I
couldn't stand to see it much longer, his shierks and cries of pain.
Praying couldn't even help him now.
I whispered his name
softly as I felt my eyes become softened.. But I knew.. I knew what
had to be done.
My heart was pounding, I stood
uneasy feeling the sweat trinkle down my cheeks as I clenched my fist
into a tighter pulp. Thinking of the consequences, knowing the
consequences.. I sprung forward racing to where he was.
"Naruto.."
I thought quietly.
Their voices became more distinct with
each move I made forward, and even in the worst of situations I hear
Naruto still shouting proudly for what he believes to be true, and I
remember that it is one of the reasons I love him as much as I do. I
remember why I'm doing this again, and my speed increases
slightly..faster.
The image is vague now. Pein is standing in
front of my Naruto, as he defenselessly argues through the pain and
the torment.
"This is it" I murmur quietly to myself, but more loudly heard than a mighty roar.
Naruto
catches me from the corner of his eye, and in response Pein sees me
as well.
My landing sends vibrations through the ground and I
stand proudly in front of Naruto.
"I won't let you lay another finger on Naruto!"
Pein looks at me as if I'm
nothing, absolutely no threat,
and he may be correct.. but it
doesn't matter, I'm doing this for Naruto.
My palms are
sweating, and Naruto's shouting at me with concern in his voice.
"What're you doing here!!? Get out of here you're no match
for--"
"I know" I say quickly and abruptly.
"I'm.. just being selfish.."
Naruto's harsh words are screaming with more panic than worry.
Being immune to his troubled cries for me to save myself, I continue to speak.
"I'm here of my own free will"
I hear and mentally see the memories flooding into my head now.
"I use to always cry and give up.. I nearly went the wrong way"
My voice is shaky but my heart feels steady and in place.
"But you.. you showed me the right way.." I can hear Naruto quietly breathing, so unaware all these years of the impact he's made onto me.
"I was always chasing you.. wanting to overtake you..I just wanted to walk with you.. I wanted to be with you."
The words are coming more
fluently to
me although with the unchanging face of death staring me in eyes..
It only gave me more courage to say what I've been trying to spit
out for all these years.
"You changed me! Your smile
saved me! So I'm not afraid to die protecting you!" this
statement most true of all, and came out more boldly than ever
expected.
A gentle breeze slightly passes me signaling the "Go"
I raise my hand into a fighting stance a bit higher, and my
confession.. what I've been trying to say from the beginning
"Because
I- I love you"
leaves my lips faster than beyond what I
could control and at that moment.. I realize,
it was my heart
speaking for me.
My legs are running faster than I could keep up
with but my chakra builds and I begin to blow as a final attempt into
protecting Naruto.
I feel a flicker of a tear leave my eyes and
fall unattainably to the ground. Than suddenly, pain..
My eyes
are squinting as I lay down in the ground. Their slowly closing,
reminding me of the time I was in the chunin exams,
asking Naruto
if I had changed a little.
I'm now wondering what his response
would be this very moment.
I feel free.. this burden had been
lifted from my shoulders. And all this physically pain is killing me
as I wallow in my own blood, I couldn't be.. any happier.
I say
goodbye to the world, and the sweet smile's and expressions of
Naruto's face.
A light.. a white light.. more powerful than a
thousand suns, but shining warmly on my face.
There's a hand in
front of me, and unknowingly I take hold.
The sweetest sounds are
emerging everywhere, and I just now realize the pain's gone.
Somehow, I'm still walking, but than start examining the body and
I see it's Naruto.
He's running ahead, glancing back at me, and I
hear him mouthing "Come on Hinata!"
More confused than
ever, I felt completely lost and utterly thinking I'm in a ultimate
dream world.
There was no other explanation.
Heaven certainly
could not be like this.
"Where-"
Naruto
pins me to the soft green grass and kisses me so tenderly, so
unrealistic..
I don't ask questions but simply enjoy the feel at
this moment.
He smiles at me and lends a hand to pick me back
onto my feet.
He laughs joyfully, and I look in front of me.
Everybody is there. Everybody is smiling. Everyone.
My entire
clan is smiling, Tenten, Lee, Kiba, Akamaru, Shino, Sakura, Sasuke,
Kurenai with Asuma standing aside her, Shikamaru, Ino,
Choji, and
even people I can't even recall meeting. They all looked pleased with
me, and seem so happy and easy. Like they were proud. Especially, my
father.
I fall to my knees in confusion. There's a blank stare on
my face and I feel the tears pour down like heavy rain.
"What
am I doing here.. I don't.. where am I.."
I say in between
sobs of absolute pity. I almost felt sorry for myself. The landscape
had changed and I was now watching flashbacks of my life, starting
when I was a toddler.
I watched dumbfounded as I see myself grow
through the years of my life. All of the moments of insecurity,
moments of love, anger, desperation, disappointment all coming into
my viewing, all up to me sacrificing myself for my loved one. This
only caused me to become even more devastated. I still had no idea
what was going on.. was I dreaming..? Or is this truly heaven..?
I
watched Pein stab the blade straight to me, and I watched Naruto's
eyes fill with anger and depression. The flashing images of my life
fade and suddenly I feel the presence of a warm hand on my shoulder,
I wasn't surprised, nothing made sense anymore.
But none the
less, I looked to see. And again, it was Naruto. My Naruto. Consoling
me, brushing the hairs away from my face and kissing where the trails
of tears traveled down.
Something I had never thought possible.
But always imagined. I looked at him blankly,
and the flashbacks
come back to me as I see Naruto defeating Pein. Naruto was a hero, no
doubt. Saving all of Kohona and risking his own life in the process.
Which is a relief to know everything was okay down there because I
understand now that I am in Heaven.
The short moment of seeing
Naruto enriched with glory had slowly faded from my mind.
But
right as it fades.. The fake presence of Naruto is gone, and somehow
I feel wrapped in warmth and my ear
tickles from a small whisper
I hear so faintly in my ear.
"Hinata saved me.. she's the
hero."
I knew I had heard it was correct, something just
told me it was.
I smiled through the confusion as if those few
words spoken
had clarified everything in this mess.
This
fictional place became hazy and I was lifted high, feeling more
peaceful than ever before.
This place was gone as well as earth,
the people and everything.
I didn't see anything after that but I
was somehow
completely content.
