Disclaimer: I don't own Bleach
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG-13
Characters: Hitsugaya
My first song fic reviews are welcome
xOx
He drew his sword wondering if he should end it all
Through early morning fog I see
visions of the things to be
the pains that are withheld for me
I realize and I can see...
Hitsugaya sat at his desk staring moodily at the wall it seemed like since the incident with Aizen nothing had gone right again, and the farther into his own future he tried to look the worse the visions got.
that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
Maybe it wasn't worth it to keep going, the sword he hung on his back every morning could be used to end everything, it might even be a relief.
The game of life is hard to play
I'm gonna lose it anyway
The losing card I'll someday lay
so this is all I have to say
What was the point of living? if life was poker then every time he had a straight someone else had a flush, and every time he had a flush someone else had a full house, they always had one hand better, someday his hand just would be too bad and he wouldn't make it, so why not…
that suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
…end it himself it would probably be a lot less painful.
The sword of time will pierce our skins
It doesn't hurt when it begins
But as it works its way on in
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...
The first few times he failed it wasn't so bad but as the cost with every failure got higher it hurt more and it felt like there was some unknown being grinning at him with every failure, saying "You tried but once again all your efforts were worthless."
suicide is painless
It brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
Maybe suicide was worth it for everyone else too, he would be replaced with someone stronger, more capable, someone who could do everything he couldn't, and he was getting tired of this anyway.
A brave man once requested me
to answer questions that are key
is it to be or not to be
and I replied 'oh why ask me?'
Sometimes depressed division members would come and ask him what was the point in living, he would encourage them all the while mentally screaming 'why are you asking me? I hate my life more than you ever could!'
'Cause suicide is painless
it brings on many changes
and I can take or leave it if I please.
...and you can do the same thing if you please.
He drew his sword and stared at it wondering if he should end it all.