Title: Life Is But a Song
Author: Pandora North Star
Notes: This story is a sequel to Spike and I Are in A Band which takes place after Once More With Feeling.
Chapter 1
Buffy went to the mailbox, not really looking for anything interesting, but bored. Since returning to Sunnydale, and attempting to work things out with Willow, part of her had stayed in LA with Spike. The part of her that wanted to be a rock star. The little girl inside of her who believed she was a rock star. She looked through the mail absently, until she caught the familiar scratch of Spike's handwriting.
They had promised to see each other in a week but it had been almost two weeks and both were too busy. She hastily opened the letter tossing the envelope on the ground.
She opened it and began reading.
'Hey Buffy. I was never very good at this letter stuff. I've been working with a new studio and a new manager. I showed him some of your songs. He liked them. He thinks I really have what it takes. Imagine me on MTV or the like. Hope they don't want me to do any concerts in the park or something. Not that I would. I wrote you another song. It's attached on the bottom. I also wanted to tell you that I'm healing just fine. Of course a night with you would make sure I was fine. Get my drift? Later Luv.
\\I walked by the ocean in the darkness
And I thought of you
For I love you like the tides
Ever changing, always moving
Together we are like the sun and moon
You fill my world
You're all I bloody think about
And you drive me crazy
I am pulled like the tides
Your gravity pulls me towards you
You spin my world
You rock me, shake me, but please take me
Don't let me be alone
Sweet mother you're my goddess
And you're fine
My head aches and the distance is far
But I feel you
With every breath I don't take
Like a pain, reminding me how much it hurts
When you're not around
Across an ocean, even by my side
I'm alone when I'm not inside you
Because I want to lose myself in you
And become part of you//
Buffy dropped the letter with a gasp. Dawn grabbed it. "What's that? A letter from Spike?"
"Don't you dare." Buffy hissed snatching it away. Dawn looked at her with a hurt expression. How could Buffy explain how deeply those words settled in her soul? Did Spike have any idea Angel had said those very words to her?
She had confessed that she was involved with Spike. They treated her much like they did the Buffybot when they found out about that. But she didn't care. She loved them, but they had crossed a line bringing her back, and it would take awhile to earn her trust back, and they knew it, so they let it go.
And also, Giles was gone. He was going to tell her before she took off, but he was absolutely certain when she ran away. It hurt to no extent, and she guessed that was why she was so eager and so possessive of the letter.
"It's private. I don't snoop in your journal, please don't read my mail." Buffy said more gently. She tucked the letter into her pocket and walked back inside with Dawn.
Author: Pandora North Star
Notes: This story is a sequel to Spike and I Are in A Band which takes place after Once More With Feeling.
Chapter 1
Buffy went to the mailbox, not really looking for anything interesting, but bored. Since returning to Sunnydale, and attempting to work things out with Willow, part of her had stayed in LA with Spike. The part of her that wanted to be a rock star. The little girl inside of her who believed she was a rock star. She looked through the mail absently, until she caught the familiar scratch of Spike's handwriting.
They had promised to see each other in a week but it had been almost two weeks and both were too busy. She hastily opened the letter tossing the envelope on the ground.
She opened it and began reading.
'Hey Buffy. I was never very good at this letter stuff. I've been working with a new studio and a new manager. I showed him some of your songs. He liked them. He thinks I really have what it takes. Imagine me on MTV or the like. Hope they don't want me to do any concerts in the park or something. Not that I would. I wrote you another song. It's attached on the bottom. I also wanted to tell you that I'm healing just fine. Of course a night with you would make sure I was fine. Get my drift? Later Luv.
\\I walked by the ocean in the darkness
And I thought of you
For I love you like the tides
Ever changing, always moving
Together we are like the sun and moon
You fill my world
You're all I bloody think about
And you drive me crazy
I am pulled like the tides
Your gravity pulls me towards you
You spin my world
You rock me, shake me, but please take me
Don't let me be alone
Sweet mother you're my goddess
And you're fine
My head aches and the distance is far
But I feel you
With every breath I don't take
Like a pain, reminding me how much it hurts
When you're not around
Across an ocean, even by my side
I'm alone when I'm not inside you
Because I want to lose myself in you
And become part of you//
Buffy dropped the letter with a gasp. Dawn grabbed it. "What's that? A letter from Spike?"
"Don't you dare." Buffy hissed snatching it away. Dawn looked at her with a hurt expression. How could Buffy explain how deeply those words settled in her soul? Did Spike have any idea Angel had said those very words to her?
She had confessed that she was involved with Spike. They treated her much like they did the Buffybot when they found out about that. But she didn't care. She loved them, but they had crossed a line bringing her back, and it would take awhile to earn her trust back, and they knew it, so they let it go.
And also, Giles was gone. He was going to tell her before she took off, but he was absolutely certain when she ran away. It hurt to no extent, and she guessed that was why she was so eager and so possessive of the letter.
"It's private. I don't snoop in your journal, please don't read my mail." Buffy said more gently. She tucked the letter into her pocket and walked back inside with Dawn.