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I will never grow and I know why. It is my fear that keeps me in this form. I do not fear growing up. I fear becoming a Simpson.
My father will never be a person to whom I can look up. Always drinking, always sitting behind the television. He always abuses my brother and sister. He barely goes to work and earns money, but I can't blame him because he is stupid. Maybe he cares, and maybe he tries, but he is and will forever be an idiot.
My mother is a wonderful person. She is always there for everybody. She is the one that looks after us. Maybe the reason why she is different is because she was not born with this cursed blood. She is truly perfect to me, but I will never understand how a person in their right mind can marry that idiot. She slipped up bad. She is the only Simspson who had a choice and she chose wrong.
Bart turned out bad, but I will never blame him. His stupid father ruined his life. He always slips up and never does anything right. He is also not very bright even he tries his hardest.
Lisa is talented and intelligent. She could sit on top of the world, but due to her family she will forever remain hidden along with her smarts and talents. She is always good to everybody and never asks a thing in return. She is wasting her life due to the fact that she is too soft and indecisive.
Grandpa is old and useless. He has never actually done anything useful. He is more a baby than I ever was. He never makes sense and he never belonged under this roof. He is great big liar.
Maybe you will now understand why I will never grow up. Maybe you will now see why I don't want to talk and maybe even the reason why I can't walk. Let me remain an innocent child please, because I fear that I will become a monster.
Maybe I will become a criminal, a murderer, a useless person, or even an unnoticed person. I never want to be like my father. I never want to end up like my mother. I don't want to live like my brother or be held back like my sister.
I have this phobia and it keeps growing inside me. It would be nice if I knew that I was adopted. Anything would be better than being one of them, even if you told me that my real father was an alien I would believe you just to escape them.
Homer, Marge, Bart and Lisa, please understand that I will love you for as long as I live, but I would mostly only do that because it would be more of a duty to me. You are the reason why I keep sucking on the pacifier. I know that pacifiers are great cause for dumb babies, but if I ever stood a chance as one of you this is the only way.
I am barely a year old and I already understand that I have to degrade in order to become part of you and sadly I know the time will come for me to face my fears.
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