My Jacob or My Edward?
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Chapter 1- I Promise.
Keeping his eyes on mine, Jacob began to bend his face toward me. And I was still absolutely undecided.
"Bella." He murmured his lips an inch away from mine.
"Jacob... I don't want to go through any more pain." I stuttered as I stared into his gentle eyes.
"I'll never hurt you Bella." Jacob stated. "I Promise." Determination was written all over his face.
And that's when he leaned in and pressed his warm lips against mine. It all happened too quickly. I stayed frozen for a couple of seconds, thoughts of Edward overflowed my mind. Then something incredible happened. I found myself wrapping my arms around his neck and I pulled him closer, deepening the kiss. Jacob must have took this is as a sign to go further. He began to trace his fingers down my back, reaching for the hem of my shirt. He lifted it up slightly, revealing the skin of my lower back which caused me to shiver. This was when I realised it had gone too far. I broke away from the kiss and looked away, feeling the blood rush to my face.
"Bella, you're beautiful." Jacob said as he brushed my hair off of my face.
"You don't want me Jacob, I'm broken." I replied as I fixed my gaze on the floor. I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.
"I'll always want you Bella, always." He said as he lifted my chin, causing me to look into his eyes. "I can hear Alice coming, I'll leave you guys to talk."
"You'll come back?" I asked him.
"Of course." He answered with a smile as he walked out of the kitchen.
"Bella?" Alice said as she approached me.
"What's up Alice?" I asked.
"I'm going to head back and tell my family what's going on with Victoria." I winced when she said MY family. "Before it gets out of hand." She added.
"OK. But you'll let me know what's going on right?" I asked. I was worried that she would leave me again. "Will I see you again?"
"Of course Bella. This isn't just your problem, it's all of ours. We brought you into this." Alice replied with sorrow in her eyes. "And you need us. Those dogs obviously haven't helped much."
"That's not true Alice." I shot back suddenly offended. "They've done more than enough."
"We'll see." Alice said as she hugged me and then left.
"Call me, please." I yelled out as she closed the front door.
Once Alice was gone, I went upstairs and had a shower for two reasons. One, because I knew Jacob didn't like how her smelt lingered on my skin. And two because I just needed to clear my head, relax and think. The whole that was once punched into my chest was healing more rapidly due to Jacob and my encounter. I suddenly felt that a weight had been pulled off of my shoulders but I knew I needed more time, so I buried the new feelings I had for Jacob in the back of my mind. I had other things to worry about anyway. Like if Alice and "her" family were actually going to return to forks. Could I really cope with seeing Edward? I turned off the taps and stepped out of the shower, suddenly having my epiphany. I knew the answer to that last question – Yes, I could cope with seeing him again. He needs to know how much he hurt me and how much his decision affected my life. But then it struck me again. As if he cared anyway, he said he didn't want me anymore.
I wrapped a large blue towel around my torso and started to walk to my bedroom.
"Jacob!" I said startled as I walked into my bedroom. Trust this to happen on the one day I don't bring my pyjamas with me to the bathroom.
"Oh... err, sorry. I'll just leave so you can get um dressed." He stammered as he walked out of my bedroom, closing the door behind him.
I walked over to my closet and chucked on the first pair of pyjamas I saw. I looked into the mirror and saw my cheeks were completely red. I needed a minute to just calm down.
"Hey." I said as I opened my bedroom door, motioning him to come inside.
"We need to talk." He said sternly, but then he pulled me into a tight hug.
It felt good wrapped in his arms, I felt warm and at home. I quickly put those thoughts to the back of my mind again, I needed to concentrate.
"What did you want to talk about?" I asked, still pressed against his bare chest.
"What's happening with Alice?" He said. "I thought she was staying longer."
"She's gone to inform everyone about Victoria." I answered. All of a sudden, I felt Jacob begin to quiver.
"Is... is... he, coming back?" he asked.
I sighed. "I don't know Jacob. I'm not even sure if Alice will tell him. She said that she doesn't see Edward anymore." I could feel it was getting easier to talk about Edward.
"I'm scared Bells." Jacob said as he let me go and looked away.
What would Jacob be scared of? I thought he was confident with killing Victoria.
"Of what?" I asked as I sat down on my bed.
"That once Edward comes back, you'll leave me." Jacob answered as walked to my bed and sat down next to me.
"I'm scared Jacob. That you'll imprint and lose your feelings for me." I replied, trying to avoid the topic of Edward right now.
"That won't happen Bella. My feelings are so strong for you that I don't see any other girls, I only see you. I've loved you since I saw you that first day on First Beach." He said looking into my eyes.
"But look what happened to Sam and Leah." I pressed.
"My feelings for you go way deeper than any imprint." He stated.
"Jacob, you should know that the feelings I have for Edward have changed." I wasn't sure if that statement was completely true but it felt good to say anyway. "Besides, he left me, he doesn't want me anymore."
"I want you Bella." Jacob said leaning towards me. "More than anything I've ever wanted."
"I need you Jacob." I said. "More than anything I've ever needed. I love you."
He then pulled me into a firm embrace and whispered into my ear. "I know it's only as much as you can right now and I understand. I'll wait Bella."
"Thank you." I replied as I melted into his warm embrace.