to do so im writing. I really love this pairing :) and I hope you enjoy this as much as I do.
Disclaimer: I do ont own Doctor Who.
Dedicated to the girl.
This is a letter to Clara from the Doctor.
- Real -
Dear Clara.
Why?
Why can't I stop thinking about you, you're a million miles away and living in at time so distant from my own but despite that I cannot stop thinking about you.
I don't know what it is about you, your smile, your laugh, your presence but just y being around you I feel amazing, I feel free, I feel like im the happiest person in the world and it is all because of you.
Now you might ask, "What is so special about me?". Well Clara I don't know what is so special about you that makes me feel this way all I know is that I do feel this way and I'm sorry that it's the best that I thing I can give you.
Well to be frank, There are a few things I can tell you why I feel like this. The first reason is that you are beautiful and I don't know how many people tell you that but you are, you are a beautiful person on the inside and out. Secondly you are such a clever mischievous girl that I can't help but feel like everyday with you is an adventure and how I do love those adventures because I can see it in your eyes, and every time I see your eyes sparkle I swear it's the most exhilarating and scary thing because I can never predict what you will do. Thirdly, because in school they always say to at least list three, It is because you are quite simply the most unique and interesting girl i have ever met in my entire 900 years of travelling across time and space.
God Clara, I will never ever admit this to you but I love you, I am irrevocably head-over-heels in love with you, and I just keep falling, over and over again. To be honest I could continue to just do this forever just silently watching from afar and never admitting that I love you. Hah! To think that I the Doctor would be such a coward in this regard, so scared to even admit that I love you simply because I'm afraid that I will ruin us. There are moments always moments where I think that maybe I could tell you that maybe she feels the same butt I always stop myself from telling you. Maybe I am wrong to do so but it's what I do.
To be honest I am fine with these feelings, and having those almost moment where I can hear my heart sing, but before I let go, before I start to try and forget about these feelings I just want to know, what am I to you? Am I just another friend, deceiving myself into thinking that maybe I have a chance, or I am I, or was I ever anything more than that. If you don't share these feelings I understand that and I will let go, and just be the best friend that you want.
Clara, I only wish for your happiness, and I will do anything to do make you happy, even if I have to tear out my own heart.
From your friend,
The Doctor
- Real -
A/n: what did you guys think :) I hope I did aa good job and I hope that the feelings reach you.
More to come I suppose, I hope so at least :P.
Youra trully