"To belong,
To have a home,
To have a family to call my own.
To stop this incessant wandering,
This semi- existence I dare to live.
In life's tedious game I suppose we're all screwed. Some cannot ignore their past, And get themselves killed over a good for nothing wench. I had to find mine, As the only way to seek absolution, But to find in the end I'm still on the same boat that I was before, Quite literally.
So life will play its bitter games, And, due to this twisted end, My heart has lost pieces here and there, And can never be fixed.
Now I leave you all behind, All that's left that is, A broken ship, a broken dream, Of living life normally.
I wish you best of luck Jet Black, Good Bye."
I read it once, then read it again, and now I find she was absolutely right about things. No matter how harsh it sounded it was all true. I woke up this morning, thinking I would see Faye disconsolate as she had been ever since that selfish bastard Spike got himself killed. But I didn't see her up or hear her muffled tears from the bedroom, it turns out she had left long before that. I don't think he realized how much he hurt her. Naturally, he wouldn't though. I always thought that boy had a one-track mind, and now that this has happened I no longer feel that accusing him of it is wrong. For he doesn't know how he affected us all, that's just like him, selfish, selfish to the end.
To be honest I had hoped Faye would stay, I figured since she labeled this her home she would stay long after my leg was healed, but I expected too much. Faye is a free spirit with a lot of debts to pay off. At least she was kind and only took half of the safe with her. Now that both she and Spike are gone, the place is quiet, too quiet for my tastes. All that's here is me, no Ed, no Faye, no Spike and no Ein, just me, myself, and I, its going to be hard to get used to. No more food consumed with in five minutes of its arrival, no more arguments over nothing, and no more incoherent speaking in third person and bizarre phrases. But now that all that is over I realize what I've lost, my family. Kind of funny to think about it that way, but it was. I'd grow so used to everyone's faults, to the point where they became endearing, and I grew used to the bond we as a crew shared. It really is a shame we had to loose it. I sit down on the couch and sigh deeply. So many unanswered questions, why did it have to end this way, why couldn't time have stood still when we all gathered on board and together? Oh well, that wont get me anywhere. I have to move on and live with it all, and you know what, I may just enjoy the solitude. "Sayonara." I calmly say, and go to the kitchen; maybe I'll make myself some Bell Peppers and Beef, without beef.
In life's tedious game I suppose we're all screwed. Some cannot ignore their past, And get themselves killed over a good for nothing wench. I had to find mine, As the only way to seek absolution, But to find in the end I'm still on the same boat that I was before, Quite literally.
So life will play its bitter games, And, due to this twisted end, My heart has lost pieces here and there, And can never be fixed.
Now I leave you all behind, All that's left that is, A broken ship, a broken dream, Of living life normally.
I wish you best of luck Jet Black, Good Bye."
I read it once, then read it again, and now I find she was absolutely right about things. No matter how harsh it sounded it was all true. I woke up this morning, thinking I would see Faye disconsolate as she had been ever since that selfish bastard Spike got himself killed. But I didn't see her up or hear her muffled tears from the bedroom, it turns out she had left long before that. I don't think he realized how much he hurt her. Naturally, he wouldn't though. I always thought that boy had a one-track mind, and now that this has happened I no longer feel that accusing him of it is wrong. For he doesn't know how he affected us all, that's just like him, selfish, selfish to the end.
To be honest I had hoped Faye would stay, I figured since she labeled this her home she would stay long after my leg was healed, but I expected too much. Faye is a free spirit with a lot of debts to pay off. At least she was kind and only took half of the safe with her. Now that both she and Spike are gone, the place is quiet, too quiet for my tastes. All that's here is me, no Ed, no Faye, no Spike and no Ein, just me, myself, and I, its going to be hard to get used to. No more food consumed with in five minutes of its arrival, no more arguments over nothing, and no more incoherent speaking in third person and bizarre phrases. But now that all that is over I realize what I've lost, my family. Kind of funny to think about it that way, but it was. I'd grow so used to everyone's faults, to the point where they became endearing, and I grew used to the bond we as a crew shared. It really is a shame we had to loose it. I sit down on the couch and sigh deeply. So many unanswered questions, why did it have to end this way, why couldn't time have stood still when we all gathered on board and together? Oh well, that wont get me anywhere. I have to move on and live with it all, and you know what, I may just enjoy the solitude. "Sayonara." I calmly say, and go to the kitchen; maybe I'll make myself some Bell Peppers and Beef, without beef.