The first time I met you, it was spring. I can still remember it clearly, my lifeless grey world reintroducing the colors that I thought I have forgotten; the luscious pink of the cherry blossoms dancing playfully with spring breeze; you with that melodica playing with all your heart's content, calling the doves to go near you. Your very passion even moved your audience back then to play with you.
I felt something when I saw you. A feeling that was both familiar and unfamiliar to me back then. A feeling that I thought I would never be capable of. I fully know now what it was. I may have already indirectly confessed to you during that night when you went to see the fireflies. I could only wish now that I could have said it to you directly.
Maybe it was my low self-esteem. Maybe it was my naivety. Maybe it was me being stupid. Maybe it was because of Watari. Looking at it now, I really should have known that it was me who you were hoping to be with that day.
It was my hand that you held on our way to Towa Hall.
Not Watari's.
It was me who you searched for among the audience while you were performing your moving piece. It was my heart that you wanted to reach.
Not Watari's.
It was my opinion that you sought for, what I thought of your performance.
Not Watari's.
I remembered not giving you a direct answer back then. That was pretty insensitive of me huh? I apologize. To tell you the truth, I was just scared. I didn't know how to say it without it sounding like an outright confession. And to think that I've just met you that day. Heh.
Besides, back then, I really thought that it was Watari that you wanted to be with. Not me. Not friend A. Not the foil. Not Arima Kousei.
I can now only wish that you could have told me sooner. That you could have gathered the courage to face me sooner. That you could have entered and owned my heart sooner.
A year with you is not enough. A lifetime with you is never enough. We may be young back then. But I know… I just know that my love for you will transcend time. It will never be ending.
You. The girl who I've always thought liked my bestfriend. The girl who have reintroduced the colors back into my life. The girl who had made me realize that my life is with music. The girl who had made me hear my music again. The girl who I first in love with.
It's been a long time since you've left this world.
To this day, I still haven't forgotten.
To this day, I still miss you.
Miyazono Kaori, will I ever see you again?